Thankyou everyone for your response. I was a little worried I shouldn't post because I am still using. I am also scared to quit. I will continue to read everyones messages, and learn from those who are recovering. If anyone has any advice to get past that first step of not wanting to quit, please let me know. Thankyou so much:)
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Hi Pook!
Don't ever be afraid to post while still using. Something may be said here that will be the push you need to get on track.
Best of luck and prayers to you!
Don't ever be afraid to post while still using. Something may be said here that will be the push you need to get on track.
Best of luck and prayers to you!
Pooky,
I can understand not wanting to quit. I didn't want to give up that feeling of using, let alone face the pain of withdrawl. But, I also didn't want to spend the rest of my life on that drug merry go round. That feeling of getting low on pills, trying to make ends meet and still pay for my habit. Oh my God, the money I spent that should have gone to my family. And so many other things.
I think you've taken a baby step though in admitting you have a problem and are considering doing something about it. And this whole process is taking steps, its up to you where you want to walk to.
This board is a great help and don't ever feel bad about posting. We're all here to get help and hopefully we can give help back.
Sincerely,
Redd
I can understand not wanting to quit. I didn't want to give up that feeling of using, let alone face the pain of withdrawl. But, I also didn't want to spend the rest of my life on that drug merry go round. That feeling of getting low on pills, trying to make ends meet and still pay for my habit. Oh my God, the money I spent that should have gone to my family. And so many other things.
I think you've taken a baby step though in admitting you have a problem and are considering doing something about it. And this whole process is taking steps, its up to you where you want to walk to.
This board is a great help and don't ever feel bad about posting. We're all here to get help and hopefully we can give help back.
Sincerely,
Redd
Pooky how are you today hun? and nerver be affraid to post, without knowing it hun your being helpfull to others in your position we all help each other here jackie xxx
HELLO POOK,
I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN HELP BUT AM POSTING TO TRY. I AM ON DAY 7 AND AM FEELING ALOT BETTER BUT LET ME TELL YOU MAKING THE DICISION TO QUIT MY PILL ADDICTION WAS A ROLLER COASTER...STILL IS. BUT EACH DAY I COUNT DOWN I COME HERE FOR HELP, ADVISE, OR JUST A FRIEND TO UNDERSTAND, AND HAVE BEEN OVERWHELMED WITH SO MUCH SUPPORT. TONIGHT I HAD TO SEE A FRIEND OF MINE THAT WAS A SOURCE AND NOT ASKING FOR A PILL JUST TO TAKE OFF THE EDGE WAS HELL...BUT I AM PROUD INSTEAD I TOLD HER I HAVE TO DO THIS. I HAVE QUIT ONCE BEFOR FOR 10 DAYS AND I FELL. BUT I FEEL THIS TIME IS DIFF. I KNOW IT IS CAUSE OF THE WAY I WALKED AWAY FROM THEM TONIGHT. I CAME TO THIS SITE ON DAY 5 THE OTHER DAY. I WAS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME THAT DAY AND INSTEAD OF CALLING ON THE PILLS I REACHED OUT HERE...THESE PEOPLE HAVE HELPED GIVE ME THE COURAGE I NEED AND CONTINUE TO NEED.
DON'T FEEL BAD YOU ARE STILL USING AND POSTING. IT HELPS TO TALK WITH PEOPLE ON BOTH ENDS OF THE SPECTRUM AND IN BETWEEN. WERE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. YOU ARE HERE AND THATS A START...I DON'T KNOW ANY ONE WHO WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND YOUR POSITION.
YOU WILL FIND YOUR STREGTH AND REASONS AND BE ON THE WAY WHEN YOU ARE READY.
KEEP REACHING HERE...NOTHING BETTER FOR ME AND MY HUSBAND. WE LEAN ON EVERY ONE FOR ADVISE AND FRIENDSHIP. I WAS SO GLAD TO FIND THESE MUCH NEEDED FRIENDS IN THIS HARD TIME I'M HAVING.
I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN HELP BUT AM POSTING TO TRY. I AM ON DAY 7 AND AM FEELING ALOT BETTER BUT LET ME TELL YOU MAKING THE DICISION TO QUIT MY PILL ADDICTION WAS A ROLLER COASTER...STILL IS. BUT EACH DAY I COUNT DOWN I COME HERE FOR HELP, ADVISE, OR JUST A FRIEND TO UNDERSTAND, AND HAVE BEEN OVERWHELMED WITH SO MUCH SUPPORT. TONIGHT I HAD TO SEE A FRIEND OF MINE THAT WAS A SOURCE AND NOT ASKING FOR A PILL JUST TO TAKE OFF THE EDGE WAS HELL...BUT I AM PROUD INSTEAD I TOLD HER I HAVE TO DO THIS. I HAVE QUIT ONCE BEFOR FOR 10 DAYS AND I FELL. BUT I FEEL THIS TIME IS DIFF. I KNOW IT IS CAUSE OF THE WAY I WALKED AWAY FROM THEM TONIGHT. I CAME TO THIS SITE ON DAY 5 THE OTHER DAY. I WAS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME THAT DAY AND INSTEAD OF CALLING ON THE PILLS I REACHED OUT HERE...THESE PEOPLE HAVE HELPED GIVE ME THE COURAGE I NEED AND CONTINUE TO NEED.
DON'T FEEL BAD YOU ARE STILL USING AND POSTING. IT HELPS TO TALK WITH PEOPLE ON BOTH ENDS OF THE SPECTRUM AND IN BETWEEN. WERE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. YOU ARE HERE AND THATS A START...I DON'T KNOW ANY ONE WHO WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND YOUR POSITION.
YOU WILL FIND YOUR STREGTH AND REASONS AND BE ON THE WAY WHEN YOU ARE READY.
KEEP REACHING HERE...NOTHING BETTER FOR ME AND MY HUSBAND. WE LEAN ON EVERY ONE FOR ADVISE AND FRIENDSHIP. I WAS SO GLAD TO FIND THESE MUCH NEEDED FRIENDS IN THIS HARD TIME I'M HAVING.
Pookie, you'd be surprised at how many of us were using when we first came here, you'd also be surprised at how this has been a start for those who want to stop, and are clean now.
Hey Bamamom, have you made a plan for staying clean? It really helps. Staying that way is harder than getting that way.....trust me. Love, Kat
Hey Bamamom, have you made a plan for staying clean? It really helps. Staying that way is harder than getting that way.....trust me. Love, Kat
Hey Bam wow hun you have every right to feel proud refuseing pills is awesome im so proud of you why because i know how difficult it is. keep it up hun. your so right about this site it does give you the encouragement you need. jackie xxx
KAT AND WACKYJ.
I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHATS IN STORE FOR ME AND I AM SCARED BUT ME AND MY HUSBAND ARE DOING THIS TOGETHER TO HELP EACH OTHER...SAYING NO TO THE PILLS WAS SO HARD BUT AS I THINK OF IT NOW GIVES ME EVEN MORE DETERMINATION TO DO THIS. I WANT TO BE A GOOD MOTHER, WIFE,AND FRIEND AND NOW THAT I AM NOT IN A HAZE I WANT IT EVEN MORE.
BUT ONE THING DIFF THIS TIME IS I HAVE PEOPLE LIKE YOU ALL.
AND I COME HERE CONSTANT THRU THE DAY...
I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHATS IN STORE FOR ME AND I AM SCARED BUT ME AND MY HUSBAND ARE DOING THIS TOGETHER TO HELP EACH OTHER...SAYING NO TO THE PILLS WAS SO HARD BUT AS I THINK OF IT NOW GIVES ME EVEN MORE DETERMINATION TO DO THIS. I WANT TO BE A GOOD MOTHER, WIFE,AND FRIEND AND NOW THAT I AM NOT IN A HAZE I WANT IT EVEN MORE.
BUT ONE THING DIFF THIS TIME IS I HAVE PEOPLE LIKE YOU ALL.
AND I COME HERE CONSTANT THRU THE DAY...
Hey Bamamom, check out this site NA AA Recovery Zone. You might learn some tools there to help you and your husband. It might not be the route you chose to go, but it's worth looking at. It's awfully hard to kick this habit, and we will always have the disease, whether we're actively using or not. Anyway, hope you find some information there you can use. Love, Kat
KAT,
THANK YOU VERY MUCH. ANY ADVISE YOU CAN GIVE US IS ALWAYS WELCOMED.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH. ANY ADVISE YOU CAN GIVE US IS ALWAYS WELCOMED.
Nice to meet you Pooky. You can post away, we are here to help. I will admit, quitting those stupid little devils was the hardest thing that I have ever done..
But it is possible..
Good luck, and welcome to the beginning...
Kerry
But it is possible..
Good luck, and welcome to the beginning...
Kerry
Pooky, glad you're here. Many people, including myself, came to this site while still using. No problem there. Hopefully you will find hope here, and information, and maybe the desire and courage to quit before you begin to lose too much. As you say, you have to really want it -- but for many, that's not an overnite process. Keep coming back and let us help. peace, M.
Pookey I just wanted to say welcome.I 2 was still usen when I came here and all I got was understanding & friendship.Please feel free to post.Or just sit & read.You can learn alot from just reading.Im mollyjean & if I can help I will TAKE CARE....mj
