After 10 months of soberity, I fell off the wagon at new years. I drank almost everyday for 11 days until I got arrested and locked up for 26 hours. I thought I hit rock bottom before I went to treatment last March, I don't know if I did now. Any thoughts? I mean is it possible to hit that "rock bottom" and then go back out? Or does that mean that the real bottom is still to come? I haven't had a drink since thursday night and I do not plan on picking up again, ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!
I don't know if anyone remembers me but I used to post on this board for about the first 6 months of my sobriety. I thought I had a great strong program and then I quit posting and my meeting attendence dwindled down to zero by October. I am back and I have started going to meetings again.
Hi,
I can't imagine how it must be after 10 months to start drinking again, pretty devestating.
I guess you didn't really really really want to stop. If you had really truly wanted it you wouldn't have picked up the first drink. Easy for me to say I know.
At christmas and new year I was really tempted, and craving, but my will not to be a drunk again overpowered the will to want to be drunk. It is only in getting to the point when I want sobriety over everything else that it worked for me, and believe me I tried everything to be a normal drinker.
Also, you are entitled to relapse!! it is not easy giving up. I decided to stop about four years ago but it took ages of me desperatley trying to stay sober for a few weeks and then I would slip and hit the booze big time. Months later I would try and stop again, but the whole cycle would repeat itself again and again until last February when I really stopped for what I would like to think is for good.
Go easy on yourself. People relapse after many many years. You have proved to yourself that you can do it. It must be really hard to feel like you are back to the beginning again, I feel for you.
Please let us know how you are getting on.
Love Lacey.
I can't imagine how it must be after 10 months to start drinking again, pretty devestating.
I guess you didn't really really really want to stop. If you had really truly wanted it you wouldn't have picked up the first drink. Easy for me to say I know.
At christmas and new year I was really tempted, and craving, but my will not to be a drunk again overpowered the will to want to be drunk. It is only in getting to the point when I want sobriety over everything else that it worked for me, and believe me I tried everything to be a normal drinker.
Also, you are entitled to relapse!! it is not easy giving up. I decided to stop about four years ago but it took ages of me desperatley trying to stay sober for a few weeks and then I would slip and hit the booze big time. Months later I would try and stop again, but the whole cycle would repeat itself again and again until last February when I really stopped for what I would like to think is for good.
Go easy on yourself. People relapse after many many years. You have proved to yourself that you can do it. It must be really hard to feel like you are back to the beginning again, I feel for you.
Please let us know how you are getting on.
Love Lacey.
Hey Lovin life
You have answered your question by listing what happened, keep posting and going to meetings and find a sponsor that has a stronger will than yourself.
Congradulations for posting and going back to meetings and stop worrying if that was your real rock bottom or not as we all have a rockbottom waiting for us if we pick up again, learn from the hindsight of your build up and look for the triggers that lead to you picking up
Light and love Zac
You have answered your question by listing what happened, keep posting and going to meetings and find a sponsor that has a stronger will than yourself.
Congradulations for posting and going back to meetings and stop worrying if that was your real rock bottom or not as we all have a rockbottom waiting for us if we pick up again, learn from the hindsight of your build up and look for the triggers that lead to you picking up
Light and love Zac
theres always another rock bottom to be had alcholism is a progressive illness.and after every slip the rock bottoms,withdrawls WILL get worse.
dont beat yourself up about it too much,put your slip down as experience and a positive to building a foundation for your future recovery.I picked up after 5 years sobriety and leaned from my slip.
paul
dont beat yourself up about it too much,put your slip down as experience and a positive to building a foundation for your future recovery.I picked up after 5 years sobriety and leaned from my slip.
paul
oops forgot to sign in so the above post that was posted by myself has come posted by guest....DOH !
paul
paul
I guess you're a perfect example to us that the illness is never 'cured,' but managed daily. As in any addiction, one's too many and 10s not enough...
Thank you for sharing your slip--and for having the guts to admit it. We all learn from one another--one of the most important parts of sharing our experiences. Our prayers and thoughts are with you.
S
Thank you for sharing your slip--and for having the guts to admit it. We all learn from one another--one of the most important parts of sharing our experiences. Our prayers and thoughts are with you.
S
Thanks for the support. Sometimes I think that this site is better than an actual meeting. Getting advice from people who I don't know and have no face to put with a name seems to help a lot. I have been feeling a lot better about my slip, I know there are a ton of people out there who had a lot more time sober who have slipped. I have to work the program and use the tools that I already have to the best of my ability.
Lovin'life
Lovin'life
A very wise individual once said, "Judge not, lest ye be judged."
lovin life,
Relapse isn't a requirement for sobriety although many who ATTEMPT recovery usually do this attempting alone. That is my case in which I discovered sobriety at age 38 and by 41 I was back full tilt into all of my drugs/alcohol of choice.
My relapse started before my first drink just as yours did. Slowly the frequency of my attendance dwindled until I was going maybe once a month and I couldn't speak with my sponsor as I had a huge resentment towards him as well as to my own home group. In other words the "WE" in the program again reverted to the "I" program. Losing all semblance of tolerance, love, or humility I took credit for my sobriety and again I put my HP into a position of servant.
No longer was God my Higher Power but a partner in which it was me calling the shots, man did my arrogance come back with a vengeance and so did my reentry into being chased around by those bloody 4 horseman.
Unlike your recent slip (Sobriety Loses Its Priority) mine lasted 40 months during which my disease escalated to levels or rather they descended to places I truly never thought I would go, but I did.
What I found out during this new attempt to try some controlled drinking was that the only limit that the proverbial bottom has is death.
In October I celebrated my 50th birthday (bellybutton) and with and by the grace of God in April my 4th year of sobriety will take place.
Its funny when I look at how much effort I put into drinking and drugging on a daily basis but when it came to sobriety that huge commitment of hourly meetings seemed insurmountable. This was due to my UN willingness to do what it is suggested now that I am totally willing to do whatever it takes the meetings don't last nearly long enough.
May sobriety and serenity abound,
Bob
Relapse isn't a requirement for sobriety although many who ATTEMPT recovery usually do this attempting alone. That is my case in which I discovered sobriety at age 38 and by 41 I was back full tilt into all of my drugs/alcohol of choice.
My relapse started before my first drink just as yours did. Slowly the frequency of my attendance dwindled until I was going maybe once a month and I couldn't speak with my sponsor as I had a huge resentment towards him as well as to my own home group. In other words the "WE" in the program again reverted to the "I" program. Losing all semblance of tolerance, love, or humility I took credit for my sobriety and again I put my HP into a position of servant.
No longer was God my Higher Power but a partner in which it was me calling the shots, man did my arrogance come back with a vengeance and so did my reentry into being chased around by those bloody 4 horseman.
Unlike your recent slip (Sobriety Loses Its Priority) mine lasted 40 months during which my disease escalated to levels or rather they descended to places I truly never thought I would go, but I did.
What I found out during this new attempt to try some controlled drinking was that the only limit that the proverbial bottom has is death.
In October I celebrated my 50th birthday (bellybutton) and with and by the grace of God in April my 4th year of sobriety will take place.
Its funny when I look at how much effort I put into drinking and drugging on a daily basis but when it came to sobriety that huge commitment of hourly meetings seemed insurmountable. This was due to my UN willingness to do what it is suggested now that I am totally willing to do whatever it takes the meetings don't last nearly long enough.
May sobriety and serenity abound,
Bob
I slip off the wagon every day. I wake up in the morning with a true thought of sobriety only to fall off the wagon every evening. I commend you for going almost a year with sobriety. Honestly speaking, I have not been more than 10 hours. That being said, please be proud of what you have accomplished and feel good in the fact that you have the will to accomplish such a challenge. I look to you for my strength...if I could only last 10 hours, 10 days, 10 weeks....I am not even at months yet. I admire your strength and your honesty. Know that you are great and bad things happen to great people. You are in control and because you are great, you will make great decisions from here forward...maybe not consistently, but none the less...still great.
