SOMEHOW, I've made it thru 24 hrs!!!!! (I'ts actually been about 34 1/2 hrs, but who's counting!!!)
I've been able to stay off my leg (the cause of the pain), and I took the other non-narcotic stuff. I'll be able to stay of my leg most of tomorrow too, so I'll be ok then, after that I don't know. Opiate addiction & chronic pain - what kind of f*****u* marriage in hell is this????? Whose idea of joke is this??? I have no tools yet, a friend of mine asked if I prayed? I told her that "No, I lie low and try not to draw attention to myself". Is that funny or sad?
IOLA
Just posted you on your stealing thread...
Hey!!! 34 hours??? GOOD FOR YOUUUUU!!!! wait ta go honey!!!!!!!!
Not sure you were here wheni said his last week but when we keep telling ourselves we will quit and then we dont, we start to doubt ourselves and our abilities more and more each time we let ourselves down..
The GOOD thing is the opposite happens...when we FINALLY follow through, and DO what we said we would,....our confidence grows, and with that, our self respect, which makes it easier to stick with our goal.......
Think how proud your going to be at the end of tomorrow night....and then Monday night....
Im with you all the way...right beside you..routing you on....Go Iola Go!!!!! lol
Hugs
Ali
Just posted you on your stealing thread...
Hey!!! 34 hours??? GOOD FOR YOUUUUU!!!! wait ta go honey!!!!!!!!
Not sure you were here wheni said his last week but when we keep telling ourselves we will quit and then we dont, we start to doubt ourselves and our abilities more and more each time we let ourselves down..
The GOOD thing is the opposite happens...when we FINALLY follow through, and DO what we said we would,....our confidence grows, and with that, our self respect, which makes it easier to stick with our goal.......
Think how proud your going to be at the end of tomorrow night....and then Monday night....
Im with you all the way...right beside you..routing you on....Go Iola Go!!!!! lol
Hugs
Ali
YYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
Ali:
Thanks so much!! Were you a cheerleader? You had me rooting for myself - GIMME A L GIMME AN O.... i never really realized what you said. If you keep letting yourself down etc. But! If you keep being there for yourself, you begin to see that, then begin to count on yourself, and not want to let yourself down! That's like an Ureaka (couldn't spell epifany!!) moment. I guess it's like success breeds success.
Thanks so much!! Were you a cheerleader? You had me rooting for myself - GIMME A L GIMME AN O.... i never really realized what you said. If you keep letting yourself down etc. But! If you keep being there for yourself, you begin to see that, then begin to count on yourself, and not want to let yourself down! That's like an Ureaka (couldn't spell epifany!!) moment. I guess it's like success breeds success.
Awesome Lola!!!! You have to be proud of yourself for that!
That's all it takes is one.
That's all it takes is one.
Iola
When we lie to ourselves, its absolutely no different then lying to someone else in a way..'
say you have a best friend iola..and you tell her a lie once...she'd forgive you right? but if your lies kept coming and they were lie after lie..after a while she would believe a word you said right??????
its no different for ourselves....when we tell ourselves that we are going to quit, and then dont, tell ourselves, next month, next Prescription;- after the long weekend,- after the holidays.-...but then dont do it, we have lied to ourselves so so much and its no different then lying to anyone else all the time...we lose all faith in ourselves, cant trust ourselves at all anymore.....
is it an wonder we feel stuck..we feel sad and depressed?
Your soul, your Psyche, your Ego...it all just stops believing in you..stops believing anything and everything you say you are going to do,,,and of course your self esteem plummets.....
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Thats why we have to just make that FIRST follow through. like YOU just did!!!..( YEAH !) .the first actual day....and it speaks volumes to your soul, to your heart, that...hey maybe I CAN do what i said i would...it starts to give you back something you had lost..faith in yourself and self confidence that you are..ARE capable of following through..!!!!!!!
Each day gets better and better and in time you have enough history of doing what you told yourself you would, that you can trust yourself again...
They say theres no better prediction of a future behaviour then past behaviour;..
so once we have changed our attitude, changed out behaviour and are finally being true to our selves, true to our desires and heart....THAT will be our past...and the future? Looks bright...Makes sense???
One of the best things about being human is our capacity to change.,..
Hugs
Ali
When we lie to ourselves, its absolutely no different then lying to someone else in a way..'
say you have a best friend iola..and you tell her a lie once...she'd forgive you right? but if your lies kept coming and they were lie after lie..after a while she would believe a word you said right??????
its no different for ourselves....when we tell ourselves that we are going to quit, and then dont, tell ourselves, next month, next Prescription;- after the long weekend,- after the holidays.-...but then dont do it, we have lied to ourselves so so much and its no different then lying to anyone else all the time...we lose all faith in ourselves, cant trust ourselves at all anymore.....
is it an wonder we feel stuck..we feel sad and depressed?
Your soul, your Psyche, your Ego...it all just stops believing in you..stops believing anything and everything you say you are going to do,,,and of course your self esteem plummets.....
''
Thats why we have to just make that FIRST follow through. like YOU just did!!!..( YEAH !) .the first actual day....and it speaks volumes to your soul, to your heart, that...hey maybe I CAN do what i said i would...it starts to give you back something you had lost..faith in yourself and self confidence that you are..ARE capable of following through..!!!!!!!
Each day gets better and better and in time you have enough history of doing what you told yourself you would, that you can trust yourself again...
They say theres no better prediction of a future behaviour then past behaviour;..
so once we have changed our attitude, changed out behaviour and are finally being true to our selves, true to our desires and heart....THAT will be our past...and the future? Looks bright...Makes sense???
One of the best things about being human is our capacity to change.,..
Hugs
Ali
