This Is So Hard!

Since I've been clean, I've noticed that I've been doubling the amount of cigarettes I smoke...I've even developed a smoker's cough...I hate it. I'm nervous, irritable, depressed. Someone please tell me it gets better. I am not happy!
It gets better, dont worry about the cigarettes right now, that will come later when you are not as stressed. Try to think of alternative ways to spend the time you used to be smoking like pampering yourself in some way.
I aggree with Jamv.
I only started smoking 3 weeks ago. I never used to chop up with tobacco so im not really craving the nicotene. A stupid thing to start. I have been having only a couple of cigs a day when im really hanging out for a cone.
Don't beat yourself up about it. Im just proud of myself for not smoking pot or drinking alcohol. Giving up cigs will come when i am ready.
angie
i promise you all this will pass. i felt awful the first few weeks. but it passed and i lived through it. and so will you. just hang in there. give your body, mind, and soul time to heal. do some things just for you. get in touch with your emotions.i did alot of crying in those first few weeks. and now i am feeling so much better. i still have some bad days, but everyone does. i think that is just part of life, even for non addicts. be strong. it will all pay off in the end.
I journalled alot, it's pretty amazing what you discover about yourself. Regarding cigarettes, I quit them in may 2003, and girl, if I can give them up, you can, trust me. Just not today, ok, give yourself a break ! One mission at a time. LOL
Thanks so much everyone! Your support means a lot!

I've decided to stop bullying myself about the cigs and save up for a box of nicotine patches. I'm 9 days clean and that is the longest I've gone in three years.

Yesterday was the hardest day so far, I think. Hopefully today will be easier.
9 days is awesome Angie!! Yesterday was the hardest day for me too so lets have a toast to better days!! I definetly agrre that you should focus on one thing at a time. Stress is hard enough to deal with & when you give up all your vices at once I think you are bound to fail. Wishing you much peace today!
Love,
Cole