So I`ve done my share of drugs for many different reasons and have always cleaned up at some point for some span of time, but everytime I end up coming back. When I do it is almost like my life can`t go on if I don`t get something in my system. I smoke pot to try to keep it calm and hidden, but that need for something more continues to rage on inside. Maybe I am ment to be addicted and will always need something, I just don`t want it to effect my quality of life anymore. Something has got to give. I`m getting desperate, I`m almost at the end of the line. Something has got to give.
troubled cow,
You may be predisposed to the disease of addiction but the choice to be actively addicted is not a 'meant to be' but a feeble excuse to 'want to be'.
Our fate lies not in the stars but within ourselves as the old bard so aptly put it. You need to figure out what your addiction is trying to mask. You must deal with the feelings that your addiction has always suppressed. Once those negative emotions start to well up inside of you then it seems you choose to numb yourself rather than face your demons. If you don't take a long hard look at you then you will HAVE to stay an addict rather than mean to.
C'mon nobody is meant to be an addict,
utter nonsense
You may be predisposed to the disease of addiction but the choice to be actively addicted is not a 'meant to be' but a feeble excuse to 'want to be'.
Our fate lies not in the stars but within ourselves as the old bard so aptly put it. You need to figure out what your addiction is trying to mask. You must deal with the feelings that your addiction has always suppressed. Once those negative emotions start to well up inside of you then it seems you choose to numb yourself rather than face your demons. If you don't take a long hard look at you then you will HAVE to stay an addict rather than mean to.
C'mon nobody is meant to be an addict,
utter nonsense
Ahhh. TC, I can definately empathize.
From that post alone I think some would say you are dual diagnosis. That's what I hear all the time anyway. In my heart though I know I used just to shut real, and true feelings out. Weather they were good or bad I didn't want them.
For me getting to the reason I used, and the reason I numbed myself was what allowed me to get better. Perhaps if you could find that reason you wouldn't feel this way. It's a tough call, but I swear it works.
I agree that nobody was born to be an addict. Hang in there, TC. There's an answer ahead. We just need to find it. Getting high is not going to get you there. Smoking weed will just delay it. Hang on though because it is evident you want to make it. You can do it.
From that post alone I think some would say you are dual diagnosis. That's what I hear all the time anyway. In my heart though I know I used just to shut real, and true feelings out. Weather they were good or bad I didn't want them.
For me getting to the reason I used, and the reason I numbed myself was what allowed me to get better. Perhaps if you could find that reason you wouldn't feel this way. It's a tough call, but I swear it works.
I agree that nobody was born to be an addict. Hang in there, TC. There's an answer ahead. We just need to find it. Getting high is not going to get you there. Smoking weed will just delay it. Hang on though because it is evident you want to make it. You can do it.
