Hey everyone
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Congratulate me Im taking the plunge...just want to thank you all for such incredble advise....this board has truly been instrumental in my success.
I feel my taper has been nothing less than a miracle, something I hadnt been able to do for years....thought i was hopelss...if you think that too..know that when you are ready..really ready you can and will change
It was suggested that even down to 5..i am high..boy i sure dont feel it...but it made me mad enough to jump off completely...i will type again and post again but for now cant seem to do that well enough...jitters ..they started yesterday.
I will take good care and take my vitamins etc..
when i post agin i will have nothing in my system and be able to give advise and help others without accusations that im not one to talk..
hugs to all so much,
i will miss being here
Ali
Why are you leaving Ali? I have always enjoyed your post although I do not post much over here.I wish you the best of luck in all you do and a very Merry Christmas.This is the season that most of as addicts need outside support would you atleast consider going to another forum? I hope everything clears up.Much love,Cris
Ali,
I really don't know what to say other than I hope you're not leaving here just because of ONE person that likes to spout off things without knowing your whole story. I know you have told your story about 100 times and it seems every time you say it again there are people who act shocked about it...
I think taking a break from here can be good and if you think that is what is best for you then I wish you all the best. I was actually thinking about doing that myself, however you are one of the very few that keep me coming back to read and understand other's "ESH".
I hope your withdrawls aren't too harsh. Keep your body strong and your mind even stronger. Don't stop emailing me. :)
Love
Stac
I really don't know what to say other than I hope you're not leaving here just because of ONE person that likes to spout off things without knowing your whole story. I know you have told your story about 100 times and it seems every time you say it again there are people who act shocked about it...
I think taking a break from here can be good and if you think that is what is best for you then I wish you all the best. I was actually thinking about doing that myself, however you are one of the very few that keep me coming back to read and understand other's "ESH".
I hope your withdrawls aren't too harsh. Keep your body strong and your mind even stronger. Don't stop emailing me. :)
Love
Stac
Ali, Now is the time that you need us the MOST!!!!!!!!
I think your making the wrong decision dear.
Just because someone said you were high, who CARES. EVERYONE knows on your taper schedule you arent HIGH. Screw that comment and stay.
I think your making the wrong decision dear.
Just because someone said you were high, who CARES. EVERYONE knows on your taper schedule you arent HIGH. Screw that comment and stay.
Hi again
made me smile youtwo..thabnks
s***! see i cant even type!!!! lolo the shakes or tremors strated yesterday..nothing to do with that goof balls comments
To be accused of still being huigh at 5 pills is bulls***...crikey i wasnt get high at 20..lolol
anyway i will be back in however lo9ng it takes to stop and be able to type with out ahaking!!!
I will be back...thats is for sure...just a week or whatever it takes.
Big Grizzy bear mHugs to you both
Ali
made me smile youtwo..thabnks
s***! see i cant even type!!!! lolo the shakes or tremors strated yesterday..nothing to do with that goof balls comments
To be accused of still being huigh at 5 pills is bulls***...crikey i wasnt get high at 20..lolol
anyway i will be back in however lo9ng it takes to stop and be able to type with out ahaking!!!
I will be back...thats is for sure...just a week or whatever it takes.
Big Grizzy bear mHugs to you both
Ali
i am clean from heroin but i suppose i am "high" on subutex.........i am still here,if you are tapering you are trying to get clean.........sorry last time i looked this was a recovery forum,not a "only come on here if you are totally sober"forum..........stay,stay,stay.
oh oh...just saw wiversons post
Got to type another one and my fingers arent cooperating..lololol
Good point honey..well taken..whers that darm WRUnit..??? We need to do something abotu that!!! They can type for us when we shake to hard..lolol
post out threads.lololol
If i can get these tremors stopped, then i will post,, thats a GOOD POINT Wiverson.....
The comment did do one thing..made me mad, and i have been wanting to have a sign to jump off completely.....so decided to take the plunge..hell im down to 5 and took 4.5 yesterday......how bad can it be? ( thats not a question God..lolol) crap..shouldnt have said that
wiversomn, if i can typre throguht the wiothdrawals I will!!!!
Big big big hug
Ali
Got to type another one and my fingers arent cooperating..lololol
Good point honey..well taken..whers that darm WRUnit..??? We need to do something abotu that!!! They can type for us when we shake to hard..lolol
post out threads.lololol
If i can get these tremors stopped, then i will post,, thats a GOOD POINT Wiverson.....
The comment did do one thing..made me mad, and i have been wanting to have a sign to jump off completely.....so decided to take the plunge..hell im down to 5 and took 4.5 yesterday......how bad can it be? ( thats not a question God..lolol) crap..shouldnt have said that
wiversomn, if i can typre throguht the wiothdrawals I will!!!!
Big big big hug
Ali
Hey Ali,
The shakes are totally understandable, and hun please don't let anyones comments chase you from the board. But I do believe that there does come a time to take a break for a few, since people seem to think they know all the answers. Everyone is different when it comes time to get their life back..
I have read your posts and I have to say you seem to be becoming very strong, and your brain alot clearer.. Take time for YOURSELF....
My feelings got hurt by someone on this board, but then I realized NOONE is perfect, and that maybe they are trying to find everyone else's faults cuz they are in denial of their own..
Keep your head up, and hang in there...you WILL get thru it..
Traci
The shakes are totally understandable, and hun please don't let anyones comments chase you from the board. But I do believe that there does come a time to take a break for a few, since people seem to think they know all the answers. Everyone is different when it comes time to get their life back..
I have read your posts and I have to say you seem to be becoming very strong, and your brain alot clearer.. Take time for YOURSELF....
My feelings got hurt by someone on this board, but then I realized NOONE is perfect, and that maybe they are trying to find everyone else's faults cuz they are in denial of their own..
Keep your head up, and hang in there...you WILL get thru it..
Traci
ruprect,
point well taken sweetie thankyou
he couoldnt possible chase me away..lol i just cant ype very well and that has nothning to do with him that started cus i dropped the doae down to 4.5 yeaterday..i thionk...lolol
if i can post though the withdrawl i will.
i would never leave this boar d for ever I owe too many people sooo much. aI couldnt have come this far withotu all of you and I am nbot the type to say thank you very much and leave for good. i will stay and help others.
share my fears and successes.
crikeys if I the hopelsss cause can taper and stick to it for 3 weeks after 2 years of wishing and praying i coukld...then anyone can do it.lolol
I love you all and will be back\
cant getyyh rid of my that easilyty!
Big HUg,
Ali
P.S. Krazy i answered your other thread. cant type anymore but know that i am grateful for you thinking of me...!!!!!!!!!!
point well taken sweetie thankyou
he couoldnt possible chase me away..lol i just cant ype very well and that has nothning to do with him that started cus i dropped the doae down to 4.5 yeaterday..i thionk...lolol
if i can post though the withdrawl i will.
i would never leave this boar d for ever I owe too many people sooo much. aI couldnt have come this far withotu all of you and I am nbot the type to say thank you very much and leave for good. i will stay and help others.
share my fears and successes.
crikeys if I the hopelsss cause can taper and stick to it for 3 weeks after 2 years of wishing and praying i coukld...then anyone can do it.lolol
I love you all and will be back\
cant getyyh rid of my that easilyty!
Big HUg,
Ali
P.S. Krazy i answered your other thread. cant type anymore but know that i am grateful for you thinking of me...!!!!!!!!!!
I will be looking for you!
wiverson,
lololololl WCYOM......( figure that one out?lololol)
glad to be looked for..lol
hugs,
Ali
lololololl WCYOM......( figure that one out?lololol)
glad to be looked for..lol
hugs,
Ali
Ali,
I understand you taking a break from here. I hope that you will at least check in and maybe just read and say hi if you feel up to it. You have always been very kind and supportive to me and to others. Please know that I and it appears that many others will be holding you in our thoughts and prayers while you go through this.
I'm not sure what happened with the other person, but that his/her gig, not yours. You are staying focused on you and that is what matters!
You go girl! :-)
Hugs,
Omega (Pam)
I understand you taking a break from here. I hope that you will at least check in and maybe just read and say hi if you feel up to it. You have always been very kind and supportive to me and to others. Please know that I and it appears that many others will be holding you in our thoughts and prayers while you go through this.
I'm not sure what happened with the other person, but that his/her gig, not yours. You are staying focused on you and that is what matters!
You go girl! :-)
Hugs,
Omega (Pam)
Hi sweet omega girl (Pam)
The worst of the tremors have actually stopped.
I sure dont wish to be all dramatic, just wanted to explain why i wouldnt be able to post ( was shaking do bad i couldnt type and tremoring right through my body.)
He was rude and obnoxious, used words that he knew would bother me..
As wiverson said everyone knows that when youare tapering, your not getting high.....................
None the less, it was a blessing in discuise...IM going cold turkey from here..
If my hands stay like this I will post my conditons etc, and try to help others.
If it gets bad, and I cant even type again...you know im alright and just cold turkeying.
Thankyou luv for saying that I have others rooting for me.
When i think about where i was even 3 weeks ago...a scared and lost child.
Ive come a long way already..............
Peace and hugs,
Ali
The worst of the tremors have actually stopped.
I sure dont wish to be all dramatic, just wanted to explain why i wouldnt be able to post ( was shaking do bad i couldnt type and tremoring right through my body.)
He was rude and obnoxious, used words that he knew would bother me..
As wiverson said everyone knows that when youare tapering, your not getting high.....................
None the less, it was a blessing in discuise...IM going cold turkey from here..
If my hands stay like this I will post my conditons etc, and try to help others.
If it gets bad, and I cant even type again...you know im alright and just cold turkeying.
Thankyou luv for saying that I have others rooting for me.
When i think about where i was even 3 weeks ago...a scared and lost child.
Ive come a long way already..............
Peace and hugs,
Ali
Ali, my physican prescribed clonidine and a benzo for only two weeks for the shakes. You might want to ask about that.
Good Luck to you!!!!!!
Good Luck to you!!!!!!
We all need to pat our backs when we know ourselves we have come a long way..........as you are and have ALi.........
BTW..I think I read where you asked about something to help stop smoking.....after a few days of being off methadone I had NO desire to smoke......and then I have to be honest.....the day I took a couple vico's the craving came back.I WAS SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but it made me realize the pills were making me crave...
something to think about...give it a few days without your pills and see how your body reacts
BTW..I think I read where you asked about something to help stop smoking.....after a few days of being off methadone I had NO desire to smoke......and then I have to be honest.....the day I took a couple vico's the craving came back.I WAS SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but it made me realize the pills were making me crave...
something to think about...give it a few days without your pills and see how your body reacts
great advice waiverson and krazy
will look into it and keep an eye out for smoking issues...thats encouraging..
the last monkey on my back...smoking..lol
Smoke 8-10 a day, but not in the house or around hubby..
Thank you to all..right now its amazing the temors have subsided all on their own!!!!!
Hugs
Ali
will look into it and keep an eye out for smoking issues...thats encouraging..
the last monkey on my back...smoking..lol
Smoke 8-10 a day, but not in the house or around hubby..
Thank you to all..right now its amazing the temors have subsided all on their own!!!!!
Hugs
Ali
I don't think that was right, funny, people will come up with dumb stuff to get at you. However, you seem to have a good head on your shoulders, and I completely agree with Wendy, you should stay....this is when you are going to need the support.
Some advice....lots of hot baths. Or a sauna, that is even better. I know you won't feel like it, but all the exersize you can get will expidite the process of getting better.
Be patient, and just go with it. Don't try to fight it because you are going to feel like crap, and you can't make it go away. So, don't be hard on yourself.
Good luck.
Kerry
Some advice....lots of hot baths. Or a sauna, that is even better. I know you won't feel like it, but all the exersize you can get will expidite the process of getting better.
Be patient, and just go with it. Don't try to fight it because you are going to feel like crap, and you can't make it go away. So, don't be hard on yourself.
Good luck.
Kerry
Kerry
Your words gave me comfort
Im a big girl and my self esteem does not suffer because some boy calls me a junkie and says that im still high because Im taking 5 pills a day on my taper.
In fact i told him: " Let me guarantee you that not one bit of my self esteem is contingent on what you think of me"
But know what? I have wanted to go cold turkey when i was ready...thought i would go down to 2 first, but was looking for a sign..this is it...Im going to use this Screw you attitude and turn it towards the last pills..
I will be saying goodbye to them forever. Good riddance, glad you were here for me when i needed you but i abused you and cant have you in my life any more.
maybe I'll have a little funeral for them in my back yard...say a little something and bury them...lolol
Hugs to you honey
Ali
Your words gave me comfort
Im a big girl and my self esteem does not suffer because some boy calls me a junkie and says that im still high because Im taking 5 pills a day on my taper.
In fact i told him: " Let me guarantee you that not one bit of my self esteem is contingent on what you think of me"
But know what? I have wanted to go cold turkey when i was ready...thought i would go down to 2 first, but was looking for a sign..this is it...Im going to use this Screw you attitude and turn it towards the last pills..
I will be saying goodbye to them forever. Good riddance, glad you were here for me when i needed you but i abused you and cant have you in my life any more.
maybe I'll have a little funeral for them in my back yard...say a little something and bury them...lolol
Hugs to you honey
Ali
Ctink
Oh gosh honey
i missed responding to your sweet post.
Thankyou for saying that...sincerely.
I'll be back...if i can keep typing through the cold turkey i will.
Just think that i may not be able to and wanted to explain my absence
and say thank you to all ( in case i die...lololol)
Just scared myself again...lolol
Hugs to you Ctink
Ali
Oh gosh honey
i missed responding to your sweet post.
Thankyou for saying that...sincerely.
I'll be back...if i can keep typing through the cold turkey i will.
Just think that i may not be able to and wanted to explain my absence
and say thank you to all ( in case i die...lololol)
Just scared myself again...lolol
Hugs to you Ctink
Ali
Ali-Ben made you mad but look for the good that came out of it.You made the choise to get out of this hell.Sometimes thats all it takes.You need to keep posting though.Your not being judged for making a few spellling errors or not making any sense.We could care less.The next few days are going to be hell.Let us know how we can help.Heres my cell phone 7135019082 .Im a man so you may feel comfortable talking to a woman.Im sure Rachel wouldnt mind heping you.Let us know.
so dont do this alone.
so dont do this alone.
