Step 5

Alcohol
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A little late in posting Step 5, but here goes:

"HOLD NOTHING BACK"

"The real tests of the situation are your own willingness to confide and your full confidence in the one with whom you share your first accurate self-survey...provided you hold back nothing, your sense of relief will mount from minute to minute. The damned up emotions of years break out of their confinement, and miraculously vanish as soon as they are exposed. As the pain subsides, a healing tranquility takes its place". 12 X 12, pgs 61-62

"A tiny kernel of locked-in feelings began to unfold when I first attended AA meetings and self-knowledge then became a learning task for me This new self-understanding brought about a change in my responses to life's situations. I realized I had the right to make choices in my life, and the inner dictatorship of habits slowly lost its grip. I believe that if I seek God I can find a better way to live and I ask Him daily to assist me in living a sober life".

When reading my 4th step to my Sponsor (which is the 5th step) this is exactly how it worked for me...and continues to work for me...the sense of relief was huge for me back in May 2004 when I took my 5th step...I thought my Sponsor would turn me away after I shared with her something from my past that had beleagured me for decades...she said, well none of my Sponsees have ever shared that they've done that...but no worries, I still love you and I won't turn you away...talk about unconditional love with no judgment.
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I realized I had the right to make choices in my life, and the inner dictatorship of habits slowly lost its grip

This is something I needed to hear this afternoon.
thanks VWGirl and also for following up with the step discussions.
Idg.
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AHHHH step 5 you beauty i unlocked the padlock of guilt on my soul and threw it away. Addiction is still looking for the padlock. But it does'nt matter because god has now got the key.

Light and love Zac
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Ah step 5. This is where I fell apart and realized the importance of being honest with oneself and someone else. Honestly, this last couple of months was my first real going through the steps. Step 5 threw my mental state into turmoil. My sponsor keeps telling me "not perfection", but more and more crap keeps surfacing. Perhaps it is because for over 20 years I did my sobriety without a program and have way too many committees in my head nowadays.

I'm in a 4 and 5 step circle right now..... so I'm gonna pass with that, and let the next person speak.....