I have been reading this board for a few weeks and it is great,the support and love that is given. I am a 44 yr old woman who has been in the medical field for 20 yrs. And I have finally accepted the fact,I am a addict. I grew up in the 70's and we all smoked pot,coke,crank,drank. Never thought much about it. Then when I got older married had a child. Did'nt party any more. But I enjoyed taking a vicodin at the end of the day to chill. That is so sick. But I have taken vics on and off for 15 or 17 yrs. Didn't take every day,but now I take a 7.5mg every day. Was diag with Lupus 2 yrs ago and have terriable joint pain. On other stuff for Lupus. I was actually HAPPY when I was diag.So I would be given a Rx and did not have to figure ways to get a supply. I so idenitfy with others who say they get that excited feeling when seeing or thinking about the pills. My first husband is a alcholic and addict. And when I went to a psychologist during our divorce she said I ignored the big pink elephant in the room with us and enabled him to use. Anyway I am weaning off Prednisone at the present time.But once I am off that and feel ok I am toying with the idea of stopping vic for good. That scares me so bad I am sweating. Why does the vic give you energy??? I never could figure that out. I have fooled myself for years telling myself I only take one a day that is not so bad. At least I don't drink 3or4 glasses of wine or beer like other people. HA HA Just like my name says I am the girl with all the excuses. As a addict I can rationalize any thing to make me feel ok about my behavior. I sure would love to here from you all. Thanks for listening.
Thank you for posting. This really is a great site to get support on what ever you decide.
I am/was a slave to the pills. I am only on day 7 - or should I say I am already on day 7!! Anyway, Do you think that you can handle your pain without the vics??? Did you ever take more than one per day??
Please keep posting.
-britney
I am/was a slave to the pills. I am only on day 7 - or should I say I am already on day 7!! Anyway, Do you think that you can handle your pain without the vics??? Did you ever take more than one per day??
Please keep posting.
-britney
Dear Excuse girl I'm not a Dr put I think the reason it gives you energy may be from a chemical imbalance.I know that is why any pain killer peps me up.My mom on the other hand can take 1/2 a lortab and sleep for about 4 hrs.I think its great you see the pills as a problem but I hear what you have is VERY painful.Do you have a fall back plan to ease the pain.Also do you have any support groups around you that could help.Please know that we who come here will do whatever to be here for you no matter what.Take care......mollyjean
Excuse girl,
Well I guess posting is the first step to recovery. At least it is in the right direction. I too, take ONLY 5 to 7.5 mg a day of vicodin. Mainly to get energy and do some housework. I have gone the last 2 nights with just taking a 5mg pill.I used to take a little more but was never on a real high dose or anything. I posted a title yesturday and the heading said" I am the most pathetic person on this board". Well you should go read it, cause i sound like you. I do make excuses for myself. I say hey it's only 1 pill a day and I have been on higher doses and quit before. I can do this but then the next day I can't get that one pill a day out of my mind.I actually look forward to taking it. Anyway, I understand what you are going through and if you need to talk I am here for you! Maybe we can STOP together! I did go get some banana's last night to help with leg cramps and I am taking B-12 and a multi-vitamin. It always seemed to help when I was recovering in the past from narcotic's in the past!Best of Luck to you,Rachel
Well I guess posting is the first step to recovery. At least it is in the right direction. I too, take ONLY 5 to 7.5 mg a day of vicodin. Mainly to get energy and do some housework. I have gone the last 2 nights with just taking a 5mg pill.I used to take a little more but was never on a real high dose or anything. I posted a title yesturday and the heading said" I am the most pathetic person on this board". Well you should go read it, cause i sound like you. I do make excuses for myself. I say hey it's only 1 pill a day and I have been on higher doses and quit before. I can do this but then the next day I can't get that one pill a day out of my mind.I actually look forward to taking it. Anyway, I understand what you are going through and if you need to talk I am here for you! Maybe we can STOP together! I did go get some banana's last night to help with leg cramps and I am taking B-12 and a multi-vitamin. It always seemed to help when I was recovering in the past from narcotic's in the past!Best of Luck to you,Rachel
Dear rachael I am so glad that you sound better today.I told you your not pathtic,you are brave for wanting to kick your addiction.Take care....mollyjean
Hey Molly,How are you today? Yes today is a better day(so far) I just woke up so anything can happen,LOL you are right I am better today. I don't think I am pathetic just my behavior.Oh well,how have you been? Talk to you soon,Rach
Rae I am doing better thank you.I know this sounds sad but when I wake in the morning I enjoy comming here and seeing how everyone is doing.I forget who sang the song that say"pick yourself up and try again.I belive that the story for all of us is to just keep trying.I know I am and will keep trying.
I cant think of who sings that song either, but I do remember it. Everytime I sing it though in my mind I am ALL of key. Anyway, I look forward to waking up and coming to this board and seeing how everyone is too. Not to metntion throughtout the day and before bed too.It does help with your mind going crazy.My biggest probelm is that I "THINK" to much about pills. I only take 1 a day but I count them and make sure I have enough to get my through til such and such date,I can't stand thinking about it. I just am not hapy living this way anymore. It gets old after a while and I am finally going to do something about it. I plan on taking my 1 a day the rest of this week and hoping to stop completely by next monday. That is my goal anyway,so far! Thanks for listening,Rae
RAE73 Good For You you should be very proud of yourself.I will pray you keep doing well.Take Care.....mollyjean
