thank you everyone for all the kind words and support. sorry i was not able to respond earlier but am having lots of health issues today. lately a dark cloud just seems to hang over me. spent most of the day on the couch barely conscious, wasn't able to get level accustomed to so very sick.
i wrote down several numbers i got and will call as soon as possible. having phone probs right now.
tried to take earlier advice and went to hosp, they told me that basically no one ever died from w.d's and live with it. that i did this to my self ect. really boosted my confidence. NOT.
i am really sorry to sound like a whiner, lately though every thing just seems so pointless. everyday i am going to have to go through the same hell. feels like i am trapped in a cold dark freezer with nothing there, but it is better than the night before i posted. will be sending e mails to those who left address. thanks for giving them. tommorow will try to call # devongreb left on site. i also appreciate the prayer. strangely things were not as dark today hope to hear from you all again chris.
Dear Chris,
Thanks for your response. I was having trouble going to bed because I was worried about you. I will rest better knowing you are okay and trying to get some help. It's out there! Remember, my son has 260 days heroin free. Oxycontin is the drug that got him on the heroin. Oh, how I hate it and what it has put our family through! I'm sorry about what happened at the hospital. Hopefully things will go better tomorrow or Monday. HANG IN THERE! You're NOT alone and you're DEFINITELY worth it! We'll help in any way we can!
If you tell me what state you're in or country if not the US, I can try to find more info. :) If you want to see who you're talking to, I posted my family's picture on the Families forum under the topic "Let's See Those Beautiful Faces". My son who is in recovery is the one in the middle in the front with a red cap on. He looks much better now! The picture was taken before rehab.
Love,
Susan
Thanks for your response. I was having trouble going to bed because I was worried about you. I will rest better knowing you are okay and trying to get some help. It's out there! Remember, my son has 260 days heroin free. Oxycontin is the drug that got him on the heroin. Oh, how I hate it and what it has put our family through! I'm sorry about what happened at the hospital. Hopefully things will go better tomorrow or Monday. HANG IN THERE! You're NOT alone and you're DEFINITELY worth it! We'll help in any way we can!
If you tell me what state you're in or country if not the US, I can try to find more info. :) If you want to see who you're talking to, I posted my family's picture on the Families forum under the topic "Let's See Those Beautiful Faces". My son who is in recovery is the one in the middle in the front with a red cap on. He looks much better now! The picture was taken before rehab.
Love,
Susan
Dear Jack:
I am so sorry but I promise it will get better - how many days do you have? My 5th day was pretty good and by the 7th day, I knew I would be okay - just still not a lot of energy. Some worked jobs through W/D's - I don't have a clue how they did it. I took 7 days and did nothing but concentrate about getting off Lortabs. My house was a mess.
I really thought I would die the 1st time I tried to quit in my 30's and went to hospital, too. The hospita doctor told me I needed Rehab. I did go in my 30's and got clean.
I was dumb enogh to get hooked again in my 40's. I just didn't want to leave my home this time. I am a homebody.
I used all of the stuff on Rae's post of OTC meds and they helped. I took 2 bubble baths a day. I stayed very close to the BR - also I read this board a lot. If I had a question, I would ask and get many responses. Just reading helped so much.
It gave me hope that most of these people had clean time, some had lots of clean time.
I had done this before but I was older this time and it seemed harder emotionally.
I even went through depression a couple of weeks after I quit. I felt like the world was coming to an end.
It's been 4 1/2 months now and I feel normal - well, as normal as people do. I have lots of good days and some bad days just like everyone. I know we are recovering addicts but I know that I'm a person first and all people have bad days.
I got so used to only having good days with the Lortabs until they stopped working for me an then I remembered that I had bad days, sometimes weeks before I was an addict.
Hope I have helped.
Tell me if I can help in any way.
Love, Jean
I am so sorry but I promise it will get better - how many days do you have? My 5th day was pretty good and by the 7th day, I knew I would be okay - just still not a lot of energy. Some worked jobs through W/D's - I don't have a clue how they did it. I took 7 days and did nothing but concentrate about getting off Lortabs. My house was a mess.
I really thought I would die the 1st time I tried to quit in my 30's and went to hospital, too. The hospita doctor told me I needed Rehab. I did go in my 30's and got clean.
I was dumb enogh to get hooked again in my 40's. I just didn't want to leave my home this time. I am a homebody.
I used all of the stuff on Rae's post of OTC meds and they helped. I took 2 bubble baths a day. I stayed very close to the BR - also I read this board a lot. If I had a question, I would ask and get many responses. Just reading helped so much.
It gave me hope that most of these people had clean time, some had lots of clean time.
I had done this before but I was older this time and it seemed harder emotionally.
I even went through depression a couple of weeks after I quit. I felt like the world was coming to an end.
It's been 4 1/2 months now and I feel normal - well, as normal as people do. I have lots of good days and some bad days just like everyone. I know we are recovering addicts but I know that I'm a person first and all people have bad days.
I got so used to only having good days with the Lortabs until they stopped working for me an then I remembered that I had bad days, sometimes weeks before I was an addict.
Hope I have helped.
Tell me if I can help in any way.
Love, Jean
devangreb 2
thank you especially for your help. the night i first posted i was at my wits end and you kind of saved me. I have no family and was going to end it at that moment before i read your reply that night. you will never know what that did for me. thank you for all the sites you left am looking them over and will let you knwo how it goes tommorow.
thank you especially for your help. the night i first posted i was at my wits end and you kind of saved me. I have no family and was going to end it at that moment before i read your reply that night. you will never know what that did for me. thank you for all the sites you left am looking them over and will let you knwo how it goes tommorow.
Dear Chris,
Thank God we connected that night! Every day will get a little better. Here's a picture of my son in July....drug-free!
He has gained some of his weight back, he's sleeping well again (that took some time!), and his energy level is improving. YOU CAN GET YOUR LIFE BACK TOO!
We are your new adopted family and we are here for you! Please be assured that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep in touch!
(If you tell me what state you're in, I will try to find more information for you.)
Love,
Susan
Thank God we connected that night! Every day will get a little better. Here's a picture of my son in July....drug-free!
He has gained some of his weight back, he's sleeping well again (that took some time!), and his energy level is improving. YOU CAN GET YOUR LIFE BACK TOO!
We are your new adopted family and we are here for you! Please be assured that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep in touch!
(If you tell me what state you're in, I will try to find more information for you.)
Love,
Susan
dear susan i just wanted to tell you i think you are an awsome mother and your son is very lucky and blessed to have you in his life,chris i have been were your at many times and i promise you that dark cloud of despair will disappear in a matter of time,just grab onto that thought and draw strength from it,the better days are right around the corner,well now i have to get ready to pass out the candy for trick or treat,i hope the little s***s are going to be happy with bubble gum,can't afford the snicker bars this year[lol]...............vinny.
Dear Vinny,
Thanks so much for the kind words. I haven't always liked my son through all of this, but I have always loved him with all my heart...nothing will change that!
It was so nice of you to post such encouraging words for Chris. It means so much when the words come from someone who has experienced the same. That's the blessing of this board!
You've come so far, Vinny! Keep up the good work! I'm proud of you!
Love,
Susan
Thanks so much for the kind words. I haven't always liked my son through all of this, but I have always loved him with all my heart...nothing will change that!
It was so nice of you to post such encouraging words for Chris. It means so much when the words come from someone who has experienced the same. That's the blessing of this board!
You've come so far, Vinny! Keep up the good work! I'm proud of you!
Love,
Susan
Dear Susan:
That is such a true statement - "always love but not always like"
no matter what - they deserve unconditional love from us.
I'm sure you have that for more than your children and they know it.
I am so happy that he's doing so well now.
It gives others hope.
Love, Jean
That is such a true statement - "always love but not always like"
no matter what - they deserve unconditional love from us.
I'm sure you have that for more than your children and they know it.
I am so happy that he's doing so well now.
It gives others hope.
Love, Jean
Dear Jean,
Thanks for the kind words. I am grateful for every day that my son is safe, but please keep the prayers coming. Nothing is certain with addiction!
Love,
Susan
Thanks for the kind words. I am grateful for every day that my son is safe, but please keep the prayers coming. Nothing is certain with addiction!
Love,
Susan
Hi, Chris!
Just a little note to let you know that I'm thinking of you and hoping that this day was better than the day before. I said some special prayers for you today at Mass and will continue to do so. God bless!
Love,
Susan
Just a little note to let you know that I'm thinking of you and hoping that this day was better than the day before. I said some special prayers for you today at Mass and will continue to do so. God bless!
Love,
Susan
Susan, I just wanted to say hi and tell you how wonderful your son looks. I remember that day when you first posted..that desperation. If every addict had a mom like you, they might stand a chance.
Chris....the hospital is right, you won't die from w/d's but you probably feel like you want too. It will get better. But if you go back and use, you will have to start this hell all over again. Think about that long and hard if you start questioning yourself.
The dark freezing hole that you feel is normal (whatever normal is) but you're not alone. Most of us have been there and know what you feel like. We can help but this board isn't enough. You've got to get some face to face support. Someone you can talk to when it gets really rough. The worst of it will be over at about 7-10 days. After that your head will clear and the day's will look a whole lot brighter and doable.
Hang in there.
cowgirl
Chris....the hospital is right, you won't die from w/d's but you probably feel like you want too. It will get better. But if you go back and use, you will have to start this hell all over again. Think about that long and hard if you start questioning yourself.
The dark freezing hole that you feel is normal (whatever normal is) but you're not alone. Most of us have been there and know what you feel like. We can help but this board isn't enough. You've got to get some face to face support. Someone you can talk to when it gets really rough. The worst of it will be over at about 7-10 days. After that your head will clear and the day's will look a whole lot brighter and doable.
Hang in there.
cowgirl
Dear Cowgirl,
The day I found out my son was addicted to drugs I felt like all my breath was sucked out of me. I was in shock! I was scared to death! You all helped me to understand that addiction happens to a LOT of nice and caring people. You helped me to understand what he was feeling and why he was doing what he was doing. You helped me to know what to do to help him. We were WAY too trusting in the beginning because we believed him when he said he had stopped and we started to help him financially....probably to help him buy his drugs! We've made our share of mistakes but thankfully the result has been good! He may have succeeded in manipulating us some but everything we did, we did out of love and concern for him. All we can say is that we did OUR best. We appreciate, more than our words can express, how much you all helped us deal with the worst trauma our family has experienced. Thanks so much for the kind words.
Love,
Susan
The day I found out my son was addicted to drugs I felt like all my breath was sucked out of me. I was in shock! I was scared to death! You all helped me to understand that addiction happens to a LOT of nice and caring people. You helped me to understand what he was feeling and why he was doing what he was doing. You helped me to know what to do to help him. We were WAY too trusting in the beginning because we believed him when he said he had stopped and we started to help him financially....probably to help him buy his drugs! We've made our share of mistakes but thankfully the result has been good! He may have succeeded in manipulating us some but everything we did, we did out of love and concern for him. All we can say is that we did OUR best. We appreciate, more than our words can express, how much you all helped us deal with the worst trauma our family has experienced. Thanks so much for the kind words.
Love,
Susan
Dear Chris,
I stopped by to check on you before going up to bed. I will say some prayers for you before I fall asleep. God bless!
Love,
Susan
I stopped by to check on you before going up to bed. I will say some prayers for you before I fall asleep. God bless!
Love,
Susan
Chris
I know you have been comeing on here this late and im not long off to bed .I got your email and I have responded so dont froget to check it.i.And email me back //// will be back on tomm.Good night hope u feel better. crystal
I know you have been comeing on here this late and im not long off to bed .I got your email and I have responded so dont froget to check it.i.And email me back //// will be back on tomm.Good night hope u feel better. crystal
Hi Chris;
Stay strong, and stay focused one day at a time. You will get thru this!
Hi Susan;
I'm really glad all is going well for you and your son! That is such good news!
Jim
Stay strong, and stay focused one day at a time. You will get thru this!
Hi Susan;
I'm really glad all is going well for you and your son! That is such good news!
Jim
Hey, Jim!
How are you doing? It's great to see you posting again! You helped so much to bring my son to where he is. :)
Love,
Susan
How are you doing? It's great to see you posting again! You helped so much to bring my son to where he is. :)
Love,
Susan
Crystal:
My prayers will keep coming. I did not take my 1st Lortab 'til I was 36 so I still worry about my sons - 23 and 31 - I really thought just young people got hooked until I did. I worry b/c I know it's hereditary.
I'm sure your son knows how lucky he is to be clean and to have you to help him.
I know we would do anything for our children,
Love, Jean
My prayers will keep coming. I did not take my 1st Lortab 'til I was 36 so I still worry about my sons - 23 and 31 - I really thought just young people got hooked until I did. I worry b/c I know it's hereditary.
I'm sure your son knows how lucky he is to be clean and to have you to help him.
I know we would do anything for our children,
Love, Jean
Hi Susan;
Good to see you! You give me too much credit - your son is the one who deserves the kudos. Ultimately it is he who had to take the steps and do the work. I'm glad he's doing so well - and if anyone deserves to pat themself on the back it's you! What a gift!
I'm doing okay myself. It's all about recovery for me...one day at a time. I have amends up the ying yang to make to my wife. Some days are better than others quite honestly. We do counseling together, as well as alone, and it gets pretty "real" if you know what I mean. I've done so much damage to the trust in our relationship. And the old me was all about the "quick fix". No more. I'm finally confronting some old issues that are the root cause of my self-destructive behaviors, and realizing that it is going to take time. So between the counseling and my "recovery network" I'm managing to live each day to the best of my ability. I pray more than ever, and find peace in the simple things.
Jim
Good to see you! You give me too much credit - your son is the one who deserves the kudos. Ultimately it is he who had to take the steps and do the work. I'm glad he's doing so well - and if anyone deserves to pat themself on the back it's you! What a gift!
I'm doing okay myself. It's all about recovery for me...one day at a time. I have amends up the ying yang to make to my wife. Some days are better than others quite honestly. We do counseling together, as well as alone, and it gets pretty "real" if you know what I mean. I've done so much damage to the trust in our relationship. And the old me was all about the "quick fix". No more. I'm finally confronting some old issues that are the root cause of my self-destructive behaviors, and realizing that it is going to take time. So between the counseling and my "recovery network" I'm managing to live each day to the best of my ability. I pray more than ever, and find peace in the simple things.
Jim
Dear Jim,
It really sounds like you're going about things the RIGHT way this time! I'm so proud of you! I don't think the quick fixes were good for you or her. Working through the pain is much less destructive than burying it! Bless your heart, I know it's got to be tough, but the healing that will come about from it will be priceless! I will keep you in my prayers and you and your wife work through all of this. God bless!
Love,
Susan
It really sounds like you're going about things the RIGHT way this time! I'm so proud of you! I don't think the quick fixes were good for you or her. Working through the pain is much less destructive than burying it! Bless your heart, I know it's got to be tough, but the healing that will come about from it will be priceless! I will keep you in my prayers and you and your wife work through all of this. God bless!
Love,
Susan
Hi, Chris
Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and hoping you're doing better each day! My prayers are with you!
Love,
Susan
Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and hoping you're doing better each day! My prayers are with you!
Love,
Susan
