Thank you so much for what you said to me on the other board. That really made me think and so has ali and alot of other people on here. I am realy going to try to be not so defensive and not give people that power over me. I know what you meant by saying I put it out here for the whole world to see and there are alot of different opinions and different personalitys and I am so glad you said what you did.
As far as you ali, I will be taking your adivice as well. I know you are a very smart woman and you have alot of knowledge just about on everything. I do take what you say very serious and I am ready to stop with all the defensive behavoir and get back into recovery. I know thats what I need and thats what people on here need as well. I am not perfect so please forgive me If I f--k up. I am allowed to do that today and I am also allowed to forgive myself today so I will be trying and striving to be a better listener and not get so involved in taking everyone at defense. I am so thankful to have people like yall call me on my sh--t even if I dont see it until the last minute. I have and I am stilll working on me everyday. somedays are better than others but today is a pretty good day. I woke up and my puppy. My little angel is my love and I woke up this morning to another house full of toilet paper all over the house. Melody kept bitching about putting it on the back of the sink. I told her that the cats kept knocking it down and she was getting it then.
Well last night we put it on the rolller thing that it is suppose to go on and thought she could not get it from there and I swore I woke up this morning with her standing there with toilet paper hanging out of her mouth and she looked so cute it was so hard for me to yell at her because she is just a puppy and is teething right now and finds everything she can to tear up and chew on. I know meldody is going to be so pissed when she gets home because she has had enough of the little angel tearing up toilet paper every morning and really thought that if we were to put it on the roll she could not get to it.
She just looked so cute with it hanging out of her mouth that I had to pick her up and hold her. Mellody doesnt think I discipline her enough and it is very hard for me to yell at her because she is just a puppy and is so cute. Anyway, I wanted to share my morning with yall and to tell ali and cowgirl that I am listening to what yall have been saying and I am taking yalls advice. Thanks again. I know you only say it out of love and concern. Sincerely,
April
hello april, thats looked so cute in my mind about the sweet baby(puppy),good for you dear,,,you sound better ,,dont post to you much ,but you sound positive...doesnt that feel good sweety ,,well have a fun day with your baby (puppy) ok ,,poopie
Ohhh............A cute little puppy can brighten anybody's day.
I just love em!!!!!
I have a fat little beagle (snoopy) with the longest little ears...........Gotta love it!!
Take Care April
I just love em!!!!!
I have a fat little beagle (snoopy) with the longest little ears...........Gotta love it!!
Take Care April
april,
You do sound SOOOO much better today!!! I am very happy about that!! You have so much to offer here but it will be overlooked if you don't listen to others and only get upset about things that are said.
I hate that we are all addicts with defects that are so hard to correct!! It's ironic that many addicts seem to act alike in many ways. But thankfully we are not using and are trying to change our old ways & bad behavior. That is one of the best things I have found in NA - the steps that work so well to help us change the things within us that have caused us much turmoil & heartache!! We have a lifetime of work ahead of us but also the opportunity to find peace and serenity within ourselves.
ok, enough of my rambling again.....LOL
Oh, I wanted to know what kind of puppy you have??
Hey swizzel, She is a little pomeranian. She i so cute and so little and I love her so much. Melody tried surprising by getting her for me without me knowing and called the lady that was selling them and melody was telling me she was calling about some furniture. Anyway, the lady ended up telling her that she had sold all of them to a petstore so melody went there telling me she had to run in and buy something for the fish tank and came out with this very dissapointing look on her face. She then told me what she was trying to do and in the paper they were selling for four hundred dollas a piece and when she went to this store they had raised them to 8oo dollars a piece and melody could not believe they raised them so high and she ended up calling the lady who told them she sold them to the store and they told her they had no idea the people there had raised them the price so high and melody was telling the woman how badlly she was trying to get her girlfrirend a puppy and the lady said you now what? I have one here left that I was going to keep for myself and I will go ahead and sell it you since you want it so bad. So we went and picked her up that day and she has been by my side every since. Melody even gets jealous of her because she says I show the angel more atttention than her.
Like I told melody the angel is always loving and loves me no matter what and is not coming home bitching at me for not doing this or that and she has that unconditinal love. She sleeps in my arms every night and I love her like my own child. I know alot of people cannot understand that but I miss her when we have to leave her here and cannot wait to see her when we get home and she usually goes everywhere with me.
The other night melody got so pissed off because she kept trying to get the angel to lay down beside her and everytime she would take her hands off of her the angel would get up and come lay beside me. Well melody was very aggravated and of course this made me laugh at her because I cannot help it if the angel loves me more than she loves her. I am here with her allday and thought it was funny. Well melody did get over it and just realizes that she is use to me showing her so much attention. Anyway, I know I am writnng alot so I am gonna stop. Thanks for asking, Sincerely,
April
Like I told melody the angel is always loving and loves me no matter what and is not coming home bitching at me for not doing this or that and she has that unconditinal love. She sleeps in my arms every night and I love her like my own child. I know alot of people cannot understand that but I miss her when we have to leave her here and cannot wait to see her when we get home and she usually goes everywhere with me.
The other night melody got so pissed off because she kept trying to get the angel to lay down beside her and everytime she would take her hands off of her the angel would get up and come lay beside me. Well melody was very aggravated and of course this made me laugh at her because I cannot help it if the angel loves me more than she loves her. I am here with her allday and thought it was funny. Well melody did get over it and just realizes that she is use to me showing her so much attention. Anyway, I know I am writnng alot so I am gonna stop. Thanks for asking, Sincerely,
April
She sounds so cute and sweet!!!! My neighbor has 2 of them - one white and one golden. My dog loves playing with them!! They chase each other around the grass and jump on each other & roll around togther - it is just so cute and fun to watch them play like that!!
I know EXACTLY what you mean about loving your puppy so much!! I am the same way with mine!! My kids get jealous sometimes too!!
:-)
April,
She sounds like a cutie!! I am looking for a mini dashaund for myself. My hubby has a kitten who drives me slap crazy. But his antics are sooo cute at the same time. You sound so good today. I am proud of you !! Talk to ya later!
Suzie
She sounds like a cutie!! I am looking for a mini dashaund for myself. My hubby has a kitten who drives me slap crazy. But his antics are sooo cute at the same time. You sound so good today. I am proud of you !! Talk to ya later!
Suzie
Thanks suzie and how is your withdrwawals going. I know you siad last night today was the last day you had anything or was it thurs. Not sure. anyway, How are you doing today and you were on my mind last night when I went to sleep and said an extra prayer that God will see you through this. I know he can and he will. Goodluck, April
April,
Good for you...you already sound so much more grounded..
Your puppy sure sounds cute, and you dont need to yell at him to scold him...just a firm voice, and they know....is he toilet training? thats the hardest part especially if your in an apartment...
My friend has a yorkie/pom and it was never trained to go outside and it still goes in the house...so gross..and its not the dogs fault..it just wasnt trained..
.If you get a chance can you post a picture of him?? I love all animals, but especially puppies/dogs..
Hugs
Ali
Good for you...you already sound so much more grounded..
Your puppy sure sounds cute, and you dont need to yell at him to scold him...just a firm voice, and they know....is he toilet training? thats the hardest part especially if your in an apartment...
My friend has a yorkie/pom and it was never trained to go outside and it still goes in the house...so gross..and its not the dogs fault..it just wasnt trained..
.If you get a chance can you post a picture of him?? I love all animals, but especially puppies/dogs..
Hugs
Ali
April..now there's growth.
Fortunately or unfortunately, I didn't see the thread that Krazy started today before it was removed and she was banned by the mods....but I did hear about it. I'm a little confused as to your involvement on that thread, but hey, what you said in this one is all that matters. You have come so far and are such an important part of this board. Keep helping people with your posts, you do it well.
Cowgirl
Fortunately or unfortunately, I didn't see the thread that Krazy started today before it was removed and she was banned by the mods....but I did hear about it. I'm a little confused as to your involvement on that thread, but hey, what you said in this one is all that matters. You have come so far and are such an important part of this board. Keep helping people with your posts, you do it well.
Cowgirl
Thanks to ali and cowgirl, I am so glad that yall are there for me even when I am being an a******. I do have a pic of my puppy but how do I post it on here?please let me know. I hope yalls day has been as good as mine. I really mean what I am saying and I know it comes from my heart and I am so thankful that yall are so forgiven. Thanks again,
April
April
Ok, so the letter wasn't deleted...now I'm not confused anymore.
April, if you would like, I can put it up for you. You can send it to me.
Cowgirl
April, if you would like, I can put it up for you. You can send it to me.
Cowgirl
Cowgirl, All I have is one of me and her. so will that be ok?
Of course, as long as you don't mind a picture of you on the board.
Just send it as an attachment to:
saddlesore78@yahoo.com
Just send it as an attachment to:
saddlesore78@yahoo.com
Oh yeah, Also to ali and asking me if she was being trained in the house with paper. No girl I have taught her how to go outside but she just loves tearing up the roll of toilet paper. A matter of fact melody just yelled up here that she has gotten a hold of another roll and I am gonna have to clean it up. I cannot help but laugh because she knows she is doing wrong but looks so cute and I just cannot get mad at her. Melody is the disciplinary one here. So she can be firm with her. I just have no idea how she is getting a hold of it. her and the cats have a little scheme going on. I think thats what it is. lol Anyway wanted to clear that up wth you. Sincerely,
April
April
Hey cowgirl, It came back to me saying it was not a known member
Hmm. Try again and check the spelling.
saddlesore78@yahoo.com
saddlesore78@yahoo.com
I am trying right now and I did have the correct email address. Email me something and I will just hit return. imaprilinla34@aol.com
saying the same thing
YGM