torqegirl@yahoo.com
I don't know if I'm doing this right, I hope so, I have been doing "METH" for about 15 years, I have all the people at work thinking I do not nor would I do drugs especially "METH", I hate these lies, I wake up every day feeling so very guilty, where do I go???? what do I do ?????????, I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired, I work with the public all day every day, I hate the person my customers think I am, I want help so bad I can't even stand to look at myself anymore, I wake up and go to sleep thinking what to do with the big hole I have dug for myself (more like canyon), I want to find my self once again so I will finally allow someone else in my life, right now every day is one great big lie.. PLEASE HELP ME FIND ME AGAIN......
tnbmlt@yahoo.com
Hi, I can relate to your message. Same here. I am working on getting my
beautiful seven year old daughter back because of an abusive relationship I
was in with an exboyfriend that she witnessed. They removed her from my
custody temporarily due to this violence and drug use. I need to pass random drug screens on a regular basis and do not want to jeopardize my daughter for any reason much less drugs. I am a very strong willed person and I know I can do this. I get depressed sometime and want to just give up and turn back to my old ways; but she means everything to me. I am 40 years old and I want to see my daughter grow up to not do drugs. I am her example for the rest of her life and I haven't set a good one lately.
signed...need a group name or therapy group to attend
Hi, I can relate to your message. Same here. I am working on getting my
beautiful seven year old daughter back because of an abusive relationship I
was in with an exboyfriend that she witnessed. They removed her from my
custody temporarily due to this violence and drug use. I need to pass random drug screens on a regular basis and do not want to jeopardize my daughter for any reason much less drugs. I am a very strong willed person and I know I can do this. I get depressed sometime and want to just give up and turn back to my old ways; but she means everything to me. I am 40 years old and I want to see my daughter grow up to not do drugs. I am her example for the rest of her life and I haven't set a good one lately.
signed...need a group name or therapy group to attend
WELL you are here. that is important
you are starting to talk about it. and the people you work with dont need to know everything. its non of their business
but i know what you mean. you are living a lie.
all of us in addictions are living a lie
we have to lie for "straight people" but its funny you think no one else around you has a problem but i am sure if you could read their minds you would find eveything from pill poppers to sex addicts to heroin junkies.
find yourself a rehab if you can if you cant do inpatient try outpatient
that is what i did and it was great
when you quit it will be hell
but you got to crack a couple eggs to make an omlette
i am sorry for that last comment but i heard that today and it cracks me up
anyway dont give up keep praying
God has a plan and he uses all of our mistakes and our issues for his good works.
~Adam A
you are starting to talk about it. and the people you work with dont need to know everything. its non of their business
but i know what you mean. you are living a lie.
all of us in addictions are living a lie
we have to lie for "straight people" but its funny you think no one else around you has a problem but i am sure if you could read their minds you would find eveything from pill poppers to sex addicts to heroin junkies.
find yourself a rehab if you can if you cant do inpatient try outpatient
that is what i did and it was great
when you quit it will be hell
but you got to crack a couple eggs to make an omlette
i am sorry for that last comment but i heard that today and it cracks me up
anyway dont give up keep praying
God has a plan and he uses all of our mistakes and our issues for his good works.
~Adam A
