How many people who have used meth stayed clean for more than 2 years
and what was the hardest thing to deal with at that time.
Was there any differnt struggles you delt with in that time frame?
monny
xoxoxoxoxo
well i cant speak for everyone but i used then was clean for six years before i let my guard down now i am back to day 312 clean but at least now i am clean
deebee,
If you don't mined me asking?
What made you let your gard down after 6 years?
Also i am veary happy for you 312 days is a number you shuld be proud of .
What brought you arond after your relaps?
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
If you don't mined me asking?
What made you let your gard down after 6 years?
Also i am veary happy for you 312 days is a number you shuld be proud of .
What brought you arond after your relaps?
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
ok then you want to know.......after six years of being clean i started drinking......i had never realized my addiction before-just that i abused the drug-and drinking started triggering my impulse to get high and then in 1998 i learned to smoke meth and pow I was off and running.it took the sherriff dept and cps taking the boy i was raising away and placing him in the system before i finally realized how addicted i was so i made an agreement with my g/f (who is also an addict)to get clean and get back what we had lost.Well i made it 4 months 19 days then i slipped and dove headfirst right back into the hell i had fought so hard to leave and just being near my g/f is what triggered thecompulsion to use.On dec 2nd of last year i finally made up my mind to get my life back and am still currently on track to do that.My g/f is still playing games with her addiction so the odds of me getting back the boy that i ahve been raising for 9 years is probably not too good and the odds of her and i ever actually being a couple again are probably just as low but I have to get my life back regardless of anything else.I am currently figuring out my triggers so that i can avoid them.And believe it or not i have done this all with the grace of God and a lot of stubborness,no meetings no one to talk to I just recently found this and anotherforum to use when the pressures build
deebee,
You are my new HERO !!!!!
MY husband use to have a problem with knowing what his triggers are
the last time he relapesed pot triggered it and he tried to hide it from me by drinking(( that was after 1 year of being clean)) Also friends and family who used pressured him alot becouse he had hook up's that never dried up so we had to move far far away.
We have 4 kids so i see how your son can be a big wake up call.
I'm sorry about your G/F I have been lucky enuf to never have been addicted to any drugs or alcahol. That is why i try soo hard to understand so that i can be there for him.
Thank you soo much for respondeing and shareing it has given me a new
look at recorvery and hope.
If there is any thing elece you can tell me that might help me under stand what brought you this far ples tell me.
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
You are my new HERO !!!!!
MY husband use to have a problem with knowing what his triggers are
the last time he relapesed pot triggered it and he tried to hide it from me by drinking(( that was after 1 year of being clean)) Also friends and family who used pressured him alot becouse he had hook up's that never dried up so we had to move far far away.
We have 4 kids so i see how your son can be a big wake up call.
I'm sorry about your G/F I have been lucky enuf to never have been addicted to any drugs or alcahol. That is why i try soo hard to understand so that i can be there for him.
Thank you soo much for respondeing and shareing it has given me a new
look at recorvery and hope.
If there is any thing elece you can tell me that might help me under stand what brought you this far ples tell me.
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
monny-i dont know how good i could explain how personal my addiction was,it was like my number one priority for years.But as a using addict I never realized how much control this drug had over me and my life and how it used and manipulated me in to believing that I was in control.It was the losing of my son and watching the dwonward spiral of his mother when i realized that i too was totally out of control.I needed to get some semblance of control back into my life.Its really strange because i now hate the drug for all the damage that i can see that has happened inside my mind,I now have all kinds of new anxietites and have a real hard time socializing.But the way that i have been fighting back is with knowledge.I have been loooking up the research done on meth espescially here lately since i have found these forums where there are so many out there who have been affected by this unnecessary evil that are so gravious as to pass on links and advice on all different matters concerning this drug.I now have the faith in myself to realize that i can overcome this aa long as i continue to remember that i am an addict and for me to use willl be the same as signing my own death certificate.the drug now attacks me in my sleep by invading my dreams bbut i am learnijng everyday how to cope a little better with my dependency.And now thanks to these forums i can get advice from those that have walked this path before me especially in dealing with my co dependency......and thats what you need to get alittle helpm with it sounds like.be co dependent can be just as hard on your life as the actual dependency.I hpe that hubby can find it in him to stay off the dope but even if he can't i hope that you can realize that you cant save him only he can do that.In my situationalthough i feel like a coward for running i realize that as an addict myself the only way that i could help my g/f is to not help her in fact i am hoping that by me getting alll this didtance between us that she will realize that when it comes to her addiction she has to find her out because for each of us its different.I dont know if i helped you any or even if i answered your question but if not then ask again......................dee
deebee,
i know i can't save him i spent the first 2 years of our marriage doing that
i don't need to tell you that turned out awful.Then4 years ago i let go so that me and our 3rd child could go through a healthy preg.It took 7 months of absolute
no contact with me or our 2 kids for him to come around.So he made the choice by him self and for him self. Meth is a selfish drug it would share him with any one.
I have learnt in this 6 year battle to steep back and support him .BUT i have also lernt not to put up with any crap from him no lies no sneaking around.
He has been brutally honest with me and ithat is easy for other one of us.
I never thought i could trust or forgive him but i have.He has proven to be a very strong man .It also helped him doing research on meth i hit home when he found out what a meth brain looked like.
my first post hear was about the dreams he was haveing about meth and waking up with the taste in his mouth ((( that was a big trigger for him)))
and by what you wrote that is something that happens.
no one elece on this board had ever heard of it before SOO I'M GLAD YOU MENTIONED THAT!!!
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
i know i can't save him i spent the first 2 years of our marriage doing that
i don't need to tell you that turned out awful.Then4 years ago i let go so that me and our 3rd child could go through a healthy preg.It took 7 months of absolute
no contact with me or our 2 kids for him to come around.So he made the choice by him self and for him self. Meth is a selfish drug it would share him with any one.
I have learnt in this 6 year battle to steep back and support him .BUT i have also lernt not to put up with any crap from him no lies no sneaking around.
He has been brutally honest with me and ithat is easy for other one of us.
I never thought i could trust or forgive him but i have.He has proven to be a very strong man .It also helped him doing research on meth i hit home when he found out what a meth brain looked like.
my first post hear was about the dreams he was haveing about meth and waking up with the taste in his mouth ((( that was a big trigger for him)))
and by what you wrote that is something that happens.
no one elece on this board had ever heard of it before SOO I'M GLAD YOU MENTIONED THAT!!!
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
how can i find out what the brain of a meth addict looks like as compared to a normal brain it is something that i would like to see
go to ask jeeves,,, click on pictures,,, then type in meth user,,, then click on the man with the tore up arm
It's shooking so brace your self!!!
It took a cuple days for my hubby to get over it
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
It's shooking so brace your self!!!
It took a cuple days for my hubby to get over it
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
did you fined it?
i'm not shure how tp post the link
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
i'm not shure how tp post the link
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
monny--------thank you much , yes I did find it and omg some of the pictures I wish that all of this information would have been available before i first tried using.How are things with you ??I hope that all is well
deebee,
I'm glade you found it when my hubby saw that brain he had to deal with the fact that he was actually brain damaged. Things are wonderful with my family ;) It has been a lot of help hearing from you the last few days
you are the 1st person that i'v talked to who has gotten off meth for such a long time. I was starting to think it was hopeless ((you have given me new hope))
Maby those awful pictures can help you with your recovery??
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
I'm glade you found it when my hubby saw that brain he had to deal with the fact that he was actually brain damaged. Things are wonderful with my family ;) It has been a lot of help hearing from you the last few days
you are the 1st person that i'v talked to who has gotten off meth for such a long time. I was starting to think it was hopeless ((you have given me new hope))
Maby those awful pictures can help you with your recovery??
monny
xoxoxoxoxoxo
monny------------yes those pictures are helping me ....not only in my recovery but in dealing with my g/f who says that she is now ready to enter a program to get help(i won't believe her til she does it)today is day 323 and counting i thank you for all of your support
oh and by the way monny i want to thank you for your support..........323 days today
