Go to Recovery Diaries and look for Descent Back Into Hell by mother W...her story will speak to you...she's been there and back and she is very eloquent about how all this feels. She and I are still in touch all these years later.
Also, I responded to you on the Things That Don't Help thread.
Peace ~ M&M
Thank you I will look up her post and read it. It helps to know others who have gone or are going through the same journey
