haia peeps,
am i strugling right now or WHAT!,ihave been today all day without any,but i know its only a phone call away,im hurting all over but i know its my own fault for taking meth and gear,im wide awake ,but usually im nodding by now,i feel so stupid but iknow even a bag would get my mind at rest,my bf is in bed hehasdone all day without drank loads ov wine and gone to bed but he has to be up at 5,30am for work,a twelve hour shift,i still think im not going to get through the night,is no one on here ??
seren***
Hiya love,
Please please please take that thought out of your head that one bag will make you better and help you sleep because you have got through the worst part of today. Havent you got any sleeping tablets you could take to try and get some sleep?? Only a suggestion and I wouldnt normally advise people to do this but maybe try some valium?? They helps you sleep and chills you a little!!
I also think that that phone call wouldnt be so much of a temotation if you delete the number?? I mean if you are really set on doing this then why not delete that number and commit yourself to sticking to this because you will be gratefull in the long run. As each day goes by it will get easier and easier and you will be so proud of yourself. Dont look or even think about tomorrow. Take each day as it comes. When tomorrow comes then worry about tomorrow, one step at a time!! You can do it!
You can do this girl!! Your strong!
xx
Please please please take that thought out of your head that one bag will make you better and help you sleep because you have got through the worst part of today. Havent you got any sleeping tablets you could take to try and get some sleep?? Only a suggestion and I wouldnt normally advise people to do this but maybe try some valium?? They helps you sleep and chills you a little!!
I also think that that phone call wouldnt be so much of a temotation if you delete the number?? I mean if you are really set on doing this then why not delete that number and commit yourself to sticking to this because you will be gratefull in the long run. As each day goes by it will get easier and easier and you will be so proud of yourself. Dont look or even think about tomorrow. Take each day as it comes. When tomorrow comes then worry about tomorrow, one step at a time!! You can do it!
You can do this girl!! Your strong!
xx
im not an addict so i dont know what your going throu at this moment in time but all i can say is be strong and stay strong this pain wont last forever , think of your future and start living xx
Wow Emz, you must of been posting the same time as me??? lol
yeah mad hey ? xx
You not got msn emz?
Seren stay strong. You've come this far, you're posting in here so that means you want to succeed. We are all proud of you for coming this far. Stick at it hun.
As for deleting numbers, if you're anything like my boyfriend you'll know them all off by heart anyway! He still has numbers stored in his brain from years ago in another city, theyr'e useless to him now but they're still in his memory! But you don't need to delete them cos you have the strength not to call them.
I'm rooting for you and sending you energy,
Maddy x
As for deleting numbers, if you're anything like my boyfriend you'll know them all off by heart anyway! He still has numbers stored in his brain from years ago in another city, theyr'e useless to him now but they're still in his memory! But you don't need to delete them cos you have the strength not to call them.
I'm rooting for you and sending you energy,
Maddy x
Nights the very worse, serene..........sorry nobody was on.........your UK time to our time someone usually is on........kept many of us wide awake addicts busy typing.
Hope you are O.K.........serene, you're i n it.......you're gonna come through the other side, babes.
If ya picked up........it's alright........start again.........we all know that pain and anguish and unbelievably awful draw, pull............the "just one bag".
You know how it is that one bag serene..........it's 50........hope ya made it through........hang tough, serene......hang on........and hell with them dealers.....don't give in to it.........don't buy them a Rolex.........hang on.
Hope you are O.K.........serene, you're i n it.......you're gonna come through the other side, babes.
If ya picked up........it's alright........start again.........we all know that pain and anguish and unbelievably awful draw, pull............the "just one bag".
You know how it is that one bag serene..........it's 50........hope ya made it through........hang tough, serene......hang on........and hell with them dealers.....don't give in to it.........don't buy them a Rolex.........hang on.
bunny ive only had my computer a couple off weeks about 6 actually i dont really know much about it so i aint got a clue if i got msn how do i find out ? xx
i'm having a bad time at the moment i staarted using herion 12 months ago i moved out of my mum's and in with my boyfriend. every thing was going so well then his mum died and he started using. instead of staying strong i did the same my life has turned round. i don't understand waht i am doing. i've moved back home with my mum and i'm still using mum buys my gear. does any one have any tips tp help me. i could do with some friends right now i've lost my others through addiction. xxx
danielle--does your mom know what shes buying?? ever thought of subs-alot of people are on them im on methadone but wouldnt suggest it if you can get on subs--maybe you need a treatment center--i know this is not what you want to hear--gotta let the boy go--read some of the others stories--do it youll be glad in the long run--and this is a great place for friends
hiya mate thanks for your reply. i think my mum doesn't know what to do to help me. i've got an appointment at CDT to get on methodone. i think one of my main problems is i've no one to talk to i have lost my real friends and we haven't got a big family. i want to believe in my boyfriend and i want to help him. am i wasting my time? he's been my partner for 2 years it's hard to just leave him.i don't want people juging me because my mum buys me gear it's just she can't bear to see me rattle. also after you stop doing drugs what are you to do with all the spare time you have.
Hey Danielle...you should should get your mum to read some of the posts in here (HurtDad for example)...she needs to understand that she is not helping you in this way. Are there any meetings for families she could attend in your area? That would help her to understand what you're going through a lot more...then she can know how to help without enabling.
Keep posting in here...you got friends here. Wishing you all the best.
Maddy x
Keep posting in here...you got friends here. Wishing you all the best.
Maddy x
hi danielle
i know what your going through,me and my boyfriend srarted on heroin together,and here we are seven yrs later still trying to beat this,you said youve been on H for about a year,but believe me the time goes so fast when your on it,you are right to want to do something about it now,you said youve left your boyfriend ,have you finished or just not living together?,everyone says it is harder when there are two of you,i dont know just that weve stayed together and when weve stopped weve done it together but at the same time we always both get back on it,ive been really trying to stop,ive had a few clean days ,im on meth,but weve both been using for the last two days,not much but enough to be right back where i started,tomorrow is once again the beginning,i know what you mean about filling your time the habit takes up all of our time thoughts everything,and when thats gone it kleaves a big empty hole to fill,im really not able to give you advice now,cos i still really need help myself,but im here if you want to chat about anything,you are so not alone in this,take care
seren***
i know what your going through,me and my boyfriend srarted on heroin together,and here we are seven yrs later still trying to beat this,you said youve been on H for about a year,but believe me the time goes so fast when your on it,you are right to want to do something about it now,you said youve left your boyfriend ,have you finished or just not living together?,everyone says it is harder when there are two of you,i dont know just that weve stayed together and when weve stopped weve done it together but at the same time we always both get back on it,ive been really trying to stop,ive had a few clean days ,im on meth,but weve both been using for the last two days,not much but enough to be right back where i started,tomorrow is once again the beginning,i know what you mean about filling your time the habit takes up all of our time thoughts everything,and when thats gone it kleaves a big empty hole to fill,im really not able to give you advice now,cos i still really need help myself,but im here if you want to chat about anything,you are so not alone in this,take care
seren***
thanks guys for your words of support. you asked if we were finished or just living apart. we're just living apart at the mo. the other big thing that i haven't mentioned because i don't want you to judge me is that we're gypsis. well my boyfriend is and i've been living the same lifestyle. when i say we're gypsis we're not the stero type dirty down and out. up untill 6 months ago we had a very nice caravan and a new jeep we're very nice clean people if people give us the chance. i'm glad i've found people that understand my situation, it's helps to know that i'm not alone. any way wish me luck i'm going to CDT tomorrow for a assesment. were are all you guys from or do we not talk about personal stuff like that.
good nite every one and god bless thanks again x
good nite every one and god bless thanks again x
Hey Danielle, Most of us on here are heroin addicts........like ya see some recovering and some still using.......some of those here love a heroin addict.
Last place anyobody can judge anyone else...........heroin don't see no color, no religion, no class, no ethnic background, no culture.
Don't be worrying about that now.......you worry about your appointment tomorrow, and yeah your mom she don't know what to do.......at all.....you sound like ya mean to kick this so please check in........we care.
Yo, Danielle.........I'm a German-American.........I've been judged and to show my ignorance........I was in rehab with a Jewish woman........I was shocked as I thought all Jewish women handled themselves perfectly, married strong men, had the life they wished for........that's ignorance on my part.........I'm honest and I told this lady.........she was laughing so hard.........so skin color, blood lines, all that stuff ain't got nothing to do with it...........period.
Best of all to you tomorrow, Danielle.........and hope your man can get some help as well.........two people kicking at the same time can be a rough go.
Last place anyobody can judge anyone else...........heroin don't see no color, no religion, no class, no ethnic background, no culture.
Don't be worrying about that now.......you worry about your appointment tomorrow, and yeah your mom she don't know what to do.......at all.....you sound like ya mean to kick this so please check in........we care.
Yo, Danielle.........I'm a German-American.........I've been judged and to show my ignorance........I was in rehab with a Jewish woman........I was shocked as I thought all Jewish women handled themselves perfectly, married strong men, had the life they wished for........that's ignorance on my part.........I'm honest and I told this lady.........she was laughing so hard.........so skin color, blood lines, all that stuff ain't got nothing to do with it...........period.
Best of all to you tomorrow, Danielle.........and hope your man can get some help as well.........two people kicking at the same time can be a rough go.
hey guys i went to CDT today and i have an appointment with doc next
week. believer mentioned that there are stories to read eg hurt dad are
they on this site if so were are they. you have to forgive my computer
ignorance i'm terrable on computers i haven't got a clue i'm lucky
i managed to turn the boodly thing on.
week. believer mentioned that there are stories to read eg hurt dad are
they on this site if so were are they. you have to forgive my computer
ignorance i'm terrable on computers i haven't got a clue i'm lucky
i managed to turn the boodly thing on.
haia daniele
im glad you went to see about getting help to beat thisyou are not going to believe this,but my boyfriend is also a gypsie,so that makes my little girl one and i know what you mean about people thinking gypsies are dirty and all that ,but we know different dont we,are you on msn ?ho[e you are ok tonight,i want to fight this i think from what you say you do to,take care
seren**
im glad you went to see about getting help to beat thisyou are not going to believe this,but my boyfriend is also a gypsie,so that makes my little girl one and i know what you mean about people thinking gypsies are dirty and all that ,but we know different dont we,are you on msn ?ho[e you are ok tonight,i want to fight this i think from what you say you do to,take care
seren**
Danielle, you can go down to the part of the board..........it says
Recovery Stories" and it's way at the bottom of the board........look at them and you'll see some of Hurt Dad's posts...........have a look around on here all over if you can because there's alot of really good advice and all.
That's cool you and serene could message perhaps........hang on girlies....you are both wanting this..........you can do it.
**By the way talk about misconceptions.........to uneducated people like me...in America to us we think of Gypsies like Esmerelda.......a friend of mine's husband is a Romanian gypsy.........I never knew until I came back from Paris and she asked about if I met any gypsies or not.........so here and this is just me of course.........and some friends and all........that's how we thought......like Esmerellda........and not the Disney version.**
Recovery Stories" and it's way at the bottom of the board........look at them and you'll see some of Hurt Dad's posts...........have a look around on here all over if you can because there's alot of really good advice and all.
That's cool you and serene could message perhaps........hang on girlies....you are both wanting this..........you can do it.
**By the way talk about misconceptions.........to uneducated people like me...in America to us we think of Gypsies like Esmerelda.......a friend of mine's husband is a Romanian gypsy.........I never knew until I came back from Paris and she asked about if I met any gypsies or not.........so here and this is just me of course.........and some friends and all........that's how we thought......like Esmerellda........and not the Disney version.**
hiya seron01 i'm so glad i've found some one that has so much in comom
with me. you asked if i was on msn i haven't got a clue what this is.
i'm so thick when it comes to computers. i'd love to let you know a
little bit about me and my situation and find out more about you
and your situation. i feel that because we both have the same kind off
background you'll beable to understand me more than others. how can we
comunicate other than this site. i understand every one has to be careful
on the net so i'll leave the decsion up to you how you want to chat.
i've always been so confused as to were people get there information
about gypsis! can you shed any light on this for me.
how is your habbit at the mo? do you have kids? as you'll understand
gypsis famlies stay togerther we've moved away because of our habbit.
but i miss living in the open space in the trailor. how about you?
stay in touch chav
with me. you asked if i was on msn i haven't got a clue what this is.
i'm so thick when it comes to computers. i'd love to let you know a
little bit about me and my situation and find out more about you
and your situation. i feel that because we both have the same kind off
background you'll beable to understand me more than others. how can we
comunicate other than this site. i understand every one has to be careful
on the net so i'll leave the decsion up to you how you want to chat.
i've always been so confused as to were people get there information
about gypsis! can you shed any light on this for me.
how is your habbit at the mo? do you have kids? as you'll understand
gypsis famlies stay togerther we've moved away because of our habbit.
but i miss living in the open space in the trailor. how about you?
stay in touch chav
