haia who ever is here tonight,im just off to try and sleep,kids are back to schol tomorrow,the only heroin addict at the school gates is ME!my parents are really proud!!!!!!!!!!!YEAH,YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi Julz,
I'm glad you came back. I would bet any amount of anything that your not the only addict at the gate. Bet on it. All of us, every one, have been there. I'm a mother and spent many a year high as hell on opiates. I got sick of being dope sick and finally quit. I know you can too. When your ready. This board is a good place to start. Stick around. Talk to some folks.
Good to see you again! I'm out for the week, but will be back at week end. Please take good care.
Beck
I'm glad you came back. I would bet any amount of anything that your not the only addict at the gate. Bet on it. All of us, every one, have been there. I'm a mother and spent many a year high as hell on opiates. I got sick of being dope sick and finally quit. I know you can too. When your ready. This board is a good place to start. Stick around. Talk to some folks.
Good to see you again! I'm out for the week, but will be back at week end. Please take good care.
Beck
Hey Julz,
Girl you're trying.
This will sound like a bunch of crap, but I know EXACTLY how ya feel. EXACTLY as a mom.
Beck I bet is right. You ain't the ONLY one there. Oh, trust us you ain't, and if ya are then big whoop!!!!!!! Hang on Julz, and your parent's CAN be PROUD again when ya beat this.
Girl you're trying.
This will sound like a bunch of crap, but I know EXACTLY how ya feel. EXACTLY as a mom.
Beck I bet is right. You ain't the ONLY one there. Oh, trust us you ain't, and if ya are then big whoop!!!!!!! Hang on Julz, and your parent's CAN be PROUD again when ya beat this.
Where ya at Julz?
We addicts always look at the people we see when we are going about our days and you think your the only one who is an addict but we're not. I'm afraid that there are addicts of every substance known to man all over the shop, we're every where. so your not alone. peace.
All kinds of s*** goes on behind closed doors. I moved into a little cul-de-sac, in supposedly a nice area a few years back. There was only 15 houses in the street. I thought I was the only heroin addict there. but pretty soon I found out that there were 5 more living in my little street! And that's just heroin... Everybody has their skeletons in their closets.
love
Diff x
love
Diff x
Good post Diff.
True Dat.
What are you still doing home? Awwwww, my Diff. You're baby girl is going to be a PISCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be ready for a sensitive, caring, fiercely loyal daughter. Oh and one who up the road will enjoy the bad boys.
I can't wait. Hope you feel O.K., babes.
True Dat.
What are you still doing home? Awwwww, my Diff. You're baby girl is going to be a PISCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be ready for a sensitive, caring, fiercely loyal daughter. Oh and one who up the road will enjoy the bad boys.
I can't wait. Hope you feel O.K., babes.
Bryn,
i'm a pisces I so know what you mean - Diff she'll be fab.
k
x
i'm a pisces I so know what you mean - Diff she'll be fab.
k
x
haia everyone,
i still havnt managed to stop using,im sick of planing it,fed up of most thing really!!apart from my girls,my eldest is going to be ten 20 of this month and my other daughter is three when im feeling guilty wich is most of the time i think if looking at them everyday isnt enough to stop me then what else has got a chance??good luck with your baby diffxx
julie
wales
i still havnt managed to stop using,im sick of planing it,fed up of most thing really!!apart from my girls,my eldest is going to be ten 20 of this month and my other daughter is three when im feeling guilty wich is most of the time i think if looking at them everyday isnt enough to stop me then what else has got a chance??good luck with your baby diffxx
julie
wales
Julie,
Hate to tell ya but it's about YOU!!!!!!
Try looking at it another way.......you got one foot in......ya do!
Hate to tell ya but it's about YOU!!!!!!
Try looking at it another way.......you got one foot in......ya do!
I meant one foot in wanting to kick, and stay kicked and live.
I had two great kids age 6 and 8 "at the time" to look at everyday "never stoped me". I got the message loud and clear how much they ment to me when the state gave them to my mom. They have been gone two years now "i only see them weekends". It all started because i got a arm infection "staph" had to be put in the hospital the hospital contacted children's services one failed drug test my life changed forever. I lost my house, my car, my kids BUT I GOT CLEAN!. Everyone WARNED me I could lose them I never saw it untill it already happend. Of course all addicts don't lose their kids BUT be aware it dose happen everyday!. For me I still USED for 2 months after they were gone!. I only stoped after having no more cash I never paid my bills car was repo'ed house payments too late. So i ended up at my grandmothers and started methadone it saved me. I don't know why i let it get that bad kicking it was hard but losing everything was a lot harder. You have to start one day at a time the longer you let it control you the worse everything in your life will be. I learnt the hard way as most do. Keep trying," the only way out... is thru".
Hi Julie,
For every drug addict that has quit, the reasons were different. But to a person, they were all in your shoes once. Wanting to, not wanting to. Wondering how life could be any good without it. Wishing they knew how. Beating themselves up. Hating themselves. We all started there.
Stick around. Talk about it to the good people here. No one will judge. Don't be ashamed here. It's a start Julie.
It's good to see you!
Beck
For every drug addict that has quit, the reasons were different. But to a person, they were all in your shoes once. Wanting to, not wanting to. Wondering how life could be any good without it. Wishing they knew how. Beating themselves up. Hating themselves. We all started there.
Stick around. Talk about it to the good people here. No one will judge. Don't be ashamed here. It's a start Julie.
It's good to see you!
Beck
Alright..Julz..the good folks are right..if ya want bad enough you will eventually get there.Cease all contact with addicts/dealers..try to get out of the druglife..not only for your kids but for you..as was said above.Also Julz as a single Dad of a hyper 7yr.old..you are deff.not the only addict at those school gates or on yer street.You said you had a methedone script why not give it a go...i know theres a lot of bad press about it but it worked for me&others on here..maybe it might work for you..ya really aint got much to lose.
Take care and keep us posted..........Davey
Take care and keep us posted..........Davey
Davey dear,
How are you? I hope all is well with you and Sian! How is work? Do I remember you being a welder? 7 years old. I do miss that on most days, although I have good times with mine as well. Teens are different. You kind of have to wait for the good moments. You sound well and I'm glad to see it. SIan had her first sleepover? Soon your house will be crawling with little girls spending the night. I always had fun with that. Most weekends I had another boy or two here. Not so much anymore. I think of you often and am always pleased to see you around.
Take care Davey!
Julie,
Davey is another one who walked in your shoes. His advice is sound. It isn't easy, but the methadone will help a great deal. Once you take that step, looking back you realize that thinking and worrying about it was worse then doing it. Best of luck.
Beck
How are you? I hope all is well with you and Sian! How is work? Do I remember you being a welder? 7 years old. I do miss that on most days, although I have good times with mine as well. Teens are different. You kind of have to wait for the good moments. You sound well and I'm glad to see it. SIan had her first sleepover? Soon your house will be crawling with little girls spending the night. I always had fun with that. Most weekends I had another boy or two here. Not so much anymore. I think of you often and am always pleased to see you around.
Take care Davey!
Julie,
Davey is another one who walked in your shoes. His advice is sound. It isn't easy, but the methadone will help a great deal. Once you take that step, looking back you realize that thinking and worrying about it was worse then doing it. Best of luck.
Beck
haia
thanx everyone for your support,me and my partner have had enough of this life(if you can callit that)we are ready to stop its just doing it now ,weve plenty of meth ,we just need to stop saying one last smoke!!!!is there ever a last one??we have plenty to fill our lives ,we both work have two lovely girls,but even that doesnt stop the emptines and long days when you get clean.We came into some money ,we spent all that and now weve just done somthing verry stupid,we owned our own house we both had savings when we met, and we bought a two bed house for 12,000,it needed some work but we rented for a few years while we got it ready,four years later (last year)we moved in to a nice house my bf did most of the work himself so we were really proud of what wed achieved so young but now weve gone and took a mortgage on it,i know big mistake while were still using ,we both know we can end up with nothing and still we choose the gear!!!!
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julie
depressed in wales
thanx everyone for your support,me and my partner have had enough of this life(if you can callit that)we are ready to stop its just doing it now ,weve plenty of meth ,we just need to stop saying one last smoke!!!!is there ever a last one??we have plenty to fill our lives ,we both work have two lovely girls,but even that doesnt stop the emptines and long days when you get clean.We came into some money ,we spent all that and now weve just done somthing verry stupid,we owned our own house we both had savings when we met, and we bought a two bed house for 12,000,it needed some work but we rented for a few years while we got it ready,four years later (last year)we moved in to a nice house my bf did most of the work himself so we were really proud of what wed achieved so young but now weve gone and took a mortgage on it,i know big mistake while were still using ,we both know we can end up with nothing and still we choose the gear!!!!
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julie
depressed in wales
There ya go, Julz........yo two sure are making your way.....you can tell you are proud.......and meantime the dope pulls, don't it?
Like Beck said Davey knows his stuff.......and he is a superb dad.
Beck, is there ever a last smoke?.....that's for you to decide.....it's a little tougher I think too with two people in the game......I remember that......I'd do it and then he's use and I'd get mad, and then I'd pick back up.......it can be done though......it sure can.......somebody has to start it though.......sounds like you guys are ready.
Ever a last one.......that question loomed for me.......every kick.......even the last one almost three years ago.......I'm not a narcotics anonymous girl....although I saw that work miraculously for people.....but like they say....
ONE DAY AT A TIME..........if I thought NEVER........well I might not be clean now......just not today..........not today.........it adds up.
Like Beck said Davey knows his stuff.......and he is a superb dad.
Beck, is there ever a last smoke?.....that's for you to decide.....it's a little tougher I think too with two people in the game......I remember that......I'd do it and then he's use and I'd get mad, and then I'd pick back up.......it can be done though......it sure can.......somebody has to start it though.......sounds like you guys are ready.
Ever a last one.......that question loomed for me.......every kick.......even the last one almost three years ago.......I'm not a narcotics anonymous girl....although I saw that work miraculously for people.....but like they say....
ONE DAY AT A TIME..........if I thought NEVER........well I might not be clean now......just not today..........not today.........it adds up.
