Hi everyone thanks for your kind words and support you have been giving me on this site. Well its 9am in scotland and thats my first week went without heroin. Im still attending the hospital everyday in the afternoon to get my subutex. Oh thank thank god for subutex. I feel so overwhelmed today that I can finally say the scarest week of my life has passed and i did it without running back to drugs. I went to the hospital yesterday and spoke with a drug worker as i dont know what to do now. Do i start attending meetings? The hospital has told me not to join group meetings just yet as it could be dangerous for me with other addicts just now. I do feel quite vunreable just now there is a big gap in my life and i dont know how to fill it. I sat one to one with a drug worker yesterday for the first time, I had to fill her in on what i was doing for 5 years as it was the first i had met her. I strongly recommend this to anyone out there. Ear Acupuncture. Ive no experience in anything like that but yesterday i got it from my worker. It really relaxed me honestly it helped with my withdrawls as i felt calm in myself leaving the hospital. Its mad me saying my wee tip to yous as if someone offered me acupuntcure last weekend i properly would have hit them(ha ha). The mind is a powerful thing isnt it?
Anyway if it is available to you then i would recommend you try it, I slept better last night too. Im still dreaming about heroin quite a lot and when im wakening up i feel really down as im really annoyed with myself as in my dreams im running around getting heroin. Why? does anyone know if this is normal and will i eventually stop dreaming so much about it. I wake up everynight with cold sweats and i have to change my bed and clothes as im soaking wet. Are these withdrawls?. Cheers for listening again.
Your all in my thoughts we are all human beings and no one deserves to be so unhappy in life that we cant see a way forward. Thats what it was like for me i really really thought i wouldnt get away from gear not from lack of wanting to or lack of trying cause i did but nearer the end i had totally burnt my body out and without heroin i just couldnt function, it totally floored me not having it in my system. I just found out about subutex a few weeks ago even my doctor does not know much about it so he would not prescribe it. I think if you are thinking about going on methadone cause thats all i got offered but I didnt want another addiction because I am an addict and it never done me any good in the past it made me depressed , so if you have a choice please try the subutex first. Were i stay we have a high percentage of drug users but subutex is not know its methadone.
Please Take Care Everyone
And Thanks For All Your Kind Words it means so much.
Keep Your Chin Up
Yvonne
Hey, Yvonne..........I'm Brynn obviously.....LOL....I haven't been on in a long time........that accupuncture.........how cool is that.......I have heard it really truly helps with withdrawl.......unfortunately people in the US don't consider Eastern Medicine as actual help.........that is great you got that.....I want to go even though I got like two years and a half almost, but it cost $$$$$$$$..whew.
Good for you and congrats on one heck of a really brave thing you did...now ya just keep going......just do like you are doing.......it is weird how we can't figure what to do with ourselves at first.......our drug took up so much time, energy, and every waking minute revolved around it.
HAHAHA........that was funny you'd have punched someone telling ya to get accupuncture last week........I hear ya.........when I was in withdrawls the insomnia was my worse part, and my friend is a dug worker.....she tells me I need L-tryptothan...........like in turkey and milk........well I was the turkey sandwich Queen.......drinking all this milk.........nada......I wanted to kick her butt...............LOL.............oh I was flipping out.....LOL......I was like ya mean I need to eat twenty whole freaking turkeys.
One thing might help a little bit.......I walked...and walked, and walked.......just anywhere.......miles.........if I felt like using I went and walked.....it helped me for some reason.......so ya might want to try that when your mind goes wacky.
Congrats on your sober life...........hang tough there.
Good for you and congrats on one heck of a really brave thing you did...now ya just keep going......just do like you are doing.......it is weird how we can't figure what to do with ourselves at first.......our drug took up so much time, energy, and every waking minute revolved around it.
HAHAHA........that was funny you'd have punched someone telling ya to get accupuncture last week........I hear ya.........when I was in withdrawls the insomnia was my worse part, and my friend is a dug worker.....she tells me I need L-tryptothan...........like in turkey and milk........well I was the turkey sandwich Queen.......drinking all this milk.........nada......I wanted to kick her butt...............LOL.............oh I was flipping out.....LOL......I was like ya mean I need to eat twenty whole freaking turkeys.
One thing might help a little bit.......I walked...and walked, and walked.......just anywhere.......miles.........if I felt like using I went and walked.....it helped me for some reason.......so ya might want to try that when your mind goes wacky.
Congrats on your sober life...........hang tough there.
Thanks brynn for your walking tip, Ive been told walking does help but I had major surgery last year on my right fool and it causes me severe pain when im standing on it, but a slow walk might do the trick. I was laughing to myself about your milk and turkey. How long had you been using, if you dont mind me asking? It was 5 years for me. The acupunture was great it was so relaxing and really helped with withdrawls. I got it free cause im living in scotland, it should be made available to anyone who needs it. Maybe you should come to scotland for a few months even if its only for acupunture. ha ha
Take Care......Hope to hear from you soon.....
Yvonne
Take Care......Hope to hear from you soon.....
Yvonne
Yvonne, you are doing great.......you really are....be proud.
I'm sorry about your foot......you don't want to reinjure it......maybe instead of the walking you could do yoga........now THAT rocks......it's usually dirt cheap, and often if you can't pay like the $10 for a class it is offered for free.....that way you don't have to use your foot....it's a gentle exercise, but awesome psychologically.........I was in a car accident while I was still using, and had broken my knee cap and a fracture in my femur......I hear ya about walking that way.......best part is the accident happened after I copped.....I actually got out of the car and tried to leave.......I had to do my dope....until I see well I can't walk......duh........the kicker was the lady pulled out in front of my friend (he never used in his life, but drove me)....this chick just pulls out on a major highway.............cause she nodded out.
You had to see the mad rush before the rescue and cops got there on both parts to hide the dope...............they kept me cause I needed an operation that night........I signed myself out...........is that nuts.........PLUS of course I kept asking for shots........LOL.......then they want a urine to see if I was pregnant.
I had a hysterectomy so i am all I don't need a urine.....I have no nada to get pregnant..............so then I think they want to check for opiates so I get my poor, poor friend to dump it..........he actually pushed me out of there in a wheelchair.
Crazy, crazy.............I think I was using like maybe seven years or maybe eight..........it goes by so fast until you realize don't it.........I can imagine how you were with your foot......that had to be wild.......take full advantage of all those great services you have there.....I doubt they want an immigrant from the US eating up their healthcare.......LOL.........oh we have that here.....not any good stuff like Yoga or accupuncture through social service, but still you'll have someone not even legal here, and they get all free stuff while like War Hero's are eating cat food cause they pay so much for med's....the elderly especially.
I feel so bad for them the poor old people.....I'm so glad that helped you, and congrats to you because you are brave, and doing awesome.....just keep going.
I kind of did it like that..........like I got past day 10 which usually I broke on.....and then day 21......another breaking point........then 9 months, and I had gone that far before, and picked up.........so I says just keep going one more day.......I did, and then one more......and voila I got two years and lmost six months..........you can do it too.........yes you can..........big hugs to ya, and hang tight, Sister........I hope your foot don't give you too much pain......even look online here like google yoga.....there's lots of sites, and easy poses.....and the breathing really helps the most........just breathe, babes...you're IN.
All good things for you.......full moon tonight I think.....might stir ya up...remember it's only planetary influence, and nothing more.....amino acids if you can afford them are good too.....they helped me tons.....just NOT
L-phenylalanine.........it's a mood enhancer.......made me flipping looney which is usual for me, but not like wired.......L-Lysine is great...you'll see your hair, skin, nails get so healthy........that's a good one too.
Yeah, turkey.........pfffffffffffffffff.............I was like COLD TURKEY.....LOL....I tell people the truth about withdrawl.......I say it sucks and you'll wish you were dead, but then it's all worth it...............my friend the counselor...the turkey sandwich chick she never used in her life.......like so what's she know....LOL.
She only deals with addicts she ain't one.....LOL.....hope to catch you soon.
Keep going..........you're doing this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry about your foot......you don't want to reinjure it......maybe instead of the walking you could do yoga........now THAT rocks......it's usually dirt cheap, and often if you can't pay like the $10 for a class it is offered for free.....that way you don't have to use your foot....it's a gentle exercise, but awesome psychologically.........I was in a car accident while I was still using, and had broken my knee cap and a fracture in my femur......I hear ya about walking that way.......best part is the accident happened after I copped.....I actually got out of the car and tried to leave.......I had to do my dope....until I see well I can't walk......duh........the kicker was the lady pulled out in front of my friend (he never used in his life, but drove me)....this chick just pulls out on a major highway.............cause she nodded out.
You had to see the mad rush before the rescue and cops got there on both parts to hide the dope...............they kept me cause I needed an operation that night........I signed myself out...........is that nuts.........PLUS of course I kept asking for shots........LOL.......then they want a urine to see if I was pregnant.
I had a hysterectomy so i am all I don't need a urine.....I have no nada to get pregnant..............so then I think they want to check for opiates so I get my poor, poor friend to dump it..........he actually pushed me out of there in a wheelchair.
Crazy, crazy.............I think I was using like maybe seven years or maybe eight..........it goes by so fast until you realize don't it.........I can imagine how you were with your foot......that had to be wild.......take full advantage of all those great services you have there.....I doubt they want an immigrant from the US eating up their healthcare.......LOL.........oh we have that here.....not any good stuff like Yoga or accupuncture through social service, but still you'll have someone not even legal here, and they get all free stuff while like War Hero's are eating cat food cause they pay so much for med's....the elderly especially.
I feel so bad for them the poor old people.....I'm so glad that helped you, and congrats to you because you are brave, and doing awesome.....just keep going.
I kind of did it like that..........like I got past day 10 which usually I broke on.....and then day 21......another breaking point........then 9 months, and I had gone that far before, and picked up.........so I says just keep going one more day.......I did, and then one more......and voila I got two years and lmost six months..........you can do it too.........yes you can..........big hugs to ya, and hang tight, Sister........I hope your foot don't give you too much pain......even look online here like google yoga.....there's lots of sites, and easy poses.....and the breathing really helps the most........just breathe, babes...you're IN.
All good things for you.......full moon tonight I think.....might stir ya up...remember it's only planetary influence, and nothing more.....amino acids if you can afford them are good too.....they helped me tons.....just NOT
L-phenylalanine.........it's a mood enhancer.......made me flipping looney which is usual for me, but not like wired.......L-Lysine is great...you'll see your hair, skin, nails get so healthy........that's a good one too.
Yeah, turkey.........pfffffffffffffffff.............I was like COLD TURKEY.....LOL....I tell people the truth about withdrawl.......I say it sucks and you'll wish you were dead, but then it's all worth it...............my friend the counselor...the turkey sandwich chick she never used in her life.......like so what's she know....LOL.
She only deals with addicts she ain't one.....LOL.....hope to catch you soon.
Keep going..........you're doing this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi there my name is sue could you please tell me how you started on your subs i have had to buy them off the street and i am stsarting them tommorrow could you give me any ideas on the best way to use them any advice welcome i also live in scotland edinburgh glad you are coping alright like i say any advice is welcome thanks take care sue xx
hey sue ive been getting from the hospital daily supervised subutex. The first day i had 8mg then 8mg the second day then 6mg the next day 6mg then 6mg today im down to 4mg then 2mg. Put them under your tounge to let them dissolve they are a terrible taste but ive only been on them 6days now and its the best thing ive ever done. I will keep you in my thoughs. Just take it one day at a time. For me now on day 6 is great drug free from heroin but im really emotial i think its suppressing all your feelings heroin and when you straight me personally the guilty i feel is unbeliavle towards my mum and daughter. Hope you do well and keep in touch and let me know how you get on
Love Yvonne
Love Yvonne
