So Sick Of Sleeping Pills

Hello,

I have been rather heavily medicated since age 14. I am 19 now.

My ambien is not working AT ALL. Last night I took it about midnight and tried to get to sleep, I did not get to sleep until 4:00 in the morning.

I told my mother about this and she screamed at me saying "I do not want to hear it" and apparently the doctor says "I am running out of options".

There has been SOME sleeping pills that gave me terrible headaches the next morning (risperdal and trazodone) and lunesta gave me horrible anxiety and suicidal thoughts.

I am so sick of doctors being dishonest about the side effects thinking that "just pop a pill, all of your problems will go away".

There are no words to describe how horrible I feel right now. I am beyond done with this garbage.

Help me please!! :( I do not know what to do.
Why have you needed to be heavily medicated since you were 14 ?