DOES ANYONE ELSE FEEL THE SAME AS ME ,WHEN MY PARTNER IS OUT AROUND THE BLOCK USING SOMEWHERE AN I HEAR AN AMBULANCE MY HEART MISS'S A BEAT AN I THINK "OH GOD IS HE DEAD ?" AS HE HAD AN OVER DOSE THEN TILL THE MINUTE HE GETS BACK IM ILL WITH WORRY ITS A HORRIBLE FEELING THEY CAN BE VERY SELFISH PEOPLE WHEN THERE ON THAT s*** XX
Hi emz,
Hoping right this second you are not in a state of worry.
Surely people that have loved ones.......fathers, lovers, soul mates, daughters, and on and on......they are worried sick........not only about OD.....about bad dope........about them getting shot copping........about them getting locked up......about them contracting a disease.
It is a life of worry, emz..........it sure is.
emz, maybe you can check out the part of the board too for families/loved ones.........there's awesome people over there........have been through it all like you.........of course join us here too........but sometimes ya need to talk with those are in your position.
As far as wondering.........all the wondering in the world won't help, emz......we all had loved ones ask us WHY........and HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL...all that wondering.........and yeah we are selfish..........big time.....while using...
Hope ya are making out better today.
Hoping right this second you are not in a state of worry.
Surely people that have loved ones.......fathers, lovers, soul mates, daughters, and on and on......they are worried sick........not only about OD.....about bad dope........about them getting shot copping........about them getting locked up......about them contracting a disease.
It is a life of worry, emz..........it sure is.
emz, maybe you can check out the part of the board too for families/loved ones.........there's awesome people over there........have been through it all like you.........of course join us here too........but sometimes ya need to talk with those are in your position.
As far as wondering.........all the wondering in the world won't help, emz......we all had loved ones ask us WHY........and HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL...all that wondering.........and yeah we are selfish..........big time.....while using...
Hope ya are making out better today.
thanks for your reply it makes a lot of sense an ya prob have guessed im knew to this site its brill being able to hear what everyday life people go through an to ask others Q's
thanks
thanks
Emz -
Welcome. I used to feel that way all the time before my daughter went off to 16 months of rehab and counseling. From the time she was 16 until just before she turned 18 it was a constant state of anxiety, worry, fear. Every time the phone rang (even if my cell rang while I was teaching in the middle of the day - and a couple of times it was about her), every time her friends called looking for her, every time she was 5 minutes past her curfew (or didn't come home at all...). In my mind, I buried my girl a hundred times and told myself it wouldn't be a surprise when it actually did happen. She was not a heroin user - didn't care for the opiate family, prefered the speed group - but the threat of death through accident, impulse, or suicide was always present. Even now as she struggles to stay clean, has a job, lives back here at home - I still have a niggling heart...what if....? But I can't live in that place anymore.
So, yeah, I know how you feel, and so do lots of folks here. Bryn steered you in the right direction - hit the Families and Partners board, they've helped me loads.
Peace~MomNMore
Welcome. I used to feel that way all the time before my daughter went off to 16 months of rehab and counseling. From the time she was 16 until just before she turned 18 it was a constant state of anxiety, worry, fear. Every time the phone rang (even if my cell rang while I was teaching in the middle of the day - and a couple of times it was about her), every time her friends called looking for her, every time she was 5 minutes past her curfew (or didn't come home at all...). In my mind, I buried my girl a hundred times and told myself it wouldn't be a surprise when it actually did happen. She was not a heroin user - didn't care for the opiate family, prefered the speed group - but the threat of death through accident, impulse, or suicide was always present. Even now as she struggles to stay clean, has a job, lives back here at home - I still have a niggling heart...what if....? But I can't live in that place anymore.
So, yeah, I know how you feel, and so do lots of folks here. Bryn steered you in the right direction - hit the Families and Partners board, they've helped me loads.
Peace~MomNMore
Yep, just ask onyone on the familes board. Bryn'll tell ya.....I've cried to her and many other helpful, deep and spiritual people on here.
I just can't fathom how something like this can control the lives of people and destroy them. The grips of dope are so tight that anyone who has never tried it can't imagine. I would never EVER try it. My BF was clean for ten f***ing years. He put the s*** behind him all those years ago. All it took was one of his a****** friends to offer him a painkiller one day for his back and he was sucked right back in.
It just a visious cycle that won't end. I love him so much but had to let go. All my life i've never been able to let go of things that were no good for me.....it's like holding onto a 200lb weight in deep water......all you gotta do is let go and you float straight to the top. He don't want to be clean bad enough yet. He's lost his job, his girl and was arrested two nights ago..........and he is still using...........it's sick and twisted and something that I want NO part of. And the sad truth is that I really love him. The guy that I met three years ago. I want him back.
Worry about you, it's all you can do. Nothing or No One could make him stop but himself.
Take Care
Danie
I just can't fathom how something like this can control the lives of people and destroy them. The grips of dope are so tight that anyone who has never tried it can't imagine. I would never EVER try it. My BF was clean for ten f***ing years. He put the s*** behind him all those years ago. All it took was one of his a****** friends to offer him a painkiller one day for his back and he was sucked right back in.
It just a visious cycle that won't end. I love him so much but had to let go. All my life i've never been able to let go of things that were no good for me.....it's like holding onto a 200lb weight in deep water......all you gotta do is let go and you float straight to the top. He don't want to be clean bad enough yet. He's lost his job, his girl and was arrested two nights ago..........and he is still using...........it's sick and twisted and something that I want NO part of. And the sad truth is that I really love him. The guy that I met three years ago. I want him back.
Worry about you, it's all you can do. Nothing or No One could make him stop but himself.
Take Care
Danie
Yip definately..and when I see a police car I think they are coming from him, although I am not sure if that is hope or being paranoid...lol.
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i konow it doesnt help cause i was born a worrier i worry over the slightest thing im 24 an it's a wonder im not grey lol xx
no offence to any one who is lol
no offence to any one who is lol
Funny Emz am 24 myself and a born worrier also and we going through the same situation with partners. Wierd. I should be grey too...lol. x
Yes, every time I hear the sirens I get scared sick. It's so stupid I spose but I know that he HAS been to hospital several times. Not since we've been together but it seems too easy to get it wrong. Good to know I'm not alone.
