This Is The Last Time I Post....

About this subject anyway,,,,,( i hope you didnt get the wrong impresion)

All you out there i need advise.....I think i might leave my fiancee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AM i just being stupid to think that i could have made this work??? I feel like he is upove me and im below him right now. Oh, and i cant leave out the Fuc*ing family!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There driveing me NUTS!!!

Help me please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Christina*~~~~~*
HELP!!!!!!!!!!! Guys i realy need to talk to someone.....guys, girls, little babys...it dosnt matter at this point, but i have to get it off my chest to see if maybe im the one who is blowwing this WAY out of proportion......

Christina*~~~~*
What's up girl?
I have a second then need to take my daughter to a dance and drop her off for a few hours. So tell me... Rae
Hey go check your e-mail. Rae
christina,

thats so sucks, you are getting crap thrown at you from all ends. listen just make sure you think all this through rationally. ultimately you have to weigh the pros and cons and do what makes you happy. so that you can go on in life and be the best that you know how to be. i wish i had better words of wisdom to offer. but i am sending you my good thoughts vibes and prayers your way as well. ask god to show you the way, and open your mind and heart and listen to him, he wont steer you wrong. just keep talking. it helps to get it out.

terrianne
OHHHH Boy, this is a stupid thing, but it makes me want to end it right now and never look back.

About a month ago my fiancee told me that he didnt love me in the way that i thought he did anymore. To make a long story short...i tryed to pack my bags and leave. He ended up stopping me and told me that he was just realy stressed oout and didnt think that this was the answer. He cryed and told me to stay. But he told his parents about it( they live 3 houses down from us) and they told him that i wasnt the girl for him anyway. That i was nice and a good mom but not ment for him. He ended up telling them that we were staying togeather and to stick behind us or stay away from us.

Now today, i saw his dad and sister( who's a Bitc* anyway and we dont talk to her) and i waived from the truck as i drove by. I told My fiancee that i saw them togeather and i waived and he went over to there house to say hi to his dad later on thisevening. He came home and told me that he had a bone to pick with me about the truck. When he bought it for me the condition was that i was NOT to smoke in it . I never have. Not Ever. And his Father told him tonight that he saw me smokeing in the truck when he waived at me. I hate this. Now im trying to justifey to him that his father is starting stuff with me for no reason and he thinks that its a lode of shi* and i think that he is beleaveing his father.

There is more but i know you said that you have to get going. I leave it here for now and ill write more in a second if anyone wants to hear the rest.
I know it dosnt seem like a big deal yet....but it gets worse.

Christina*~~~*
Oh well, im gonna finish writeing out he story and see if it dosnt make some sence to me if i read it myself.

So i tld me fiancee that i was NOT smokeing in the truck and i had half a mind to call his father myself and tell him a thing or two!!! He told me to go ahead and call his dad!!!
I told him that i was not gonna keep this fight up with his dad. That if he wanted to be a jerk about this, then so be it, but i was not going to play the game and start a fight with him too!!!
I had t leave then to take my niece to a dance resitle and i took the cell phone with me and i was outside haveing a cigerette and the cell rang. It said on the caller I.D that it was his dads cell phone so i let the voice mail get it and then i listened to the message.
It was his dad and he said this...."Sorry that i couldnt talk a min. agao, mom and your brother and i are at dinner in a resterant, but i called your sister a min.,ago and she says that she saw a cigerette in her hand to ...so if she wants to call and talk about this with me you tell her to go right ahead and ill tell her what i think about her and she and i can deal with this head on. But she will not like it" OF COURSE THIS UPSET ME!!!!!

First why is this big deal....and second...who's buisness is it of there's if i smoke or i dont????
and third....why call and start a fuc*ing lie about me thats soooo stupid.
Now i feel like im the odd ball and how am i suppost to deal with his freaking family again.
They feel like they are ubove me and they put me soooo below them.

Christina*~~~
molly,

thats just all hogwash, his family has some kinda beef, who knows why, but its wrong and you dont deserve that obviously. how childish of your father inlaw to begin with. what a shame people have to be so miserable with thenselves they want everyone else to be just as miserable. but if you want this to work with your man, then you will have to stand the test of time and work on you and your man and let the rest just slide and consider the sourse. thats just my opinion, i have no degree. but if your love is strong enough all the outside stuff should be meaningless and all that matters is how you and your man feel for each other.. i'm here for you sis. kepp talking it out if you need to.

terrianne
MY NAME IS NOT MOLLY.....BOO......MY NAME IS CHRISTINA!!!!
YOU CRACK ME UP!!!

CHRISTINA.*~~~~*
I am not the best person to talk to, because I really dont like my in-laws, but while I am going through this whole recovery process I know I could not have done it without my finace at the time. We married in September, and I had started taking the pills again and he found out, and he asked me "Do you know what I see when I look at you? I see someone who I love and know I can not live without!.
If your fiance (and that means you should be getting married soon) is involved in your recovery then you need to talk to him. Let him know! You never know, he could be the one to really put your mind a some level of confort. Share it with him, because I have found hiding my feelings to my husband only made me feel worse and want to take more and more pills to numb the guilt. I am new at this but if you really need to talk... I am one to listen really well. But I think (and again I am not trying to sound all knowing, even tho my husband tells me I think I know everything) you should take a night for you and him and just talk, you talk first and tell him not to stop you from talking until you are done. (make a list of all the things you want to say, so youdont forget). Then listen to what he has to say.
Good luck and stay positive
Meg
TERESA....What you write is the truth. And i apresiate that!!!
However....this is nothing to do with the pills right now.


This is about a stupid cigerette and me smokeing in a stupid truck that he bought for me an di was not suppost to smoke in. I HAVE NEVER BROKE THAT PROMMIS. MY KIDS RIDE IN THIS TRUCK AND I TAKE FRIENDS IN THIS TRUCK AND I DRIVE MY FAMILY AROUND IN THIS TRUCK AND ITS MINE!!!!! HOWEVER, I HAVE AGREED TO THE FACT THAT I WOULD NOT SMOKE IN IT FOR HIM AND I HAVE STUCK TO THAT RULE FOR HIM. TO RESPECT HIM AND I WILL NOT BREAK ALL THE RULES WE HAVE. ALSO, MY KIDS WOULD KILL ME IF I EVER SMOKED IN IT. I ALWAYS STOP WERE IM AT AND HAVE A SMOKE OUTSIDE THE TRUCK AND THEN GET BACK IN AND GO. BUT HIS FATHER JUST HAD TO GO AND SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND IT GETTING UNDER MY SKIN....
IF HE THOUGHT THAT HE SAW ME HAVEING A SMOKE THAN HE COULD OF SAID THAT ...PLAIN AND SIMPLE. NOT A BIG DEAL, BUT TO ACT LIKE THIS AND TRY AND CALL MY FIANCEE ON HIS CELL PHONE SO I WOULD NOT GET THE MESSAGE JUST PLAIN MAKES ME PISSED OFF!!!!!!
YOUR HOWEVER THE BEST FOR TRYING TO HELP ME THROUGH THIS. THANK YOU FOR ANSWERING ME!!!!
oh, i didnt see that the cap's lock was on that whole time!!(sorry)
Christina*~~~*
TERESA...

BOO...

RAE...

ANYONE...

ARE YOU ALL STILL OUT THERE!!!?????

Christina*~~~* (friend)
hehehe sorry christina didnt mean molly and that wasnt teresa that was meg, i know the avatars throw ya off, i'll be back in minute to replay

terrianne
Friend,
If I was in your shoes, (and was very close.. long story, but my fiance had to make a choice, me or them, and well we are married and all passed)

BUT
I WOULD GO STAND OUTSIDE THEIR HOUSE AND SMOKE A WHOLE PACK!!! AND LEAVE THE BUTS IN THEIR MAIL BOX!

That would make me smile
Meg
christina,

i really cant add anymore then i just have previously,but i feel your frustrations and vent awya, he is a childish crap starter. not worhth letting it rent space in your head thats for sure,


terrianne
Oh, i guess i just made the same mistake that you did. Sorry MEG i didnt mean anything by it. I realy didnt look at the name. I just saw that you had the same picture at the side that Teresa does.
Now that you think about it....i never talk to Teresa on here!!! I was surpizeingly happy to see he post to me...but maybe another time she will pop in to say hi to me!!!

Again, sorry MEG> Keep posting to me. I have never wrote to you before. Are you new here to the board??? If so then welcome. And sorry for the first time that we talk its about my horrible life here. I hope all is well with you tonight.

Your Friend, Christina*~~~*Christina*~~~*
meg,
hahahha i love your style, or even better smash them out on the fornt or back porch make them clean up the butts that represent that they are heheheh sorry my bad. but thats why i am so loved

terrianne
christina ,

ummmm teresa is a girl heheheh :P

terrianne
oops i made mistake again sorry i stand corrected i misread your she for a he, blonde moment, man i feel so whacked out tonight.

~T
Christina,
I am very new to this board thing, it seems so much easier than facing a doctor and having him look down at me. I know that is what my doctor did.
I have had so many problems with my in-laws I could write a best seller and be a millionaire (dont know why I dont do it, oh yea, I was only motivated to sit on my a** and do nothing by take pills and that was about it. I hated his family and he is so close to them. I had to bite my tongue so many times that I may have perminate teeth markes. At one point his family got so bad that I moved back to connecticut to stay with my sister. The next day my husband came and got me and took me back to NY and I found out he told his family if they dont accept me then he is out of their lives for good. Tell your fiance to step up!... then smile at them everytime you see them, it will kill them to think they are not getting into your relationship. Also, you seem to have a Everybody loves Raymond thing going on. Try and move are buy a dog and make it poo on their front lawn every day!
Megan

OH I am off to eat food with no meat (BORING) I will see you all later, are we alowed to post our email addresses here, I am new and dont know if we can