So I took a 3 week LOA from work to sort out some of this stuff, and because I was seriously depressed (ie, not getting out of bed, not eating, etc).... and I go back tomorrow. And I'm just totally out of my mind anxious. It's just the 7am-730pm thing and going back after not being there for awhile and wanting to do a good job and not wanting to be distracted.... or get in trouble because I have missed so much work (even though I talked about it with my manager and have a note from my shrink)... I'm just a mess right now and I can't get over it.
I'm making myself nuts... I just want everything to be ok....
*SIGH*
SP
SP
just try to relax!!! go take a warm bath and get some rest! everything will be fine, we have no controll over what will happen tomorrow when work is envolved......... i just learn to take it as it comes............ ride the wave.
good luck and everything will be just fine!!!
Pants
just try to relax!!! go take a warm bath and get some rest! everything will be fine, we have no controll over what will happen tomorrow when work is envolved......... i just learn to take it as it comes............ ride the wave.
good luck and everything will be just fine!!!
Pants
Thanks. I just took a shower and am watching Annie (hahaha), but I just want to cry.
If there was an emoticon for anxious/nauseaus/tearful/spazzy, I would use it now.
I think it would go something like this =8P <<<
If there was an emoticon for anxious/nauseaus/tearful/spazzy, I would use it now.
I think it would go something like this =8P <<<
Hey...what your feeling is completely normal...so try to settle down a bit. You have had a stressful couple of weeks. However..you have accomplished alot! Try to look forward to going back...it will be good for you...you won't have anytime to dwell on your problems and you have probably been missed so much!
You can't change anything so why worry..get a good nite sleep and go in with you head held high!
You can't change anything so why worry..get a good nite sleep and go in with you head held high!
HA!!! nothing like the "tomorrow " song to get you in the mood for bed.............
like i said just relax and just accept the fact that we are powerless over things and it will be fine............
allthought i may also suggest some chocolate..........that always helps any situation!
Pants
like i said just relax and just accept the fact that we are powerless over things and it will be fine............
allthought i may also suggest some chocolate..........that always helps any situation!
Pants
SP,
Its normal that your feeling such trepidation...
Would you get mad at me if i told you to take some extra B vitamins tomorrow with breakfast?? Their water not fat soluble so cant hurt......lolol
Just teasing you...you'll do fine and if you really cant physically make it at work, then the worst that can happen is you take some more sick time..
Chances are though that the day will fly by taking care of all your patients and the next thing you know, youll have another day under your belt..
Good luck, be sure to post once your home...
Hugs
Ali
Its normal that your feeling such trepidation...
Would you get mad at me if i told you to take some extra B vitamins tomorrow with breakfast?? Their water not fat soluble so cant hurt......lolol
Just teasing you...you'll do fine and if you really cant physically make it at work, then the worst that can happen is you take some more sick time..
Chances are though that the day will fly by taking care of all your patients and the next thing you know, youll have another day under your belt..
Good luck, be sure to post once your home...
Hugs
Ali
Ha ha ha Ali - you rock :)
But dude, if I had some B vitamins I would take them... seriously.
I'm just trying to breathe.
Thanks for all of the reinforcement guys....
It means so much.
SP
But dude, if I had some B vitamins I would take them... seriously.
I'm just trying to breathe.
Thanks for all of the reinforcement guys....
It means so much.
SP
My daughter took a 3 month leave of absence from her job to go for physical therapy and try to regain some back strength. She was an absolute mess crying every day, etc. and her finances are is AWFUL shape and she didn't know where she'd get the money for such a long leave, but needed it.
Her doc finally got her somewhat stabilized, but she's on 3 antidepressants (and the back pain is still there despite pt 3 times a week for 3 months.) At work, she took a demotion because she couldn't be on her feet for the 45 plus hours it took for her job as manager, so she's worse off money-wise.
At least, with your job, there is some mental satisfaction in helping others. For many, they just work to be able to live. I think your work will be good for your mind. It will take you away from your own troubles and give you a mental vacation which it seems you desperately need. The physical output will be good for you in that it will help you to relax when the physical load is over.
Best of luck and ((((hugs))))) and prayers.
Her doc finally got her somewhat stabilized, but she's on 3 antidepressants (and the back pain is still there despite pt 3 times a week for 3 months.) At work, she took a demotion because she couldn't be on her feet for the 45 plus hours it took for her job as manager, so she's worse off money-wise.
At least, with your job, there is some mental satisfaction in helping others. For many, they just work to be able to live. I think your work will be good for your mind. It will take you away from your own troubles and give you a mental vacation which it seems you desperately need. The physical output will be good for you in that it will help you to relax when the physical load is over.
Best of luck and ((((hugs))))) and prayers.
So it turns out that I didn't have to work today after all. I got there and I wasn't on the list and I saw that my leave was THROUGH today. So then they asked if I wanted to stay and I was like, "um, no..." and ran away :)
I actually need a few more days... I will be ready by Saturday.
I feel like this is a blessing in a way. Not like I should be putting it off, but I really think I needed a few more days.
Whew.
Thanks everyone - a lot.
I actually need a few more days... I will be ready by Saturday.
I feel like this is a blessing in a way. Not like I should be putting it off, but I really think I needed a few more days.
Whew.
Thanks everyone - a lot.
