Hi Everyone,
Just came back from the pain doc. I am really having a hard time weaning down. It's the hardest hardest thing I have ever had to do. I am so glad for this board.
Uncle Vic (vicodin) and I are having such a battle!! My doctor has been so wonderful, and supportive. I am having a terrible time going to to 30mgs a day but I guess its the only way. I told him I would like to be put to sleep (not death) and have the IV fluids do the work. He understands what I am going through.
I just cannot believe how sick I am feeling on this dose. I am so afraid I will never be able to stop. My chronic pain does not help either.
I am grateful to be part of this board and everyone has been so kind. NOBODY has judged me or has made me feel bad. I feel bad enough already.
These pills just control everything and the thing I found out is, it just creeped up. I never knew it was even happening. Yikes...
Sorry if I am babbling. I just need to keep busy. Does the craving and thoughts ever ever go away??
Love and Peace to all you amazing people.
Shayla
I'm sorry Shayla..it's tough what you're going through. Will you have to stay on the meds forever because of your pain issues? What will you do for pain management?
You are so lucky to have your dr...he sounds compassionate. How about face to face support? It really does help to be able to talk about this stuff. No one should ever go it alone.
Take care
Cowgirl
You are so lucky to have your dr...he sounds compassionate. How about face to face support? It really does help to be able to talk about this stuff. No one should ever go it alone.
Take care
Cowgirl
Shayla,
Wow, it sounds like you're going through so much. I hope you can recognize how much strength and courage you have shown by taking the steps you have - talking to your doctor, lowering your dosage, going through the w/d symptoms, sharing your experiences with us... and all of this in the face of experiencing ongoing pain. I'm sure that I'm not the only one who is amazed by these achievements. Keep it up, you're doing great.
-Matt
Wow, it sounds like you're going through so much. I hope you can recognize how much strength and courage you have shown by taking the steps you have - talking to your doctor, lowering your dosage, going through the w/d symptoms, sharing your experiences with us... and all of this in the face of experiencing ongoing pain. I'm sure that I'm not the only one who is amazed by these achievements. Keep it up, you're doing great.
-Matt
Hey Shayla, I am sorry to hear about what you're going through. It really stinks, the chronic pain, and being an addict huh? Do you think you'll be on pain meds forever? Some people are, my Dr has me on Methadone, 60 mgs a day, first it was to help me get off the oxy's, now she keeps me on it for my arthritis, polycystic ovary syndrome, and damaged disk in the back, I also take Cymbalta which is an anti depressant with a pain reliever in it. So with those two, I still have small amounts of pain, especially on a day like today, rainy and foggy. But it is manageable. Does someone hold your meds for you? You are lucky that you have a DR, that is so kind and one that listens, they are hard to find. I wish you well, and have a great day! Kim
Good morning to all,
Oh boy, what a day. I feel so foggy. I want more pills then I am allowed, so thank god my husband is the gatekeeper. He takes them to work with him. I always found all his hiding places!! I guess we can just sniff them out.
Thanks so much for all the support. Unless you have this problem, you have no idea whats it like to have a pain killer addiction. My husband used to say oh just stop, but he had no idea how bad it is. You cannot just stop. Ok, wait, you can but the cold turkey is worse then anything I have ever ever experienced.
I get the skin crawls, the runny nose, and the chills and pains, but worst of all, is the sneezing. I cannot stop sneezing. Its amazing how wacked out the nervous system becomes.
I just have to take it day by day. I want it so so bad. Being uncomfortable along the way is part of the program. I just am so sick of always worrying do I have enough pills, when can I get more pills and well you know the drill.
Thanks everyone for listening. I so do appreciate it. I don't know what my doctor will have install for me when I am done, for my chronic pain. I will keep all posted.
Love and lots of peace,
Shayla
Oh boy, what a day. I feel so foggy. I want more pills then I am allowed, so thank god my husband is the gatekeeper. He takes them to work with him. I always found all his hiding places!! I guess we can just sniff them out.
Thanks so much for all the support. Unless you have this problem, you have no idea whats it like to have a pain killer addiction. My husband used to say oh just stop, but he had no idea how bad it is. You cannot just stop. Ok, wait, you can but the cold turkey is worse then anything I have ever ever experienced.
I get the skin crawls, the runny nose, and the chills and pains, but worst of all, is the sneezing. I cannot stop sneezing. Its amazing how wacked out the nervous system becomes.
I just have to take it day by day. I want it so so bad. Being uncomfortable along the way is part of the program. I just am so sick of always worrying do I have enough pills, when can I get more pills and well you know the drill.
Thanks everyone for listening. I so do appreciate it. I don't know what my doctor will have install for me when I am done, for my chronic pain. I will keep all posted.
Love and lots of peace,
Shayla
hi shyla,i glad you come to the conclusion that drug use is a dead end street,if you don't mind me sayin so i would like to explain how i never could taper i never had that sort of control,if it was there i was takein it and on the couple occasion's i had my wife hold on to it i just drove her up the wall asking for more makeing up lies that my pain was worse than it really was,and when she would leave to go some where i would tear through the house like i was on a mission to find those pills,so she no longer volunterd for that job anymore[lol],i know your scared and feel uncertain of the painful reality that waits before you and i totaly understand,it's kinda like going through hell to get to heaven,but eventualy you know your going to have to go through it taper or not,i know some of the withdraws i've been through i really thought i was going to die,so what im sayin is maybe it might be a good thing to just get it over with now if you feel you are physicaly and mentaly strong enough to do so,its so much better on this side of the fence,i promise you that,stay strong in mind,body and spirt and you will come out just fine.............vinny.
