Remember what I was saying the other day about hitting the rock bottom? I am pretty sure, no wait I am absolutely sure that what I thought was my rock bottom was indeed a false rock bottom. Last thursday, when I got in trouble and went to jail, AGAIN, was my real rock bottom.
I would do anything to take back what I did. I know that nothing in God's world happens by mistake, just like the passage that saved my life says. What happened is killing me, killing my family and everyone who is close to me. I know I was f***ing up pretty bad before, but this one takes the cake. It takes not just the cake, it takes everything sweet that I could ever imagine.
Now that I have truelly hit the bottom, I have to pull myself up and let my HP take control. I can not do this alone. I need everyone that I can get to support me again. I know that I am not alone. There are many people who have been though the same thing. God help me.
Not so Lovin'Life right now
Hi,
I find the rock bottom scenario a bit of a generalisation I think. For me, what stopped me drinking; destroyed my computer, trashed the house, went mad at boyfriend and can't remember anything, was nothing compared to some of the situations I had been in before when I nearly got killed and stuff. Somehow though, this time was it, I had really had enough.
Rock bottom was years ago when I was really in a mess.
One of the saying that floats around on here is about being sick and tired of being sick and tired. That was my turning point.
It is different for everyone. For you, I hope you have got to your turning point now. Maybe in hindsight, being in the police cells will be a good thing!
Take care, stay sober!
I find the rock bottom scenario a bit of a generalisation I think. For me, what stopped me drinking; destroyed my computer, trashed the house, went mad at boyfriend and can't remember anything, was nothing compared to some of the situations I had been in before when I nearly got killed and stuff. Somehow though, this time was it, I had really had enough.
Rock bottom was years ago when I was really in a mess.
One of the saying that floats around on here is about being sick and tired of being sick and tired. That was my turning point.
It is different for everyone. For you, I hope you have got to your turning point now. Maybe in hindsight, being in the police cells will be a good thing!
Take care, stay sober!
Sounds like you're in serious poop. Have you considered voluntary check-in to a rehab? Some people need that containment to shut out some of the external pressure until they can grasp the value of sobriety.
Just a thought.
I thank my God and all His Peace that He found me. I knew where He was all along--just had to reach out....
Just a thought.
I thank my God and all His Peace that He found me. I knew where He was all along--just had to reach out....
Already been to treatment, don't believe that I need to go back. Meetings are working just fine for me right now. I had a bad thought tonight, but I said NO and let it pass. It can be done.
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