I was just wondering how you are doing today? I followed your post the other night, and yesterday. I hope you don't feel so alone and desperate now. I just felt so bad for you and what you are going through. We have all gone through the depression part, where it is like a cloud that won't let up, and it feels like it will never get better. But it really does some quicker than others...Hope you are doing better, god bless, Kim
Me too, Shay. Thinking about you.
Hang in there, darlin.
Love you
Lisa
Hang in there, darlin.
Love you
Lisa
Kim----
Thank you for asking about me. It couldn't have come at a better time. I was feeling real good yesterday...today is a different story.
I keep having this battle in my head over life. What I have accomplished & what I have destroyed. Funny I have destroyed a hell of a lot more than I have accomplished. I know there are many people that feel this way...especially addicts.
I keep listening to everyone tell me that I would leave behind a lot of hurt people if I am not here anymore.....but the funny thing is...the people that I probably would hurt.....are the ones that will not get off my back. I stayed clean for a year and you would never have known that by talking with my family. You know they never had to deal with me stealing from them or anything...hell they didn't even know about my addictions...until I told them...BIG MISTAKE..now they don't believe me about anything because they said....you were using for all that time and we didn't know....how do we know now that you are not using. No I don't think they would miss me at all.
Anyway....I am not planning on going anywhere anytime soon......just feel like it. If that makes any sense at all.....
Again...Kim thanks for asking about me.....You too Lisa................
you are all Angels......................
Lots of love,
shay
Thank you for asking about me. It couldn't have come at a better time. I was feeling real good yesterday...today is a different story.
I keep having this battle in my head over life. What I have accomplished & what I have destroyed. Funny I have destroyed a hell of a lot more than I have accomplished. I know there are many people that feel this way...especially addicts.
I keep listening to everyone tell me that I would leave behind a lot of hurt people if I am not here anymore.....but the funny thing is...the people that I probably would hurt.....are the ones that will not get off my back. I stayed clean for a year and you would never have known that by talking with my family. You know they never had to deal with me stealing from them or anything...hell they didn't even know about my addictions...until I told them...BIG MISTAKE..now they don't believe me about anything because they said....you were using for all that time and we didn't know....how do we know now that you are not using. No I don't think they would miss me at all.
Anyway....I am not planning on going anywhere anytime soon......just feel like it. If that makes any sense at all.....
Again...Kim thanks for asking about me.....You too Lisa................
you are all Angels......................
Lots of love,
shay
Yeah Beck I know exactly what you're saying..My family doesn't know of my addiction, because they would not be very supportive..it's like "oh my god" and just not understand, that is what made me come to the board, my fiancee knows because he is still using, but other than that I had noone. But here I can talk about anything, because someone sometime has been there! I do understand FEELING like "going somewhere" and not DOING it. I hope you never do it, because these stupid pills are not strong enough for you to take your life. How dare them take your life ya know? You are stronger than them, and if they were making me feel like that, I would flush the da*n things in the toilet and show em who's boss....I am sending you prayers, and hugs..Kim
Hang on SHay. We've always been there. And we all come here because here people can love us despite our addictions. No one looks down on us here when we have a really bad day, or have just stopped a drug. Others see our w/d and think we deserve it and maybe we do. Maybe it will help us to not ever use again for fear of the hell of getting clean. But here, we're all just like you and feel the same. We believe it will get better some day. I know, just know God has much in store for you. It'll become clear as your head does. God Bless you Honey. I had a pretty rough day too, God Bless all on this board. Thanks one and all! Beck
