The Anti-12 Steps

Heroin
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The Anti-12 Steps
(for the still active addict)

1. I declared that I had complete and total control over my drug use and that I can completely manage my life and still use drugs.

2. Came to know that I needed no one and that drugs would help me maintain my happiness and sanity

3. Made a decision to harness the benefits (as I understand them) of any substance I chose to use.

4.Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of all others.

5.Admitted to no one, including myself, any of my wrongs, no matter how evident.

6. I became entirely ready to defend, excuse, and justify my actions, using personal attacks on others (if necessary), and to minimize any mistake I may make.

7. Boldly declare that I have no shortcomings (while secretly believing that anything bad I ever did could not be forgiven).

8. Made a list of all persons that had (or that I thought had) harmed me and searched for opportunities to "collect" on those debts.

9. Collected whatever I felt that I am "owed", whenever possible regardless of the fact that doing so may cause injury or pain to someone else.

10. Continued to take an inventory of others "wrongs" against me and promptly collected on them whenever possible.

11. Sought through experimentation, "expert opinions", partying, and the advice of my using friends, a better, stronger, and longer high. I search only for more knowledge of how and what to use, and the means to do so without consequences.

12. Having an enjoyable experience from the use of drugs, I tried to carry this message to other suffering sober people to lead them to practice these principals in all their affairs with me.
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please don't take this the wrong way but areyou a hard drug user with a long c.v. or are you family 2 someone who has been victim 2 hard drugs ? just that the verses sounded abit..............well i can't think of the word but they sounded quite harsh and bitter.
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She is a recovering Meth addict and the widow of a Meth addict.
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sounds very bitter 2 me and when i canfind the words 2 explain how it made feel i'll post them. sorry 2 hear of your loss. seems that whoever comes close 2 hard drugs, loses friends or family. me included. fed up with losing friends and ( well, 1 family member ).
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Herman,

This writing was actually a play on words for the addict ... It speaks of the blinded heart that doesn't want to accept that they have a problem .. how they they rationalize their addiction and hold on to it for dear life .. basically "the addict" who has had a taste of knowledge of the 12 steps would get the cut of my jib and see my intentions ..

I am not bitter .. I have no reason to be.. I am trying to reach down into core of ones being and shake the addict a lil ..

I am a recovering addict *cross addictions* meaning I used and was addicted to many different kinds of drugs .. Meth included ..

I have see too much destruction that comes from drug addiction .. as well as I have lost far to many friends and a husband to dope .. such senseless deaths ..

I welcome you to come read my husband online memorial .. I created it with the heart of "if his story can help even just one person" then he died not in vain.

I'm sure after you read the memorial .. My heart will shine through and you will get a better understanding of the person behind the words.

Here is the link Double Click Here

Passion :)
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Thanks 4 the link, i'll b there after i've written this. i just can't relate ( or can't remember relating ) to it. 4 the past 12 years or so all i can remember tryin 2 give up or tryin not 2 get back on.4 the first year or so of using yeah, i remember sayin things like" i don't need it " or " i won't b ill" but that phase soon took off and reality set in "YOUR'E A HEROIN ADDICT" i eventually said 2 myself and since then have never gave up giving up. Never will. Sorry if i offended, just i couldn't relate.Speak u soon, hugs ,herman.