Hiya all,i`d just like to say a big thank you to all of you that have posted to me,regarding my subutex v`s df 118`s question.
I really do appreciate & value all your views & input,i`ve seriously had enough of it!!!I`m hopeing to self refer myself to my local cdt,tomorrow,i`ve spoken to them on the phone & they prefer you to do it that way,so thats my intention!!!
I`ve already got some some 8ml,subutex it`s just the having to wait for the withdrawls to kick in,that to be honest i`m dreading,but,i`ve been there before a few times,but that time i had,sweet fxxk all to help me deal with the syptoms,just banged up in a cell,& left to my own devices to get on & deal with it,also i`ve got loads of very serious family problems going on,not relateing to the gear,as they don`t know i`m back on it,my partner knows & kept it hidden from me,until we were away on holiday,& i only found out then,because i`d gone abroad to do a rattle,& was into it,when we went for something to eat with the kids,& whilst she was away,sorting the pool table out & when the food came,i opened her purse to find used foil,tube & some gear in it,i thought & said to her have you brought this for me,yes was the reply,then back at the hotel whilst i was in the loo,doin the do,she said your not doin it all are you,so i asked her if she was on it,& my heart sank & broke when she said yes.I`ve financed her habit since 05,& she only has say 12 lines,every 24 hrs,but won`t asisst me,when i try to come off,by at least attempting to come off herself,i know she has to want it herself,but puts me on a guilt trip,when i say i`m not buying anymore,also i`m in trouble with the dhss,which i`ve to go 4 an interview with,i`m bang to rights with them,so thats another serious worry i have to contend with,it`s not easy being me at the minute,TRUST ME!!!I`ll keep you up2 date the upcoming events,but again thanks for all your words of advice & wisedom!!!
Want off,
Your definately heading in the right direction and maybe if you get clean it will be the insentive that your partner needs to get herself sorted out although I can imagine it being very difficult to stop using when she is still using. Have you tried talking to her so you can both get clean together? I also understand that she will only do this when she is ready. What about rehab? Then you can get yourself sorted and the temptation wont be around you as much?
Its kind of difficult when one of you wants to get clean and the other is still using because it is very hard to stop using heroin as it is but when the one you love is going to continue to use it under your nose then to me that is going to be too much temptation for you??
Your definately in the right place for advice though and thats what we are here for...each and everyone of us has a different story and have experienced something to do with heroin and its addiction/withdrawels etc. I personally have never used heroin but am living with a heroin addict and he is constantly trying to get himself clean. I am sick of hearing the same thing over and over that he is going to get himself sorted out then when the times comes, its one more and then just one more. I will come to the ed of my tether when enough is enough and I will walk away. I have a choice and when the time comes I will make the right decision for me and my daughter because heroin is not the life that I choose and if my partner cant change that then I am dam sure I will.
Anyway you sound such a strong person and if you can do this in jail cold turkey then I have every faith in you that you can do this out of jail I just hope you can be strong when temptation kicks in and maybe your girlfriend will decide to give up with you.
I wish you all the luck and remember were always here when needed..anytime.
Thanks for your thanks..Lynds xx
Your definately heading in the right direction and maybe if you get clean it will be the insentive that your partner needs to get herself sorted out although I can imagine it being very difficult to stop using when she is still using. Have you tried talking to her so you can both get clean together? I also understand that she will only do this when she is ready. What about rehab? Then you can get yourself sorted and the temptation wont be around you as much?
Its kind of difficult when one of you wants to get clean and the other is still using because it is very hard to stop using heroin as it is but when the one you love is going to continue to use it under your nose then to me that is going to be too much temptation for you??
Your definately in the right place for advice though and thats what we are here for...each and everyone of us has a different story and have experienced something to do with heroin and its addiction/withdrawels etc. I personally have never used heroin but am living with a heroin addict and he is constantly trying to get himself clean. I am sick of hearing the same thing over and over that he is going to get himself sorted out then when the times comes, its one more and then just one more. I will come to the ed of my tether when enough is enough and I will walk away. I have a choice and when the time comes I will make the right decision for me and my daughter because heroin is not the life that I choose and if my partner cant change that then I am dam sure I will.
Anyway you sound such a strong person and if you can do this in jail cold turkey then I have every faith in you that you can do this out of jail I just hope you can be strong when temptation kicks in and maybe your girlfriend will decide to give up with you.
I wish you all the luck and remember were always here when needed..anytime.
Thanks for your thanks..Lynds xx
Oh Off..........nothing like kicking on a semi vaca with the kids.....and miraculously your mate happens to have some........sure she brought it for you, and HER.........I think we all been in that spot.
You got the right idea and good thinking, but she's gonna do what she wants. That to me is the toughest thing ever.........trying to kick and stay kicked when your significant other is using as well.
Not easy being you is right.........but ya got the right mindset.......you stay tough..........worry about you.......your quitting....right now it's the only way I think.....just my opinion though.
You got the right idea and good thinking, but she's gonna do what she wants. That to me is the toughest thing ever.........trying to kick and stay kicked when your significant other is using as well.
Not easy being you is right.........but ya got the right mindset.......you stay tough..........worry about you.......your quitting....right now it's the only way I think.....just my opinion though.
