Self sabotage is something that I have sturggled with in recovery and I know for the most part it stems from what was instilled in me in my childhood. I was always told that I was too dumb, fat or ugly to get anywhere in life. It was not until I had entered university to undertake an arts degree that a lot of the old beliefs about myself were challenged. I have also experience periods of great happiness and joy but feel really uncomfortable when they happen because I don't feel deserving. My own self talk is certainly something that needs constant working on just as much as my attitudes.When I do something for myself I feel guilt, and this derives from my own low self esteem. Whenever I experience anger or angst, which there is a very fine line in ,my self destructive thoughts, feelings, behaviours and language tend to rise to the surface. My thinking and feelings much undertake a dramatic change. It speaks about it with alcoholism that we must undergo that psychic change in order to overcome our drinking. The same is required for my self sabotage and steps 4,5,6 and 10 are all a great starting point. thats me.
Fi
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Thanks Fi,
Same with me...I thought that my psychic change would last forever, but now I realize when I put everything else above my Program, my psychic change slips away....the only thing that works for me for the psychic change to take place again is my reliance on my Higher Power and getting right back into the Steps. Thanks so much for the post, it was a good reminder for me!
Same with me...I thought that my psychic change would last forever, but now I realize when I put everything else above my Program, my psychic change slips away....the only thing that works for me for the psychic change to take place again is my reliance on my Higher Power and getting right back into the Steps. Thanks so much for the post, it was a good reminder for me!
