Thanks to everyone who answered my earlier post. I'm dead set on de-toxing off meth. I feel chained to the clinic. From the way it sounds subs would be the way to go. But, here in my area theres only Five Doctors that can prescribe them. Not to mention that I'm working part time, so no health insurance. I believe that subs are fairly expensive too. I've been quietly bringing myself down little by little. When I went in the clinic I started on 80mg, I'm now on 45mg and next week I'm asking for another reduction. You can't tell them you want to quit or they try everything to talk you out of it. Every good client equals cash flow to them. So I play it off that I can't sleep and complain about constipation. I'm thinking the lower my dose is the easer it will be when I come all the way off.
But its scary too. Afraid that if I start felling bad I'll start with the "stinking thinking". And plus I'm doing really well in school (4.0 in my first quarter) that I don't want it affecting that. I just know I don't want to go back to the way things were before I got clean.
Aw well, just venting..........anyway thanks guys!
I detoxed from methadone my top dose was 130mg went down to 30mg then stoped going. It was CLEARLY real stupid to quit going at that dose. I was very ill for HONEST like 2 months. The clinic was totally against the way i detoxed. I was going down 5 to10mg EVERY week. My counslor adviced against it. She told me i'ld relasp. The clinic will try to keep you long as you'll let them. I had no car getting to the clinic was getting crazy. I was homeless. I could not get a place to live and pay for methadone. I had no option to just keep going. My counslor even tried getting me in a shelter. Anyway i'm glad that clinic is no longer part of my life. I wish i had went down slower. I was very close to scoring just to get over the withdraws.
From my experience i'ld say go slow do not rush it. Once your off things are better. My teeth quit hurting my body started working right !. It was HARD to kick. I'm glad it was there i'm glad i'm not on it anymore. YES it was totally scary and yes i started feeling real bad i only got thru that by getting a bunch of valuim. If done proper it is easier. There are still times now i wish i was still on methadone. I get cravings urges it would be nice to not get it's still scary.
From my experience i'ld say go slow do not rush it. Once your off things are better. My teeth quit hurting my body started working right !. It was HARD to kick. I'm glad it was there i'm glad i'm not on it anymore. YES it was totally scary and yes i started feeling real bad i only got thru that by getting a bunch of valuim. If done proper it is easier. There are still times now i wish i was still on methadone. I get cravings urges it would be nice to not get it's still scary.
Zekk...good luck to ya mate..its such a daunting prospect ..to be completly clean..i presume you have been on the clinic awhile....ive been on it 7yrs.and would love to be off it but in my heart know i need it also...it becomes a habit just like gear only legal...but it keeps me in check...but any thoughts of a detox for me are long off...so i really take my hat of to ya.Good luck and stay strong..........Davey
Good luck to you mate, but don't come off it in high doses or the rattles will be strong.... All the best, Kev
