I hate feeling this way. It is so damn hard for me to stay completely clean. I got off sub in August. Was really difficult for me. I lasted 30 days then I messed up and took a couple of pills. So for the last couple of months i've been trying to stay away from these pills but it is really hard when my brother and sister both take methadone and my other sister takes every thing under the sun for her back pain (she had surgery). I know it is so stupid for me to take anything because every single time i do i go into withdrawels. Right now i have not taken anything for 2 days and i just feel anxious and unable to fully relax. I think it is just minor withdrawels. I had to take some norcos for a couple of days for a really bad pinched nerve and sciatica. So i really am going to try to maintain. Just hate the temptation that is part of the family that i love soo much!
sorry to sound so negative.. just feel frustrated right now..
I undrstand why your so negative sometimes everything we try goes wrong. I dont have the answers for you hun but know im thinking of you jaxxxxxxxxx
thanks jaxx i appreciate that...i just need to stay strong and realize that pills will never make anything better
has anyone else succeded in getting clean with your whole family having the same problem that you do? Just wondering. I'm doing this for my self so noone should have any influence over me...this is my life. I really do need to work a program. I think i will go to NA this week and check it out i really do need the f2f support
Shorty:
My father is an alcoholic who hasn't drank in 27 years. My sister is an alcoholic/addict with two years clean through AA. I am an addict and I go to AA. My aunt is a heroin addict, still practicing or on Methadone, not quite sure. My grandparents (mother's side were both alcoholics).
Rachel
Shorty, everyone in my family is addicted to somthing, except for my parents. Husband, sister, aunts and uncles, every cousin I have except for a rare few. Not to mention all the friends I ever had. Almost all of them would love to see my get back into the life. Misery loves company and I guess they would like to see me miserable again.
But this is a selfish disease an and a selfish recovery. Always keep you first. I had to stay far away from most of them and even now I only have limited contact.
Don't feel alone on that one and stay strong,
Love, Kat
But this is a selfish disease an and a selfish recovery. Always keep you first. I had to stay far away from most of them and even now I only have limited contact.
Don't feel alone on that one and stay strong,
Love, Kat
Hey shorty
I am on day 9 and in the place I live..and on my job..there is nothing but temptation..at our weekly card game perks are passed around freely..its tuff to say no..but I will never go threw those w/d again
hope it helps..
Just dont take Them
Steve
I am on day 9 and in the place I live..and on my job..there is nothing but temptation..at our weekly card game perks are passed around freely..its tuff to say no..but I will never go threw those w/d again
hope it helps..
Just dont take Them
Steve
