Hi gang, please excuse me i gotta share. I havent shared at any of meetingsyet ofwhichi feel self consious but I know I shouldnt, I spent the other night at the 12 step meeting wishing I could embark on the 12 steps with a sponsor but I STILL dont have one 6 months (yes i got my blue chip!!) down the line. I felt as though it was really clicky andwhen some people were sharing I felt like shouting "Oh shut the f**** up!" I'dheard it all before, I needed to hear something new something I could draw from. It wasnt my home meeting as my ex partner is being awkward at the min and I have no sitter for my wee one I cant get to many meetings at all, im scared i will losethe euphoria and im trying to keep the spiritual feeling that normally surrounds me and takes me thru each day one day at a time. Im using my big book and this forum too as a way of touching base with other fellow alcoholics so icanfeel normal. I guess i need to get to different meetings asand when i can including my home meeting and strike up the courage to ask then i can truly start my journey....hope u are all well..sorry for going on.....x flojo
Hi fljo. Don't feel too discouraged about not attending meetings. I don't get to any. I have a sponsor but that is through telephone and internet. I do meet with him every two weeks. My source and my strength comes my HP from my sponsor and this site and the people I have met here.I also read the BB and the daily reflections plus scores of other inspirational stuff. I know what you feel like though when you feel like telling people to shut the f....up lol. I hate it when people are talking to me about my "problem" and they haven't a CLUE to what it is I am actually feeling or experiencing or the whys of it. That is why I find this site so helpful because the people here DO understand. Anyway my friend good luck to you and hang in there. We are all in this together and though the road may be long we don't have to travel it alone. God bless and be safe.
FLOJO! Hello! glad you're here! 6 months RAWKS!!!
Nothing can take the place of meetings. The Face-To-Face rigorous honesty of one alcoholic sharing their experience, strength and hope with another is AA is founded upon. The AA Grapevine was conceived because it was considered a "meeting in print," for those who couldn't get to meetings regularly, or those who were home-bound by illness. This board, and others like it, do not take the place of meetings for me, but they DO supplement what I'm learning. I've shared my recovery with people in here that would care to read it, but it is the meetings that keep me sober. I look forward to them.
I have my home group, but I also attend others that are easy to get to. And if I have a problem in one of them, it's usually MY reactions to something that's hitting close to home. It's about principles, not personalities, and the ones that need to be there the most are the ones. like me, that have not become honest with themselves yet.
I had to learn to stop listening to the problem and start listening for the answers.
Good luck--but keep in mind that the meetings are where the group power is strongest. Someone said to me one time, "Exactly what should AA change to suit your needs?"
Kinda got me to pouting for a while. Until I stopped feeling sorry for myself.
Nothing can take the place of meetings. The Face-To-Face rigorous honesty of one alcoholic sharing their experience, strength and hope with another is AA is founded upon. The AA Grapevine was conceived because it was considered a "meeting in print," for those who couldn't get to meetings regularly, or those who were home-bound by illness. This board, and others like it, do not take the place of meetings for me, but they DO supplement what I'm learning. I've shared my recovery with people in here that would care to read it, but it is the meetings that keep me sober. I look forward to them.
I have my home group, but I also attend others that are easy to get to. And if I have a problem in one of them, it's usually MY reactions to something that's hitting close to home. It's about principles, not personalities, and the ones that need to be there the most are the ones. like me, that have not become honest with themselves yet.
I had to learn to stop listening to the problem and start listening for the answers.
Good luck--but keep in mind that the meetings are where the group power is strongest. Someone said to me one time, "Exactly what should AA change to suit your needs?"
Kinda got me to pouting for a while. Until I stopped feeling sorry for myself.
