today I woke up and I have decided it's time to "take back my life!" For the past 1.5 to 2 years I have been eating percocets, oxys, vics anything I can get my hands on. Not for pain , but for pleasure. It started out for pain, but I never stopped once I started. I was up to 100mg to 150mg a day. I don't know how things got this bad.
I do know that I want to stop and that I need help. It has been 18hrs now since I have put anything in my system and already i am feelin lousy. I know that the road ahead is not going to easy. Subconsciously, I am expecting to fail at this. I know that is not the right attitude to have, but I don't think I can do this "cold turkey." All day today I have been on the computer looking up info on this "addiction." I am prepared to get professional help if this doesn't work.
I'm not looking for sympathy, jsut someone to talk to.
Looking forward to hearing from anyone who wants to talk.
It's only been 30 hours for me, so I know how you feel. I have gone 5 days with nothing before, then I got handed some by my mother in law and bam, they were gone. Take vitamins, drink water, get some immodium, and take hot baths,...that's all I know what to do which is more than I did the first time I tried. Good luck.
Stacey
Stacey
Hi,
I tried it my way for years, never worked. I tried it my way along with going to A.A., but worked it my way, you guessed it, didn't work. I put a little time together, had a couple years, but I wasn't really happy, and eventually picked up. Now, I'm an alcoholic and addict, so for me I picked up whatever was available. Pills was one of my addictions, or I should say is one of my addictions. Today, I'm happy. A.A. and God ( for me ) does what I could never do for myself. Surrendering = winning, and accepting what I am gives me peace of mind I've never had before.
Heres one for the books...About two hours ago, theres a knock on my door. It's the guy that used to deliver food for a pizza place we order from now and then. I haven't seen this guy probably since last spring at least. Well, he must have remembered a conversation I guess we had about taking pills. Today he decides to knock at my door and ask if I wanted some percs. lol Now they say, there will come a time when nothing stands between you and a drink/drug except a God of your understanding. Well that time came two hours ago. I just said, thanks for stopping by, but I got clean/sober a few months ago and am not intrested. For me, that was God, because if I had anything to do with that I'd be high right now. If you have the willingness to go to any and all lengths then you can do it. Now for me, tonight at my homegroup, I'll share about it, this way I'm not keeping it from anyone. If I try to hide what happened, that could be this disease sneaking in the back door for me. But I feel good, I did the right thing, and I'm clean and sober.
My suggestion to you would be to seek out a few meetings and give recovery an honest effort, why do it your way and chance picking up again?
For me, I know I have another drunk/high in me, but I don't know if I'll make it back again, I do not wanna test it. I'd rather have a day clean/sober then be trying to get one. For me, it's easier to stay clean and sober then to get clean and sober.
Take care............Bob
I tried it my way for years, never worked. I tried it my way along with going to A.A., but worked it my way, you guessed it, didn't work. I put a little time together, had a couple years, but I wasn't really happy, and eventually picked up. Now, I'm an alcoholic and addict, so for me I picked up whatever was available. Pills was one of my addictions, or I should say is one of my addictions. Today, I'm happy. A.A. and God ( for me ) does what I could never do for myself. Surrendering = winning, and accepting what I am gives me peace of mind I've never had before.
Heres one for the books...About two hours ago, theres a knock on my door. It's the guy that used to deliver food for a pizza place we order from now and then. I haven't seen this guy probably since last spring at least. Well, he must have remembered a conversation I guess we had about taking pills. Today he decides to knock at my door and ask if I wanted some percs. lol Now they say, there will come a time when nothing stands between you and a drink/drug except a God of your understanding. Well that time came two hours ago. I just said, thanks for stopping by, but I got clean/sober a few months ago and am not intrested. For me, that was God, because if I had anything to do with that I'd be high right now. If you have the willingness to go to any and all lengths then you can do it. Now for me, tonight at my homegroup, I'll share about it, this way I'm not keeping it from anyone. If I try to hide what happened, that could be this disease sneaking in the back door for me. But I feel good, I did the right thing, and I'm clean and sober.
My suggestion to you would be to seek out a few meetings and give recovery an honest effort, why do it your way and chance picking up again?
For me, I know I have another drunk/high in me, but I don't know if I'll make it back again, I do not wanna test it. I'd rather have a day clean/sober then be trying to get one. For me, it's easier to stay clean and sober then to get clean and sober.
Take care............Bob
Hey Irish
welcome, I used percocet daily for 25 years, when I took my life back it was the best thing I ever did........it take's a few days of feeling like you have a bad flu....but you can do it!! keep posting
prayers..Dottie
welcome, I used percocet daily for 25 years, when I took my life back it was the best thing I ever did........it take's a few days of feeling like you have a bad flu....but you can do it!! keep posting
prayers..Dottie
