I met my new Doc today !...Holy hell..I had no idea how isolated and depressed I had been for the last year or so by not having a Doc who cared or treated me like a human being....It was remarkable....this one is up on her information and is knowledgeable about addiction...she TALKED to me without yelling or threatening me....I almost fell off the chair when she said we would work it out with my schedule and take homes...she LISTENED...she had suggestions....the relief is so overwhelming I'm giddy....she treated me like a thinking decent human being instead of a gutter criminal like the other one always did...Im blessed at the moment...she told me as i already knew, that the disease is for life...its not going to go away...and she was encouraging and supportive and made me feel good...she was proud that i was working and working a program and that made me feel like i was doing something good for a change...that i had accomplished something...sorry...i know im babbling...im just so happy and relieved right now....she adjusted the dose im on and i can call in and talk to her...what a huge huge relief to know i can do that....God i feel like its ok to be on the methadone for the first time again in sooooo long....she really understood what i was struggling with...she said the body and the mind and soul all work together and that i would know if there came a time to get off it again....that i need to accept i have the disease and that its for life and its not going away....she didn't shame me or make me feel like i was a low nasty person for being an addict...and she doesn't think being on methadone for years or even life is something bad...she spoke to me like a doctor and i was a person with an illness and what was my best options...she discussed addiction in general and was concerned actually that i was in a AA group and felt i should be more in a group with others who shared a similar situation...she made me feel like i had accomplished something good though by staying and remaining clean and by working a job and doing well...she treated me with respect and like a real person...I really really really needed this...the last years or so with this last doc did some serious damage to my self esteem...which has never been all that great anyways...wow....sorry...i just had to share this tonight !! Thanks for listening ...
Con
Wow, Con, that's so awesome....I love to read when prayers have been answered, not always in our timing but always on time.
You're a miracle, never forget that.
God bless~
Stacey
You're a miracle, never forget that.
God bless~
Stacey
You deserve that respect, Con...you all deserve that respect and understanding. So pleased that the tide is turning :-)
well there's something for Thanksgiving, isnt it? yay you
Con, I am so very happy for you too! This is just what you have been missing all along. A doctor that will treat you like a person, with an illness. What a great piece of good news! Thanks for sharing. I hope you have an awesome turkey day. Jax
Thats great
See what a difference it makes when you have some one on your side.
Its a pleasure when its not a push-pull- situation>> just because you decided to use methadone as a recovery tool-
love&respect
jack
See what a difference it makes when you have some one on your side.
Its a pleasure when its not a push-pull- situation>> just because you decided to use methadone as a recovery tool-
love&respect
jack
Con!!!
How cool is that??? I felt in my bones something wasnt right about that whole situation......remember when you first asked me to look into takehomes for Germany?????? I tried to get an answer for you from a couple different sources to no avail and now LOOK!!!!!! Get her to give you a set of policy rules for the clinic NOW,while she is there.that way you will have them and if any other instances come up that you question you will have a referance.
That is how a clinic doctor should be, none of this holier than thou garbage. Sounds like she said some things you needed to hear again.
I am so glad you are feeling as good as you do right now....... It IS great isnt it?? It is ok to not like being on methadone,as long as when you do decide to detox, you do it in the right way,at a slow pace and have plenty of backup in case you fail. For now, forget about it and get through the holidays. The holiday season can be very troubling and difficult for alot of people and I'd think maybe recovering narcotic addicts feel it too.
Have a wonderful holiday Con and we'll talk later...
Gobble,Gobble!!
Granny
How cool is that??? I felt in my bones something wasnt right about that whole situation......remember when you first asked me to look into takehomes for Germany?????? I tried to get an answer for you from a couple different sources to no avail and now LOOK!!!!!! Get her to give you a set of policy rules for the clinic NOW,while she is there.that way you will have them and if any other instances come up that you question you will have a referance.
That is how a clinic doctor should be, none of this holier than thou garbage. Sounds like she said some things you needed to hear again.
I am so glad you are feeling as good as you do right now....... It IS great isnt it?? It is ok to not like being on methadone,as long as when you do decide to detox, you do it in the right way,at a slow pace and have plenty of backup in case you fail. For now, forget about it and get through the holidays. The holiday season can be very troubling and difficult for alot of people and I'd think maybe recovering narcotic addicts feel it too.
Have a wonderful holiday Con and we'll talk later...
Gobble,Gobble!!
Granny
I am SO FULL of turkey i think I might pop ! Yikes !! We had a real thanksgiving dinner with all the trimmings...we haven't done that in years...it was wonderful...Thanks to all who replied...im so glad to be able to share something good...we had a very Thankful Thanksgiving ...its been a hell of a last few years...but here we are, together, both working, safe, fed, warm and clean... that's a lot !...yes, the holidays are tough for many people...i know being away from family, my wife's as well as my own can get a bit depressing...the weather too, still no snow...hmmfpt...so its a huge blessing to have a good addiction doc and some support....hope everyone's t-day was good...and for those still out there and suffering...prayers going out to all...there is hope....
Con
Con
I am glad you had a nice day Con...Eve since I first found this site you have been going thru some sort of B.S. or another. You seem to have finally found some peace to put your mind and spirit at ease. It's nice to hear.
We finished our turkey dinner about 4pm...everything was good,if I do say so myself.......considering I cooked the entire thing myself.............. I put all the leftovers away............washed all the dishes.........now I'm hungry again,but for a turkey sandwich........
Got a phone call about 1PM today........... from my ex-father-in-law, my GD's grandpa ,(her moms dad), and he said some really nice things in his message. I missed his call because a certain teenager that lives here was yakking to her girlfriend on the phone and missed the call waiting noise..... He also said he plans on being at the final court hearing in Dec for the guardianship. That is so cool.
He told me that he was happy I took Amber away from her mom,(in so many words), because of where she's living and that he thought she was better off with us. Wow!! big surprise. I always wanted him to be in Ambers life,especially since she was going to be here now...He doesnt live too far from us,so I am real happy about that.. I cant wait until I can sit down face to face and tell him a few things.......
Have a good evening all.
Granny
We finished our turkey dinner about 4pm...everything was good,if I do say so myself.......considering I cooked the entire thing myself.............. I put all the leftovers away............washed all the dishes.........now I'm hungry again,but for a turkey sandwich........
Got a phone call about 1PM today........... from my ex-father-in-law, my GD's grandpa ,(her moms dad), and he said some really nice things in his message. I missed his call because a certain teenager that lives here was yakking to her girlfriend on the phone and missed the call waiting noise..... He also said he plans on being at the final court hearing in Dec for the guardianship. That is so cool.
He told me that he was happy I took Amber away from her mom,(in so many words), because of where she's living and that he thought she was better off with us. Wow!! big surprise. I always wanted him to be in Ambers life,especially since she was going to be here now...He doesnt live too far from us,so I am real happy about that.. I cant wait until I can sit down face to face and tell him a few things.......
Have a good evening all.
Granny
I was so happy to read this Con and am so excited for you!
I think my husband's doctor was a huge key to his success, he was treated normal and capable to find his own way and as the heroin addict he was but not in an icky sense, but with an understanding that wasn't gonna be any piece of cake for him...
I think my husband's doctor was a huge key to his success, he was treated normal and capable to find his own way and as the heroin addict he was but not in an icky sense, but with an understanding that wasn't gonna be any piece of cake for him...
Thanks ME !!...I think your right...treated with some encouragement and support but not babied...made responsible for your own deal but with some kindness ....I know Its a better feeling than being treated like you cant do it.....Im amazed at the difference between the old doc and the new one...
Con
Con
