Teresa

Good Friday to you! I saw you post this morning and wanted to say hello. Doing anything special this weekend? I still have Easter baskets to make up for the kids. I always wait until the last minute for everything. Thank goodness for Walgreen's,LOL
Anyway just wanted to say hi and ask how you have been? Take care! Rae
hi..
I have had a really rough week .. busy at work and car troubles but no worries... Makes life interesting right?.... keeps me out of trouble... I got a new dog yesterday and my kid is loving it so far... so that is gonna take up my weekend... trying to make nice with 'oscar'.. his old owner had to find a home for him... sooo.... anyhoot... thanks for the 'hello'... and hi to you too...

teresa
What kind of dog is it? My girlfriend has 2 cats and she offered to take another friends cat. Well this cat held her hostage,LOL literally, she had to lock it in a room because it was hissing and trying to jump on her... Her friend is coming to get it today but she still can't get into her spare bedroom because of it..
I like dogs. I was raised with Great Danes and had a boxer for a while a little over a year ago! Anyway I bet your daughter will have a blast with it. Sorry to hear about the car troubles. That always sucks. My check engine light is on in my car right now. I have to get it looked at soon. Rae
Teresa:

I enjoyed your post this morning. You sound really good. Whatever you are doing is working, I can read it in your writings .

Rachel


ditto Rachel
rae,
it is a dacshund... 'weiner' dog... a friend of my daughters stepmom has a dog that started attacking this dog so she had to find a place for this one... he seems like a nice dog but he isnt really happy about being away from his 'home' .. he seems sad... I am hopeful that he will adjust... right now my daughter is jealous that the dog is sticking to me like velcro thinking that i will take him 'home'... but... things should mellow out by Monday I hope...

thank you rachael.....

Teresa.
ty tmom....

btw.... I saw your other post... the stats on relapse are staggering... and though I know that that might not be too comforting right now... relapse can be benificial in that if it teaches us something and we make it back to recovery and share our experience with others maybe helping someone not make that same mistake, esp ourselves... then it wasnt a total lose.... But as others have said shame and guilt have no place... it only keeps you down and slows any progress...I know that is easier said than done but it is true.... I remember my relaspe...I went to a meeting an told of my shame and felt sooo bad... i physically hurt... it was like I wanted the words "the shame on you" "the how could you..." ( I am sorta like that ...) but all I got was many hugs and 'well did you learn anything?" and 'youll do better this time"... the hugs were nice and the words were too... it didnt take away all the pain but it sure helped....

so consider this a warm ((((((((HUG))))))))) and pick up and try again... you will get it... relapse can really be a good thing... you showed great strength in your honesty... that is growth in itself....

Teresa
Hi Teresa;

This is long overdue, but thanks again for your support and advice several weeks ago when I was down and out about my relapse and the trust I had harmed between my wife and myself. Your words were right on - time is indeed the great healer. Things are getting better a day at a time...most days I continue to have an irrepressible feeling of hope and optimism, and so life is good today for this addict.

Hope you too have a great day!

Jim
jim.
I am happy to hear... Just keep up your end and God will do the rest... I promise.. things do work out the way they are supposed to .... we may not always know what that is or agree but... then again we dont know the big picture... we just have to wait for the miracles....

God Bless and happy Easter..
Teresa


Teresa, Thanks much! Perhaps I played up my guilt and shame too much. I feel bad about, I do. BUT, I am aware that it could have been worse, and I am kinda pleased that I stopped it before it got out of hand. And, since it was my first sincere try at getting cleanafter an 8 year run, and I lasted 4 months+, I am not going to get all down about it. I know what I need to do and am doing it.

I have learned a lot from it. Things that I already knew, but have now seen proof of, so to speak. There is some good that has come of it, and for that I am grateful. Thanks again, I appreciate your input. : )
i didnt mean to imply that you played up your guilt or shame at all... I dont think that... in fact I sat on my pitty pot for quite awhile....lol.... it became annoying even to me... no... you are very right.. some people dont make it back and some make it back only after months of using and a string of bad consequences... thankfully that didnt happen in your case....

I hope you didnt take what I said wrong ...I was trying to be sincere and supportive...

Teresa


NO NO you didn't say anything wrong. Not at all. I just meant....everyone is saying "don't beat yourself up", "don't feel guilty".....and I was just saying I'm OK. I don;t feel THAT guilty. I screwed up, it happens, I am over it. Move forward from here. Don;t dwell on the bad stuff.

Really, sorry if I sounded like it was somethings towards you......it wasn't at all. Have a good one!
carol,

you have such a happy healthy outlook on all this. you are one cool chica and a supreme example. i couldnt be more proud of you for that : )

terrianne