Hello everyone. I am so tired of the roller coaster of addiction. I know what I should do & that if I am tired it's my own fault for not taking care of me, but I love my child so much & I feel like I am waiting for disaster to strike. She really tries to stay sober. She does great for about 6 months then she relapses. She usually gets herself help & starts her recovery over. BUt now, she is taking xanax when she isn't using heroin. She is mean when she takes xanax. I am so afraid she will die. I am praying, going to meetings, reading as much as I can about this disease, but it is still hard. I don't let her live with me, I don't give her money, but what I do, do is I tell her not to give up on herself & that I love her.
Just can send hugs because it's all we have now , is each other to support and console. Motivate and listen to. You are doing the best thing right now. It's the hardest thing I did was stop enabling. He didn't change he didn't try to change. He would sober up for a bit and then as he said life got in the way. Like responsibility. Xanax is a bad as heroin. J is addicted to it he loves taking them not just the prescribe amount 10 - or more at a time. He then goes almost comatose and thinks it ok. Then the addict can't sleep they try something else to use. Why is your daughter taking them. A dr wouldn't prescribe them to an addict as they are so addictive themselves.
Keep the faith stay strong and listen to your brain and not your heart. Unfortunately your heart will get broken again and again.
Take care of yourself because you deserve a life first.
xxx
Keep the faith stay strong and listen to your brain and not your heart. Unfortunately your heart will get broken again and again.
Take care of yourself because you deserve a life first.
xxx
thank you for answering me. I don't know why my daughter is taking them or anything else. A dr didn't prescribe them. She must be buying them off the street. I got a msg today from one of her friends saying she is trying to go back to the sober living home. I haven't heard anything since, so I am just praying. My other children are tired of all of this so I try to keep things to myself and if people ask me whats going on I tell them. I will no longer go looking for answers. I am trusting in GOd's plan.
You are doing everything right and not giving in to her. Xanax is just as dangerous as any drug and she is just substituting one for the other.
I know how hard it is when they get clean for a few months and we think --"wow they are going to turn their life around this time!" Well ,I can tell you that I can't count the number of times I have been through this with my son.
I, too, am letting go and letting God! Nothing I have done over the last 20 plus years has helped and my son is still an addict at 46! I trust God's plan, too!
I love my son and always ,but all the love in the world won't help him! Only he can make the choice to change his life!
Hugs and prayers---Lori
I know how hard it is when they get clean for a few months and we think --"wow they are going to turn their life around this time!" Well ,I can tell you that I can't count the number of times I have been through this with my son.
I, too, am letting go and letting God! Nothing I have done over the last 20 plus years has helped and my son is still an addict at 46! I trust God's plan, too!
I love my son and always ,but all the love in the world won't help him! Only he can make the choice to change his life!
Hugs and prayers---Lori
