I seen my daughter today, I only get to see her once a week for an hour, it hurts so bad because she misses mommy and has not been able to be with me for over 7 months. I have seen her a grand total of 8 times within these 7 months and its killing me. Half the time he won't show up to our scheduled visits and he knows what he is doing to me I think sometimes he wants me to stay drunk, that way he can take her from me for good. Sorry for venting but its better than drinking. I am determined more and more when I'm able to see my kids to stay clean. I know it has to be for me but its for them too.
He may, in fact, want to do just that. And if you continue your old methods of coping, he'll succeed. Immerse yourself in the program, find a sponsor--ANY sponsor, and ask for help. It works--there are people in AA everyday who were full of despair, but those who've followed the "suggestions," have come to realize The Promises, and they are, in fact, PROMISES. Get help for yourself, first.
Gidday Hatemeorloveme
Welcome to the boards and keep posting your E.S.H.
All i can offer is that 5 seconds of resentment in my head and i am at my own funeral or someone elses....resentment only hurts the person thinking it and as i lay awake resenting the person i am resentful of is asleep and well prepared for the next day...I used to spend hours resenting people for all sorts of sh#t and at the end of it i was the one that suffered, the greatest thing you can do is get time up from your last drink or drug and find your sponsor and replace resentment with gratitude and over time as long as you are happy within yourself then the rest is good for whoever is around you.
As long as you resent your ex he is absorbing your energy and that energy would be better used in a meeting and acknowledging yourself as a beautiful person
light and love Zac
Welcome to the boards and keep posting your E.S.H.
All i can offer is that 5 seconds of resentment in my head and i am at my own funeral or someone elses....resentment only hurts the person thinking it and as i lay awake resenting the person i am resentful of is asleep and well prepared for the next day...I used to spend hours resenting people for all sorts of sh#t and at the end of it i was the one that suffered, the greatest thing you can do is get time up from your last drink or drug and find your sponsor and replace resentment with gratitude and over time as long as you are happy within yourself then the rest is good for whoever is around you.
As long as you resent your ex he is absorbing your energy and that energy would be better used in a meeting and acknowledging yourself as a beautiful person
light and love Zac
How are you doing today HMOLM?
