See It In His Eyes

Hi
Will I'm new to this but I want to help my husband. His says his not addicted to meth but I can see in his eyes that he need it. I don't know how to help him? My close fried told me to leave him to think about my 2 daughters that are the age 3 and 4. I asked him why was he using it, was it cause of me. He said no it stress that of work and stuff. The thing is that his been using it seance he was 14 years old. He stopped when we were going out that is about 4 years already. He said that he just went back on April wich I can't believe him, seance I couth him talking to his ex that he still loves her and stuff. I'm 21 I don't know what to do I love him but I can't truest him anymore. How do I know that his not lying to me that he really wants me to help him. The person that was or is still providing the drugs to him is our next door neighbor. I would think to my self that it was couse of me that he went back couse I would check up on him. I will lays tell him he can go and have a drink with one of his friend that I know his family and where he lives. But yet he is using drugs knowing that we have 2 daughters and that his using it when he was showering. I walk in and sow him. I still can't take that picture of my mind!! WHAT CAN I DO?? HELP HIM OR LEAVE...
Stop blaming yourself. It's not your fault that he's using meth. It's his choice, his decision. The only thing you have to concern yourself with is what are you willing to put up with? You've got two little kids that need a stable home. Your friend gave you some good advice. If you can leave, then go. Let him decide which is more important to him.. the drug or his family.

I'm in the same boat with my son. It's not easy to walk away but for own sanity, sometimes you have to. Just like addicts relapse, so do those that love them and we tend to make excuses for them. But there are no excuses. Your husband just prefers meth and there's nothing you can do to make him stop if he's not willing.

Good luck to you!
You are 21 yrs old. I would say "run" away don't walk. Get out now because his other EX is his Meth use. Read up on meth and see what it says. Go on posts here and see what people who are addicted to it say. But after years of having a drug addict in my family if I were you I would leave. You and your girls can have a nice life ahead of you. Life is hard enough at times without the burden of a meth husband. If I had known 16 yrs ago that my life would still be the same now I would have taken off and been gone. Now i have a granddaughter that needs me and I love so
much that I would never leave her. Sometimes you have to think with your head and not your heart.Good Luck SYR with whatever you decide. ((Hug))