Sharonn, sounds like you are getting back on track. I applaud your determination!!
Sharron, I'm praying for you. I couldn't taper at all. Not only couldn't I taper I would take all my rx at the same time so I could still feel it. I totally understand. I have no control if there are pills in my house (or my mom's). I have so much respect for recovering alcoholics that are surrounded not only by alcohol but advertisements.
Good luck to you.
Oh, I LOVE ENGRISH.COM I can stay on that site for hours laughing till it hurts.
Good luck to you.
Oh, I LOVE ENGRISH.COM I can stay on that site for hours laughing till it hurts.
Sharon, I wish you would stop being so hard on yourself. Man woman...it breaks my heart. Listen not many can taper! I mean it just prolonged the inevitable for me....I was in a continuous state of w/d. I had no real true pain issues to boot!!!! Just relax and take what you need to stay comfortable....you are committed to rehab and that in itself is amazing.
I am so very impressed with your efforts and always have been. Now just try to focus on your upcoming date! You will be fine, hell very few people can taper successfully...including me. I don't but perhaps 1 that has tapered out of all these people!
Hugs...sorry you guys are freezing...I can't tell you how beautiful it is here...its 9am and the sun is shining and its hot! Everything is sparkling an array of colours......wish you could all come over!!
I am so very impressed with your efforts and always have been. Now just try to focus on your upcoming date! You will be fine, hell very few people can taper successfully...including me. I don't but perhaps 1 that has tapered out of all these people!
Hugs...sorry you guys are freezing...I can't tell you how beautiful it is here...its 9am and the sun is shining and its hot! Everything is sparkling an array of colours......wish you could all come over!!
Sharonn,
With all of your issues, pain and othewise, I would think tapering would just be so difficult. Dont beat yourself up. You tried and thats worth something. Try to stay as limited as you can but dont go crazy. Rehab is there for just this purpose. They know how to do this. How long will you be going for? You will come out of this a much better person in so many ways. Just being in an atmosphere with professionals to learn from and others who are in the same boat as you and being able to discuss your life and learning coping skills and all the rest that goes with rehab can only make you a better person. Dont worry about your setback at all. Its the reason you are going to rehab - you need help and you are getting it and I look forward to hearing about your NEW life in the future.
With all of your issues, pain and othewise, I would think tapering would just be so difficult. Dont beat yourself up. You tried and thats worth something. Try to stay as limited as you can but dont go crazy. Rehab is there for just this purpose. They know how to do this. How long will you be going for? You will come out of this a much better person in so many ways. Just being in an atmosphere with professionals to learn from and others who are in the same boat as you and being able to discuss your life and learning coping skills and all the rest that goes with rehab can only make you a better person. Dont worry about your setback at all. Its the reason you are going to rehab - you need help and you are getting it and I look forward to hearing about your NEW life in the future.
Thanks everyone...I just would feel happier if I did this MYSELF...it would be a great accomplishment for me and a confidence boost. We shall see. Love, S
Hey Sharonn:
OMG do I relate to that whole tapering, mind obsessing, how many do I have now, when do I get more, I need to take them as prescribbed and this time I will whole head game. I've been known to get a prescrip for 140, blow thru 130 - then try to taper with 10. Craziness, insanity. I've messed with my system so much that I don't really have physical withdrawal, but it's the obsessing. I go on reptilian brain drug seeking. I literally have dreams about them, getting them, ruinning out of them, whatever. I wonder what I could really do with my brain if it wasn't always obsessing. Like you said, I'll never look at pain medicine the way 'normal' people do. When I was hospitalized, having the dressing changed on my leg was so painful, they would give me IV Diliauid first. I would look forward to having the dressing changed to get the shot. How sick is that? So much of my time and energy goes to this whole thing, I can't imagine what I would be able to do with all that wasted energy. It's like I love them and I hate them. I need them and I shouldn't take them, they help me and they hurt me. Dealing with chronic pain & the addiction is crazymaking. My mind is almost always consumed with the whole thing. I wish you the best of luck, I'm not sure if this rambling is even making sense.
OMG do I relate to that whole tapering, mind obsessing, how many do I have now, when do I get more, I need to take them as prescribbed and this time I will whole head game. I've been known to get a prescrip for 140, blow thru 130 - then try to taper with 10. Craziness, insanity. I've messed with my system so much that I don't really have physical withdrawal, but it's the obsessing. I go on reptilian brain drug seeking. I literally have dreams about them, getting them, ruinning out of them, whatever. I wonder what I could really do with my brain if it wasn't always obsessing. Like you said, I'll never look at pain medicine the way 'normal' people do. When I was hospitalized, having the dressing changed on my leg was so painful, they would give me IV Diliauid first. I would look forward to having the dressing changed to get the shot. How sick is that? So much of my time and energy goes to this whole thing, I can't imagine what I would be able to do with all that wasted energy. It's like I love them and I hate them. I need them and I shouldn't take them, they help me and they hurt me. Dealing with chronic pain & the addiction is crazymaking. My mind is almost always consumed with the whole thing. I wish you the best of luck, I'm not sure if this rambling is even making sense.
