you no what,thats why I relasped so much,,I wanted that ,I FEEL OK FEELING.but wds are nothing ,,the where the heck is those happy go lucky feelings ,,will I feel them again,,,oooo golly cant wait ,,,here comes a pill ...felt sick for awhile ,,ooothere it is ,,,nope thats the ,fake happy ,,on and on,,,so now ,,here I am again,,you need someone to help you along that alone road to recovery ,IM the same way ,,I just want to feel normal,fresh ,smell that clean good air,so hang in there ,,it did come back you no,,but I guess life got hard ,,,I stopped for a long time,,and in my 6 mouth I felt that good feeling again ,but pain issues ,I dont have pain ,,I just wanted that high feeling,,,you were to see me ,,,IM just scared alone like you sweety,,hold my hand ,,and we will help you,ok love poopie
Thank you so much for your kind words. Did you say you were clean for 6 months? I remember reading your posts before when I was on this board. I had 6 months clean one time don't even remember what it was like since the past almost twenty years I have been high on something or other. I started taking somas and found I would totally forget snaps or moments of my life that scared me but I always was so good at rationalizing things so I did that instead of quitting. My hubby is in Vegas right now and my mom has the kids I took this weekend to be alone and get thru the worst of the w/ds but I am feeling pretty good today cleaned the house and washed all the bedspreads (as you know how the sweats can be). I am going to be with my family tonight and take it one day at a time. Thanks for the hand
Roxy
Roxy
