I know how dumb that is and I don't think I will....but.....
A friend is coming over with a bunch to enjoy the rest of the game. This is my first test. I need some help with the etiquite here. I've done five days!!!!!
Like I wrote, I DO NOT want to, so I think I can win this round.
The fu**ing addict brain is screwy. It's like just because I don't feel in "crisis," I think I can just take a couple. I know this will lead me right back where I was five days agao, when I wasn't even getting a buzz....or worse.
I don't think I'll do it, but it is a test.
I've been on something for 16 years and this is new to me.
I'ma mess here, folks, and I've read so much about your relapses.
Until this moment, I had the naive mentality that I was off the ride, but it is clear that I am not.
I've got the Small Book out and I realize that I just have to remind myself that this crap is poison to me. Writing here is helpful and I think I'll be OK.
What do you all tell your friends who still use?
Jer
You dont hang out with people anymore who do use. People places and things. Thats what they teach. Why would u even think or want to use.
Thats not cool man. People Places and Things
Thats not cool man. People Places and Things
Jer,
I don't have any friends that use anymore...truly I don't...But when I first stopped and they didn't know, I just said, "I don't do that anymore" Remember that one is too many and a thousand is never enough...Stick to your guns. Hey you might ask your friend to not even bring any over...You have come this far, don't go back to the insanity....
Jan
I don't have any friends that use anymore...truly I don't...But when I first stopped and they didn't know, I just said, "I don't do that anymore" Remember that one is too many and a thousand is never enough...Stick to your guns. Hey you might ask your friend to not even bring any over...You have come this far, don't go back to the insanity....
Jan
What Red said is so true Jer. You have to let go of everything that you associate with using. It's time to meet some new sober friends. They are pretty fun people when you get to know them!
Have a better day.
CG
Have a better day.
CG
It is all ovious stuff, but these people have been a part of me.
Dog....didn't you go to a party a couple of weeks ago? What was that like.
Dog....didn't you go to a party a couple of weeks ago? What was that like.
mrjer
What do you all tell your friends who still use?
You tell them YOU don't use anymore. If they try to get you to use anyway, they're not friends.
I've gone through the same thing. I'm now left with my REAL friends.
There's a big difference between FRIENDS and drug buddies. A real friend will support you. A big part of getting clean is knowing how to tell the difference.
Take care
Hawk
What do you all tell your friends who still use?
You tell them YOU don't use anymore. If they try to get you to use anyway, they're not friends.
I've gone through the same thing. I'm now left with my REAL friends.
There's a big difference between FRIENDS and drug buddies. A real friend will support you. A big part of getting clean is knowing how to tell the difference.
Take care
Hawk
You are quite right and I think/hope these people will understand. Perhaps naive, but I think they love me. In many cases, I am a worse abuser. I am just throwing this stuff out there because it is part of life now. The "drug buddies" I can do without easily. Friends and relatives are a different story!
Damn....I've come a long way this week!
Mr,
Nope you not home free. If you take just one you just bought a ticket on Pill Ride From Hell again.
Since your friend is already comming over, you must tell your friend. When you open the door spill your gut's. Your friend may have the decency to leave you in peace. If your friend stays, watch the game and when the games over bid your friend a pleasent good night.
Being around drugs now is really playing with fire. It's so hard to fight tempentation. That's why it is reccomended that we addicts cut off all sources and never see our "drug friends"
You can do this!
Catherine
Nope you not home free. If you take just one you just bought a ticket on Pill Ride From Hell again.
Since your friend is already comming over, you must tell your friend. When you open the door spill your gut's. Your friend may have the decency to leave you in peace. If your friend stays, watch the game and when the games over bid your friend a pleasent good night.
Being around drugs now is really playing with fire. It's so hard to fight tempentation. That's why it is reccomended that we addicts cut off all sources and never see our "drug friends"
You can do this!
Catherine
Jer,
I'm not going to tell you to drop your friend. Maybe you should and maybe not. But putting yourself in this situation is insane, at best. You need to have a very serious talk with all of your friends and family members that may have access to pills. Tell them you have a problem, an addiction, and that you have finally managed to break free, but it has been hell. Describe that hell to them so they know what you mean. Tell them to never, under any circumstances, no matter how much you plead, even if you are injured, never, ever give you even one pill. Tell them that doing so is contributing to your addiction and possibly your death, and sending you straight back to hell. Tell them to never mention if they have pills.
Your real friends will listen and you will not have to ask twice. Anyone who doesn't listen isn't a real friend, and you need to ditch them. Period.
You are setting yourself up for failure. Why? You have made it through the worst of WD, do you really want to do this now? No? That game is not that important, you may want to cancel plans and watch it alone, or tell your friend NOT to bring ANY pills to your house.
If you slip, you are going to hate yourself tomorrow. Not worth the risk.
I'm not going to tell you to drop your friend. Maybe you should and maybe not. But putting yourself in this situation is insane, at best. You need to have a very serious talk with all of your friends and family members that may have access to pills. Tell them you have a problem, an addiction, and that you have finally managed to break free, but it has been hell. Describe that hell to them so they know what you mean. Tell them to never, under any circumstances, no matter how much you plead, even if you are injured, never, ever give you even one pill. Tell them that doing so is contributing to your addiction and possibly your death, and sending you straight back to hell. Tell them to never mention if they have pills.
Your real friends will listen and you will not have to ask twice. Anyone who doesn't listen isn't a real friend, and you need to ditch them. Period.
You are setting yourself up for failure. Why? You have made it through the worst of WD, do you really want to do this now? No? That game is not that important, you may want to cancel plans and watch it alone, or tell your friend NOT to bring ANY pills to your house.
If you slip, you are going to hate yourself tomorrow. Not worth the risk.
mrjer:
i had "friends" calling me during detox to see if i wanted some pills. they knew what i was going through, and they didn't want me to change...they were losing a partner in crime.
not to sound too gothic...but, they want to drink your blood! *smile*
really, you are seriously playing games with yourself. whatcha doing there fella?
remember all that pills chasing? remember all that money you were spending that you are really gonna need one day to send your children to college?
if you cannot remember that....you really want to repeat these last five days again? and if you use today, chances are, you will give yourself permission tomorrow...and then you are right back out again.
can you call and tell them you are running fever and shouldn't expose anyone?
can you tell them the truth once they get there?
worried about you....keep posting....let us help.
sarah
i had "friends" calling me during detox to see if i wanted some pills. they knew what i was going through, and they didn't want me to change...they were losing a partner in crime.
not to sound too gothic...but, they want to drink your blood! *smile*
really, you are seriously playing games with yourself. whatcha doing there fella?
remember all that pills chasing? remember all that money you were spending that you are really gonna need one day to send your children to college?
if you cannot remember that....you really want to repeat these last five days again? and if you use today, chances are, you will give yourself permission tomorrow...and then you are right back out again.
can you call and tell them you are running fever and shouldn't expose anyone?
can you tell them the truth once they get there?
worried about you....keep posting....let us help.
sarah
I thought I could just take a few on occasion, and I'm still at it after a year and a half.
Don't do it.
Don't do it.
Mjer, you are not in the place yet to be around pills.....maybe you are, who knows. however, that just sounds like insanity to me.
You have to protect yourself for a while...from yourself and your friends. It is way to easy to take one....
then it is on again.
just let this be your one and only detox....
You have to protect yourself for a while...from yourself and your friends. It is way to easy to take one....
then it is on again.
just let this be your one and only detox....
Yea i went to a party. No drugs though man. Yea people drank. I never enjoed drinking. But...... NO DRUGS. So you can do what you like. Im not your mother, but you need to change certain behaviors. Its life and death man
Please chose life
Please chose life
Keep posting...call someone from the board or NA/AA...anything to remind you how HARD it was the last few days...it is ultimately your choice. Do you REALLY want to start at square 1?You will be so pissed at yourself tomorrow...trust me...I know. One night isn't worth it. If they are true friends then not only wil they understand, but help you(i.e.not use in front of you) I early recovery you are very fragile emotionally and also very vulnerable. We all crave...but wanting to do it and doing it are 2 different things. Keep your head!!!! Love, Sharonn
mrjer...
are you gonna let us know how you are doing???
please do.
sarah
are you gonna let us know how you are doing???
please do.
sarah
I'm having a long conversation with my buddy. He is very understanding. This is just something I can't do anymore. I don't want to lose certain people, but I WANT THE CYCLE TO END.......It Sucks.
I'll post more later, but I am done with the pills and drugs ingeneral. Thank you all......I knew it would be good to come clean here about my thoughts.
I'll post more later, but I am done with the pills and drugs ingeneral. Thank you all......I knew it would be good to come clean here about my thoughts.
Good for you!
You are not only helping yourself...you may be saving your buddy's life as well. Take good care of yourself...stay safe.
Thank you for updating us. We care!
Peace.
Sarah
dammit.....touchdown Dallas.
You are not only helping yourself...you may be saving your buddy's life as well. Take good care of yourself...stay safe.
Thank you for updating us. We care!
Peace.
Sarah
dammit.....touchdown Dallas.
I did the exact thing you described mrjr...I am STILL sick because of that "one" pill. I found one methadone at the baseboard in my room, when I was clean several days! NOW WHEN I SAY 10 days, IT IS 10 days. But I actually got on the quit ride November 12th! I should be right behind reddog, this SHOULD be my 28th day.
A WHOLE week of the withdrawal November 12, then blew it on the 17th. (oh yea, I was getting the last order for a friend (my a**) This addict here at my residence, (me) kept 60, tried JUST to relieve the withdrawals, it got me back in the guilt game, counting, and happy to spare the pain I was feeling... and of course I was out of pills in just enough time to RESTART WITHDRAWALS!
I would never hope for my start to sobriety on anybody. The friend of mine that uses, wishes I had a doctor. One like she does, that is compasionate, and asks her "why" she would want to get off of them if they help? End my nightmare.... after this is sucessful, I will be leaving some friends, and unfortunatly "family" members behind. When they meet their monster in a year or two, I will be back to my old self (well, with prayer, support and a lot of will) I can allready see that they are feeling awkward and scared of me as I describe the last month with them. They really dnt want to hear it. Good luck Jer!
A WHOLE week of the withdrawal November 12, then blew it on the 17th. (oh yea, I was getting the last order for a friend (my a**) This addict here at my residence, (me) kept 60, tried JUST to relieve the withdrawals, it got me back in the guilt game, counting, and happy to spare the pain I was feeling... and of course I was out of pills in just enough time to RESTART WITHDRAWALS!
I would never hope for my start to sobriety on anybody. The friend of mine that uses, wishes I had a doctor. One like she does, that is compasionate, and asks her "why" she would want to get off of them if they help? End my nightmare.... after this is sucessful, I will be leaving some friends, and unfortunatly "family" members behind. When they meet their monster in a year or two, I will be back to my old self (well, with prayer, support and a lot of will) I can allready see that they are feeling awkward and scared of me as I describe the last month with them. They really dnt want to hear it. Good luck Jer!
Jer, if you are around please email me cherielck@aol.com
