This is not working...within one week I have lost my resolve...partly due to the stress of Tony's surgery and partly due to having more work to do, and pain. I cannot wait to go to detox. March cannot come fast enough. Tony should be able to handle the pets and daily chores(shopping, etc.) to spare me by then. I know if I had to I could do it...but it will be easier for me to just cut off all sources and related pain issuesMy Dr. thinks it is a waste of my time...he says it is a matter of time before I am suffering. He also thinks sub is a waste of time since pain, not abuse(this time) is the major concern. He would rather have me on prednisone than sub. For motivation I m going to join the gym near me so I can start swimming again. It is great for pain..especialy back and legs. No one agrees with my decision to go except the board members...I want to do this for me...NO ONE but me. BTW...I talked to Dottie...she went off the sub and wellll...that's all I can say. Her husband is not well and she is stressed...can't wait to get back online. She sounds great though. Her health is improving since the stroke and I think she has a better team of Drs. now. # straight days of work and ARRRGH!!! I am sore, mean, and grouchy. Just wanted you all to know I haven't given up but realize the difficulty in this. S
Sharonn, If you get a chance could you e-mail me at smittyx03@aol.com. Shantel
