Know how some of you are feeling. I come from a lovely place in Scotland where if you are an addict you get what you want! I was on 8 60mg of diffs and 2 moggies daily for 3 year. And then coz I kept selling them 4 gear I asked my Doc 4 meth! got auto onto 50ml and 3 moggies daily! that was 2 year ago never seen my gp again (repeat script and not 1 drug test!). have moved to aberdeen to be with the "parents". Have detoxed from 30ml down to 3ml in about 30 days! tried today with nothing but it was a killer! ended up necking 10ml half hour ago and thats me right back farther awa fae blockers! am thinking of subutex and then blockers but have no idea if my jolly doctor can give me subutex! after 7 years (im only 23) this is my first time being heroin free for more than 2 days. im a month clean now! am finding meth 2 hard! i know its really late (lack of sleep) comes with the job!! haha but if anyone has any advise for me i would be very very grateful! just need someone to talk 2! thanks guys! xxx
My advice is the old saying one day at a time. It's hard and very trying mentally to stay clean. You need to have a support person you can talk to when the urge hits. I don't have a support person in real life but, It would help me TONS if I did have. Also the times i've relasped were ALL due to hanging out with active user. I don't go around active user now and I've stayed clean 11 months. Well, my brother is a active user so I keep my contact with him very low. I try to do anything active I can, writing, reading, walking,fishing when the urge hit to get my mind off the craving. Try to find anything you enjoy to do and do that instead..I know ez to say not always ez to do.
Thankyou so much! Im trying to plod along with a little housework and walking the dog etc. I feel very lonely coz I had to move to my parents 40miles away from home, but all my childhood friends are addicts! It was so hard breaking away from them! But if I want a life I have to do it! As people keep saying ill meet new people! I dont worry about the stigma of being an addict i am who i am! Were not evil people....OK done a few bad things, but hasnt everyone. Im just scared of living normal! I was lucky in a way when i was messed up with my doctor. I could sweet talk him into anything but NOW it was probably the worst mistake of my life! Put my tolerance sky high because I was on heroin every day through my meth treatment (was lucky...ex boyfreind was a fisherman) plenty cash! WELL UNLUCKY! IN my Scotland my hometown has the worst percentage of addicts per population and it was so hard to leave and just cut myself off!
