Sorry Brooke And Cowgirl

Pain Pills
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Im sorry i forgot your names. You two mean a lot to me and my recovery. I can not tell you how good today was, day 10. Amazing, i slept 6 hourts last night. I went back to work, didnt get in trouble for calling in sick. People were saying how good i looked and how happy i seemed. I told them i was happy the flu was over and I am finally over the ex

I deleted allll of her pics today on my cell phone! Felt great

Red
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You rock Red.

Love
Cowgirl
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Thanks cowgirl, i mean it. I am soo greatful, i mean it was hard to get out of bed. I was in such a deep sleep but i got up and went to work like a good boy. I was soo afraid to get in trouble and nope. Im respected i suppose so it was all good!

IS it normal to be this happy on day 10 lol

Red
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It's called the pink cloud. It can last for awhile but eventually you'll start feeling those feelings again that are hard to deal with. So this is where you have to start protecting yourself. Set up those safety nets. Are you going to NA? What about counselling? I can't remember if you told me that or not. The pink cloud is wonderful, it means that your brain is clearing and that you are able to feel those natural endorphines.

Cowgirl
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Cow

I dont want to fight, i dont like meetings. I am in private counseling though and I do take an AD which i think is a miracle. I havent felt this good in years. So pink cloud or not. Im not dependat on vics and thats a miracle. Im soo happy cowgirl

I will be taking naltrexone for 6 months as a net as well
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Who's fighting??? Silly boy. Meetings aren't for everyone, it's just what works for me and so I suggest them.

Good to know that you are in counselling. That's paramount in being able to deal with those icky feelings. Do you have anyother support? Family, friends? It's just really important not to isolate. Posting here is a great way to not stuff the crap we don't like talking about.

xxx
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I managed not to tell my parents. I coulnt it would kill them, I cant beleive i hid the wds from them. Boy i am stronger than i thought i ever was. Flushing the subs yesterday was a great feeling, but now the toilet is hooked on them lol

Better that than me

Red

PS_ So no one wants to come hang with me tonight

ohhh