Hey anyone with advice/experience,
I have been and am smoking pretty regularly, 7/8 times a day, wake n bakes all the way through till night caps, since 13 ( so 11 years)
I have given up before no problem a couple times for a good couple months, no withdrawals at all. I always end up going back to it because it feels like it's apart of me, being a stoner is apart of me and I feel I am a better person. It feels like I have to change everything about me, the way I dress,speak, act, the music I like etc etc etc because I feel like a hypocrite.
My problem is this: I know I'm addicted to it, it is just that I am a better person when I am high. I'm friendlier, more patient, more focused, complete tasks, happier, more content with life, relaxed etc etc. There are some down sides, being tired sometimes, house and car smell like smoke... that's all I can think of! The positives way out weigh the negatives for me. So why should I stop?
Now before anybody gives me advice please note that I will never go into prescribed medication because it is a whole lot worse for me than weed. That belief is not going to change. I don't even take headache tablets or antibiotics. I am not religious in any sense or form. I have seen psychologists, on separate occasions for separate issues ( including weed) and there is no psychological addiction. I just really really enjoy it. I take other drugs very recreationally, only at festivals which is maybe 3 times a year. I'm not interested in what any studies have shown because I can show you others saying the exact opposite. It is also not interfering with any other part of my life, I'm 24 and very successful, I have my own business, a very happy family and intimate relationship. Gym and exercise regularly, eat well( maybe too much chocolate, lol).
I have posted this on a pro-weed website so I can get an unbiased overview, so please let me know your thoughts! And more importantly, if anyone has thought like this or has a similar situation to me.
Hello Ashley:
At 24 I "knew" I was an alcoholic burnout (it was the mid 1960's) but I couldn't see my life without booze/weed/pills either.
Over the years I got clean/sober for a period of time but I just couldn't seem to STAY clean/sober and my life continued to degrade until I went into a recovery home in 1989 (at 45 yrs old). I had become a suicidal hopeless addict/alcoholic who could see no chance for recovery.
Reading your original post was like deja vu for me.
It reminded me of my fantasy life of the past where substance was not only wanted but NEEDED for me to participate in life. I had lost my true self, my dignity, my self-respect until finally the booze/drugs removed my will to live. I ended up in psyche wards on suicide watch.
We have to get to the point where the pain of our pretend fantasy life exceeds the pain of recovery. Addiction is a progressive disease and I hope that you don't go down the path to destruction as far as I did. It was a long, long walk back.
I am a proud member of AA/NA and work my program on a daily basis.
I am retired now and attend 5-6 meetings a week to keep me straight and help the others .
I know that you know that you have a problem and it is getting worse, not better.
When your life becomes so bad that you can't stand it any longer you will be ready to surrender.
Contrary to our warped thinking surrender does not mean the end of a good/fun life ... it means the beginning.
I was a walking dead man in 1989 who was going to shoot himself before 1990.
The fact that I'm alive, clean/sober, well and quite happy in 2015 amazes me .
The 12 Steps may amaze you as well down the line.
We just have to quit trying to do things our way. (Our way got us here)
Some reading material if you are interested.
NA HOW IT WORKS http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf
The Big Book of NA on-line http://www.coastalcarolinaarea.org/...e/books/b_t.pdf
All the best.
Bob R
At 24 I "knew" I was an alcoholic burnout (it was the mid 1960's) but I couldn't see my life without booze/weed/pills either.
Over the years I got clean/sober for a period of time but I just couldn't seem to STAY clean/sober and my life continued to degrade until I went into a recovery home in 1989 (at 45 yrs old). I had become a suicidal hopeless addict/alcoholic who could see no chance for recovery.
Reading your original post was like deja vu for me.
It reminded me of my fantasy life of the past where substance was not only wanted but NEEDED for me to participate in life. I had lost my true self, my dignity, my self-respect until finally the booze/drugs removed my will to live. I ended up in psyche wards on suicide watch.
We have to get to the point where the pain of our pretend fantasy life exceeds the pain of recovery. Addiction is a progressive disease and I hope that you don't go down the path to destruction as far as I did. It was a long, long walk back.
I am a proud member of AA/NA and work my program on a daily basis.
I am retired now and attend 5-6 meetings a week to keep me straight and help the others .
I know that you know that you have a problem and it is getting worse, not better.
When your life becomes so bad that you can't stand it any longer you will be ready to surrender.
Contrary to our warped thinking surrender does not mean the end of a good/fun life ... it means the beginning.
I was a walking dead man in 1989 who was going to shoot himself before 1990.
The fact that I'm alive, clean/sober, well and quite happy in 2015 amazes me .
The 12 Steps may amaze you as well down the line.
We just have to quit trying to do things our way. (Our way got us here)
Some reading material if you are interested.
NA HOW IT WORKS http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf
The Big Book of NA on-line http://www.coastalcarolinaarea.org/...e/books/b_t.pdf
All the best.
Bob R
Hey man.
I never smoked anything up until the age of 17 (cigs or weed). I then started smoking weed every weekend and smoking every day in the summer holidays. On average I have smoked around 3-4 times a week for the past 4 years (im now 22)
Nowadays, I keep clean monday-thursday whilst doing work for my business and then smoke til Sunday. I am happy and have a lot of things going for me. I'm also in good shape and a good looking guy (sounds arrogant but when you have been told so many times it's probably true, sorry).
I would like to quit just so I know I can be 'normal' but I haven't had any issues yet really related to weed. Maybe a little anti social when i am high.
Heres my point:
A lot of people on this forum are blaming many of their psychological issues on weed. You need to have a strong mind to be able to smoke it without being influenced by other's 'issues'. You may also be more susceptible to anxiety, depression etc. In this case stay away from it if you think it won't benefit you. If you are happy with your life and you haven't found any problems with it then why not?
I never smoked anything up until the age of 17 (cigs or weed). I then started smoking weed every weekend and smoking every day in the summer holidays. On average I have smoked around 3-4 times a week for the past 4 years (im now 22)
Nowadays, I keep clean monday-thursday whilst doing work for my business and then smoke til Sunday. I am happy and have a lot of things going for me. I'm also in good shape and a good looking guy (sounds arrogant but when you have been told so many times it's probably true, sorry).
I would like to quit just so I know I can be 'normal' but I haven't had any issues yet really related to weed. Maybe a little anti social when i am high.
Heres my point:
A lot of people on this forum are blaming many of their psychological issues on weed. You need to have a strong mind to be able to smoke it without being influenced by other's 'issues'. You may also be more susceptible to anxiety, depression etc. In this case stay away from it if you think it won't benefit you. If you are happy with your life and you haven't found any problems with it then why not?
Ashley thinks there's a problem with it so there is.
I smoke pot, not much, but I miss out on the raw feeling of the now. Do need it? Or is it something I tell myself I need?
I'm not proud of it, I'm 46. At 22 I wasn't proud of it. I never had a bob Marley grimy roach poster either.
But whatever.
If it's not a problem you can pass on it.
With my girl in narc recovery, I think I should.
F
I smoke pot, not much, but I miss out on the raw feeling of the now. Do need it? Or is it something I tell myself I need?
I'm not proud of it, I'm 46. At 22 I wasn't proud of it. I never had a bob Marley grimy roach poster either.
But whatever.
If it's not a problem you can pass on it.
With my girl in narc recovery, I think I should.
F
