Still Awake 140 Am

Pain Pills
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I am soo angry guys. I took the trazedone 3 hours ago and im still up. I dont think i will ever sleep again. Im soooo frusterated right now. What if i cant sleep tomorrow night either,. how will i go to work.

This is the worst
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Red....deep breath.

The more you overstress the sleep, the less likely it is to come.

Talk to me. I'm up for awhile.

Tell me what's going through your head right now.

Cowgirl
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I keep thinking about the ex. I dont know why cowgirl, its aweful. I guess that since im sober, i may have to mourn the loss of her again

And im soo tired and i cant sleep, honestly i dont think i will sleep again

I would go for a walk but its too cold out. Dont get mad at me, but i am seriously debating whether or not to drink at night now. Im sooo desperate for sleep.
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Drinking won't help, Red. It'll just give you a hang over on top of maybe triggering withdrawals again. If you drink, you start over.

Ok, so walking is out...how about a hot bath? A boring book? An old movie on tv?

Keep talking to me..I can bore you with the best of them. That'll put you to sleep.

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The ex...well, it is what it is and you can't change it or her. So mourn the loss and then get over it.

It's ok to feel bad, Red. You're feeling feelings that you've never had before and they hurt. Cry, get mad, throw things. Then let her go. You are what's important now and the best gift you can give her and yourself is to stay clean and in recovery.
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I have been meaning to post this for weeks, everyone says take a hot bath. I dont have a bath tub, its a walk in small shower. So i cant even do that. I ready my economics tonight, and that didnt work, maybe tv but then im not going to sleep

Seriously will sleep ever return, this is nuts
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The sleep will return. Take a hot shower anyway. Anything to help you relax. I hate to tell you this but the trazadone isn't always a good idea. For many it can have the opposite effect. You're chemisty make up in your brain is mis firing right now. It needs time to re-adjust. BUT it will get better. Eventually your brain has to sleep. Whether you want it to or not.
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Great now im even more scared. Well im going to try and lay down now. I will just keep praying until i fall asleep, Thank you for talking to me tonight, or this morning rather,
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I didn't mean to scare you red, it's just that it works differently on some people than on others.

Do try to lay down and quiet your mind.

I hope I helped a little.

Cowgirl
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You helped a lot. Thanks again for talking and I will talk to you tomorrow.

Night
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HEy I just emailed you.Sounds like all of the reasons that you started using to numb are resurfacing and Yep you have to deal with them SOBER JUSTIN!! THAT MEANS SOBER not DRUNK!!! Your disease it trying to sneak while you are weak and that is not good and Alcohol is just as nasty a habit as Heroin/pills!! Watch your a s s !!! Look you can take up to 200 mgs of trazadone and it is not going to hurt you the therapeutic dose for depression is anything over 350 mgs so anything under that is to help you sleep .When your body is going thru w/ds which you still are and just becaus eyou are feeling a little better doesnt mean you are back to normal actually this is where the real stuff comes into play STAYING SOBER IS THE HARD PART!!!! You were so stressed about the w/ds off the subs and did fine like everyone told you you would be and I can imagine that there are not going to be too many supporting your drinking idea either.Look you really need to do somethings to relax you like reading and journaling I know it sounds stupid maybe but have you tried it? Things lose ALOT of power when you get then out of your head and on to paper and as you get rid of the negative sh it start refilling w/ positive things like I wont feel this way forever ,This to Shall Pass and for you Keep It Simple!!! Stop trying to complicate this and do the next Right thing lay in your bed and turn the tv off or sit up sometimes tossing around only frustrates you more and do anything that is BORING TO YOU.Classical music ,no Caffeine no sugar do everything you can .Look up insomnia on the internet and see what you can try differently to help you get some rest.And be grateful that you have gotten some rest at all it is going to take at least a month to sleep well and as for work you just get up and go and push yourself and if you are tired when you come home get your stuff done and call it a night listen yo your body it will tell you ehat it needs .You are going to be fine but Drinking is NOT the answer and I think you already know that IS NOT what you should do!!! Good luck hon,Cris
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Hi: I hope that by now you are asleep. I take Trazadone and it works for me, but as was stated before, for some people it might have the opposite effect. You will sleep though. The brain will shut down eventually because it has to, and since you aren't using and aren't DRINKING, than you aren't stimulating your brain to stay alert. Even though alcohol is a depressant, the brain only knows how to process it, not examine it, and the processing is what keeps you awake. Anyhow, you haven't met me yet, I'm fairly new so maybe my response will bore you to sleep. I really just wanted to tell you that for so long after I got clean I was scared to death of not sleeping and having that god awful morning after feeling. Sometimes there is just nothing you can do. You take the hot shower, maybe read for awhile and try if possible to forget about going to sleep.
Good luck and Sweet Dreams

elsiejean

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I hope you are asleep by now as well. I can totally relate. In addition to W/D I also underwent 48 weeks of treatment for Hep C, one of the many side effects is an innability to fall aslep, once again I was in a situation where sleep was impossible and I wasn't even high this time.

I know the frustration and the feelings of insanity that come with not being able to sleep. As many have suggested perhaps try a hobbie or as in my case I turned my attention to my book:

http://www.wastednetwork.com/wn_for...m/index.php?c=6

I found that eventually I grew tired and was able to sleep, often only for short periods of time during the day. However sleep is sleep. I wouldn't suggest drinking as this will only serve to cause more problems and a return to what got you where you are today.

One thing I heard when I told someone of my sleep problems is "No one has ever died of not sleeping"

Addiction on the other hand........
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i can't sleep either, learn how to do deep breathing, i've done yoga for many years and when i can't sleep i do a few sun salutations, and deep breathing. learn how to lay down on your back, breath in as deep and as slow as you can, watch your breath, move slowly. settle down. i'm coming off pot, which believe me, at the rate and length of time i was using, has screwed me up. my mind races, i have anxiety and although god bless no physical stuff like pills, it does create the physical from the mental.
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Read my book maybe it will put you all to sleep????

LOL

http://www.wastednetwork.com/wn_for...m/index.php?c=6

God bless.
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Wolf i always offer to sing that works too lmao via cotten wool jaxxxxxxxxx
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I see some new people here that posted and I wanted to say welcome to the board.

Elsie, you are so right about the trazadone. It worked the opposite on me and kept me awake for 36 hours. Those were rough days...

Cowgirl