Spoke At A Meeting

Pain Pills
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I have been going to meetings for a couple of months now and have never spoke, I just listened. Well last night I told my story. Once I started to talk, it all just came out. The quiet girl wasn't so quiet anymore.

And guess what? It didn't even hurt, It actually felt good, to have people that understood where I was coming from, that got it. There was no pity party, no judgement. There was acceptance and understanding, a brotherhood and sisterhood so to speak. There were spodes and spodettes.

I know for me I was afraid of meetings, or maybe even thoughts of I don't need to do that, I can beat this my way, which honestly is a little closer to the truth. For everybody out there that thinks this way, I just want to share this with you. I have been clean now for 4 and a half months, the longest I have ever made it and the reason for that is I have surrenderd to my addiction. I am listening, and then doing something about what applies to me. (step 1?)

Anyways, last night was a good night. I felt good about myself, like I was helping myself. I recently made a list of things to do for me, to better my life, this was on that list.

Now, for that puppy.

all the best,

Redd
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good for you. doesn't it feel great to take the first step. so proud for you. keep up the good work. you are in my thoughts and prayers.

cindy
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hey Redd..way to go!!!!!!!!!! I cant even get myself to a meeting nevermind SPEAK! Congrats...you should be proud of yourself..I know I am of you!
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hi redd,hey good job on speaking in public my knees would of been shakeing and i probally would of pissed myself[lol],hey i was reading you are looking for a dog,if you don't mind give me your email because i want to send you a pic of mine,he's an alaskan malamute,maybe it might sway you to get one they are excellent companions and very well tempterd,my email is vinny0019@aol.com
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Redd,,
words cant say... your are taking great steps... and they are all in the forward direction.... lol.... it takes great courage and strength... it will pay off more than you know... I am proud of you.. and you should be proud of you....

Teresa
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alrighty then,redd you don't want a picture of my dog well you can kiss my a**[lol],how about you teresa would you like a pic of my dog?is there anybody out there that would like a picture of my dog[lol]...........vinny.
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sure vinny... i like dogs.. but am I missing something... ?... am I having a blonde moment...?

Teresa
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teresa either give me your email or email me and i will send you one
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teresa come on i an't got all day woman,i promise you i will not send you a picture of my swollen nut's[lmao].....................vinny.
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Way to go Redd! It's such a two-way street - you feel good for sharing and you never know how many others benefitted from your message.

Jim
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shey12003@yahoo.com

lol
Teresa
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Whoa there Vinny, I stepped out to pick up my son, and went and looked at a pup and I got back to find out I can kiss your a$$, lol, ......

I'd love to see a pic of your pooch, but I don't have an e-mail set up, don't harass me about how lazy I am there either, I get enough grief over that from my friends outside of cyber space.

Can you set it up here on board?

Just went and saw a sheperd and husky mix about 4 months old that was dumped after some kids had set fire to the poor thing, made me sick to my stomach. Still thinking about that one, not sure yet.

So your pooch is a sweetheart eh'? I can't stand the house so empty without my dogs, so I'm looking.

Oh, and glad to hear Bo and Luke (thats what I call the boys) are doing Ok, you had me worried there yesterday.

Redd
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Redd..well look at you girlie...you're way ahead of me. It took me literally months, before I spoke at a meeting and now of course, they can't shut me up. I am so proud of you and think you are pretty damn cool...

Can't wait till the next one.....

I picked my dog up from the vet this morning, she got sick last night but is ok, and I saw an 11 week old chocolate lab puppy. The cutest thing I've seen in a long time... Her name is Abigal.

I think that the puppy that was burned, is going to be your choice. You need eachother...

Love
Cowgirl
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Thanks everyone for your support, I think it would have taken me much longer to speak if I hadn't made that damn 'make my life better' list. Now I gotta own it.

Cowgirl, sooooo glad to hear your dog is better, that was the worst. I miss my dogs alot, and even have an attitude towards this damn cat now, just cause shes a cat. I'm sure it will pass, I hope so for her sake anyways.

You might be right about the burnt pup, honest to God, whats wrong with people? Why on earth would you set a puppy on fire?

I thought I had problems.

Redd
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Redd, Well good for you... Glad you felt good last night speaking out at the meeting...

Vinny,
I have seen you beautiful dog if ya want to send me another picture I will post it for you on this thread for Redd to see... Since she doesn't have e-mail yet!!
Rae
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you know what redd?

i get the biggest kick watching your spirit awake.

thank you for suiting up and showing up for life.

thank you for you!

namaste'

sammy
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Redd, Way to go! I am glad you got past that "first time" moment. Been there, done that. In my past experiences with the meetings, I never talked, much.
This time, I was so ready, I poured my heart out at my first meeting. Since then, I have no problem taking at all with this group. They are so warm and accepting, I find myself telling them things I have never even said out loud before. Then again, I love to talk (surprise! haha), and have never been one to sit in the back row and be quite!
I hope you are rewarded as richly from your experience as I have been with been at the meetings. I may just get ready and go to one tonight!

Have a great weekend!
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Vinny's dog....