Okay....hitting almost 24 hours from oxy...
OH GOD THIS HURTS...
ouch..
I am getting freaky...not like the good freaky..
kerry
I rec'd some good advice on one of my posts. I hope its something you haven't heard before!
Immodium~ Helps with the runs and stomach cramps
Benadryl~ Too sleep
Comtrex Cold and Flu~ Day and night time pills. Would not take it with Benadryl (one or the other)
Motrin 800 mg throughout the day for body aches
Multi-vitamins and B-12
Hot bathes and soup.
Walking around as much as possible helps.
Pottassium pills or banana's~ helps with restless legs.
cindy
Immodium~ Helps with the runs and stomach cramps
Benadryl~ Too sleep
Comtrex Cold and Flu~ Day and night time pills. Would not take it with Benadryl (one or the other)
Motrin 800 mg throughout the day for body aches
Multi-vitamins and B-12
Hot bathes and soup.
Walking around as much as possible helps.
Pottassium pills or banana's~ helps with restless legs.
cindy
thanks sirch..i posted to you earlier..how is your son?? I am so damn sick..but tomarrow I am getting suboxone..hopefully I can get back on track..i had almost 6 months...
Hug your son..oxy is hell..I have only been on it for 6 weeks..but would get him some help....he is fighting the devil...
Kerry
Hug your son..oxy is hell..I have only been on it for 6 weeks..but would get him some help....he is fighting the devil...
Kerry
ALL THAT WIILL HELP, BUT YOU NEED MORE BECAUSE ITS PURR HELL, YOUR BETTER OFF GET ON YOUR KNEES AND ASK GOD TO TAKE AWAY THIS SEED THE DEVIL PUT IN YOU.. IF IT DONT WORK ME MYSELF WHO WAS WHERE YOU ARE TODAY AND IF THE LORD DONT HELP I SAY GET A DOSE
kerry, I know it does, I think you know oxy were my DOC and man, what a love/hate relationship with those puppies. They are the devils drug, at one point I think I would have sold my soul to Lucifer himself for just another chip...now just a little more..and on and on. Stand tall Cookie, relapses happen to all of us. I can't tell you how many times I quit, but we both we can never quit quitting. Good to see you posting, we all care about you here.
your friend,
Redd
your friend,
Redd
((((((kerry))))))
be still...be still...be still.
this too shall pass, dear one.
don't forget to breathe.
tomorrow will be here before you know it. you will start the sub and begin to start your recovery again. tuesday, wednesday, thursday and so on will come and you will feel better as each minute passes. keep your focus on recovery. we spent a whole lot of time wrapped up in our addiction - it stands to reason that when you take out the out the drugs and all that behavior that surrounds sustaining our addiction, a huge void is left.
i found filling that void with recovery, was the solution. you will find that when we do that other areas in our lives begin to expand. we find workable solutions to our fears, resentments, learn how to make those amends that you were talking about, we intuitvely know how to handle that which once baffled us.
quiet your mind, sweetheart. within lies the most awesome Power of love which is trying to guide you. it got to you to this point of 24 hours clean! you are awesome and so worthwhile. like most things of worth, it is going to take some time and work to realize this.
much love and hugs of encouragement to you -
sammy
be still...be still...be still.
this too shall pass, dear one.
don't forget to breathe.
tomorrow will be here before you know it. you will start the sub and begin to start your recovery again. tuesday, wednesday, thursday and so on will come and you will feel better as each minute passes. keep your focus on recovery. we spent a whole lot of time wrapped up in our addiction - it stands to reason that when you take out the out the drugs and all that behavior that surrounds sustaining our addiction, a huge void is left.
i found filling that void with recovery, was the solution. you will find that when we do that other areas in our lives begin to expand. we find workable solutions to our fears, resentments, learn how to make those amends that you were talking about, we intuitvely know how to handle that which once baffled us.
quiet your mind, sweetheart. within lies the most awesome Power of love which is trying to guide you. it got to you to this point of 24 hours clean! you are awesome and so worthwhile. like most things of worth, it is going to take some time and work to realize this.
much love and hugs of encouragement to you -
sammy
kerry,
i emailed you, its not fun reading, but it will occupy your lil brain for a few.
i'm here for you, i know it hurts, i know it feels crazy. and please stop calling yourself names. you are human. we all have done the same thing your no different. you are worth something. you will do this and you will be able to go on and help someone else. your a bright beautiful woman and an amazing mother : ) think good things focus on some light. something to make you smile. grab some cookies : )
terrianne
i emailed you, its not fun reading, but it will occupy your lil brain for a few.
i'm here for you, i know it hurts, i know it feels crazy. and please stop calling yourself names. you are human. we all have done the same thing your no different. you are worth something. you will do this and you will be able to go on and help someone else. your a bright beautiful woman and an amazing mother : ) think good things focus on some light. something to make you smile. grab some cookies : )
terrianne
thanks..i am hurting so bad..i know this pain all to well..where the hell did I go wrong??
I know..it is that emotional pit of trying to keep it all together...'don't you know who I am??'
Well, I just wanted to numb it...pain and resentment and fear..fear that i will never be good enough..
there..you got it..the good bad and the ugly... spiritually I feel unfit...
fear...kids are alot to handle..
resentment...my number one killer...no child support and the a** that I dated, I am still trying to recover from that blow...
I am so sick, so please all bear with me..
kerry
I know..it is that emotional pit of trying to keep it all together...'don't you know who I am??'
Well, I just wanted to numb it...pain and resentment and fear..fear that i will never be good enough..
there..you got it..the good bad and the ugly... spiritually I feel unfit...
fear...kids are alot to handle..
resentment...my number one killer...no child support and the a** that I dated, I am still trying to recover from that blow...
I am so sick, so please all bear with me..
kerry
its ok to have all those feelings kerry. but i promise they wont last forever. i know it feels like forever. it is hard to see the end the light at the tunnel now. but trust me there is one. so come back to me and lets walk down the tunnel a little bit farther one more hours worth. i got your back. i'm holding you up. i am throwing all my strength and healing thoughts your way. take every ounce you can grab from me and god and anyone else willing to let you have some.
let the spirit encompass you in warmth and comforting blanket and just rest for a few in your cacoon
terrianne
let the spirit encompass you in warmth and comforting blanket and just rest for a few in your cacoon
terrianne
thanks..this hurts so bad...
I read your email...
if you can make it..so can I...
I read your email...
if you can make it..so can I...
Terrianne-
Can you forward me your e-mail if you don't mind? I could use reading about a success story tonight...
I f***ed up my tapering schedule tonight. I have a grand total of 12 pills left. In a way I think I took more today than I was supposed to, so that I can end this tapering hell and get on with recovery.
My e-mail is lastofeight@charter.net
If you don't feel comfortable e-mailing it, I understand!
Can you forward me your e-mail if you don't mind? I could use reading about a success story tonight...
I f***ed up my tapering schedule tonight. I have a grand total of 12 pills left. In a way I think I took more today than I was supposed to, so that I can end this tapering hell and get on with recovery.
My e-mail is lastofeight@charter.net
If you don't feel comfortable e-mailing it, I understand!
it's ok kerry - none of us come to recovery feeling like we are sitting on top of the world. as a matter of fact, most of us get to this point carrying much remorse, guilt, shame, anger, resentments and fears.
right hear, right now, your number one focus is to get clean. be kind to yourself - rest, eat nutritous food, take hot baths (they help a lot with the physical symptoms of pain when detoxing from oxy's), surround yourself with others in recovery via meetings, the 1000 pound telephone etc. because if we don't get clean, nothing makes sense, my friend.
we have the rest of our lives to journey on this path of discovery of self - to clear the wreckage of our past and watch/feel as we begin to see that by doing this, we are living happy, joyous, and free.
i have faith that you will realize this and if you need some right now, i'll gladly lend it to you and beckon you to not lose sight of the goal you are achieving. in other words, don't allow yourself to become too overwhelmed with these rotten feelings of detox and the excess baggage you are carrying. your load will lighten, as long as recovery is your primary focus.
breeeeeeethe, kerry. breeeeeeeathe.
i believe in you.
namaste'
sammy
right hear, right now, your number one focus is to get clean. be kind to yourself - rest, eat nutritous food, take hot baths (they help a lot with the physical symptoms of pain when detoxing from oxy's), surround yourself with others in recovery via meetings, the 1000 pound telephone etc. because if we don't get clean, nothing makes sense, my friend.
we have the rest of our lives to journey on this path of discovery of self - to clear the wreckage of our past and watch/feel as we begin to see that by doing this, we are living happy, joyous, and free.
i have faith that you will realize this and if you need some right now, i'll gladly lend it to you and beckon you to not lose sight of the goal you are achieving. in other words, don't allow yourself to become too overwhelmed with these rotten feelings of detox and the excess baggage you are carrying. your load will lighten, as long as recovery is your primary focus.
breeeeeeethe, kerry. breeeeeeeathe.
i believe in you.
namaste'
sammy
you will make it kerry i have no doubt!! just stick with us. its all good. everything you are feeling is exactly what your supposed to be feeling. i sent you out another email. i hope it helps some more.
terrianne
terrianne
addictmom,
let me go back and reread and revamp it a lil. i'll see what i can come up with and send you something here shortly.
terrianne
let me go back and reread and revamp it a lil. i'll see what i can come up with and send you something here shortly.
terrianne
Hang in there little B...your in my prayers!
san--
san--
I personally like the good , the bad and the ugly...one of my favorite fllicks. one moment at a time at this point Kerry. They will add up to minutes to hours to days. Relapse sucks, but now thats over, back to recovery. hang tough kiddo.
Redd
Redd
thanks..sammy, I still thinkyou are a sansei...lol..an angel teacher..
thanks boo...
this hurts so bad...and minutes are like hours..
l lost your connection, misty, my cell battery died..
kerry
thanks boo...
this hurts so bad...and minutes are like hours..
l lost your connection, misty, my cell battery died..
kerry
Kerry I wish I could e-mail you some energy and good thoughts and love, I wish it were that easy, because I would push send right now. Just hang in there, you can do it.
Best regards,
Tom
Best regards,
Tom
Kerry, this last thing wasn't that long, was it? Couple weeks most im hopin, so it might not be as bad as u think (easy for me to day, huh). But really, when i start to feel a little sick after a short relapse, it scares the hell out of me. MAIN THING TONIGHT IS SLEEP IF U CAN. I hope u got v's, x's, or if notvalerian, and believe it or not that OTC stuff helps, that pp whatever is way better then benedryl. I'm pretty sure I'm done as of yesterday , or last night, but im afraid to bother saying so. I know ill be strong for the next few weeks, to the next couple months, but thats an old pattern. One day at a time.
when you are an addict...a day is just too damn long..
i just woke up...
and am sick..
no pupil dialation yet..
but damn..
I am so sick. Thank you all..
Kerry
i just woke up...
and am sick..
no pupil dialation yet..
but damn..
I am so sick. Thank you all..
Kerry
