Ha Ha.......i almost have to laugh when think about the post i just read, and how easily it is for me to see the "amature" in the person who wrote it, its tittled "Weaning Off Heroin" by a poster named "curious" , but i guess what slapped me the most about it was that the person who wrote it was me. i accidentilly found one of my first posts ever on this site from when i was just getting into the dope game, Diff was the first one who replied to that post. id have never guessed i wrote that if i didnt reconize the username for some reason, it dont even sound like me. just check out my lastest post tittled "This Wagon Must Have Square Wheels, I keep Fallin" written by "4got my username" in the heroin forums, its on the 2nd page. what a F@$kin difference since then.Those were the days when i first reaped the "benefits" of finding out why the same people kept filling my pockets with their money day after day. Now i sit here remembering how its taken me places where there are no pockets, just county blues and commissary, bail denied and parole officers up my a** i dont know i always end up on here when im up all nite and exhausted, so my grammar probably sucks but if this makes sense i think there may be a lesson in seeing these 2 posts and the difference a few years and choices can make. Peace- J
Dear J, I did go back and read that post. Hey, I won't say it.... but you know... Anyway, I remember thinking when I wrote that, that it was probably a futile exercise. We always think that we won't be caught out like that, and we always are. But a lesson learned the hard way is one that we're not likely to forget. But I may as well add that I think you're a long way from having learned your lesson. I think you will probably have to suffer much more before you get that far. You're still in the "life is s*** and I'm just a helpless addict" stage. You have to get to the "life is s*** and I'm going to do whatever it takes to make it better" stage before you can learn to be happy again.
OK, since you have looked back and probably wished that you'd listened to me the first time, I may as well give you something else to look back on in a few years time. Forget all this powerlessness malarky. You are not powerless. You are in this mess because you choose to be. You were given fair warning, but you chose to ignore it. Every time you put heroin in your body, it is because you choose to. Every time you get arrested, every time you hurt a loved one, every time you hurt yourself, every time you do something you are ashamed of, it's because you choose to. There is no miracle that will save you, there is nobody to rescue you. You can make life better, you can be genuinely happy, but you have to get off your arse and do it for yourself. If your wagon has square wheels, it's because you damned well put them on yourself.
Please don't think that my lack of sympathy is because I'm heartless. I'm blunt with you because you don't need sympathy, you don't need a bunch of junkies commiserating with you about your pathetic lives. I don't believe in beating about the bush. I talk straight, because life is too short for bull$***, and I don't have the time to waste, coz I wasted enough years being smacked out of my head. Every second is precious. You can take on board what I say, or you can choose to ignore it, which you probably will, coz like I said before, I don't think you've suffered enough yet.
best wishes
Diff x
OK, since you have looked back and probably wished that you'd listened to me the first time, I may as well give you something else to look back on in a few years time. Forget all this powerlessness malarky. You are not powerless. You are in this mess because you choose to be. You were given fair warning, but you chose to ignore it. Every time you put heroin in your body, it is because you choose to. Every time you get arrested, every time you hurt a loved one, every time you hurt yourself, every time you do something you are ashamed of, it's because you choose to. There is no miracle that will save you, there is nobody to rescue you. You can make life better, you can be genuinely happy, but you have to get off your arse and do it for yourself. If your wagon has square wheels, it's because you damned well put them on yourself.
Please don't think that my lack of sympathy is because I'm heartless. I'm blunt with you because you don't need sympathy, you don't need a bunch of junkies commiserating with you about your pathetic lives. I don't believe in beating about the bush. I talk straight, because life is too short for bull$***, and I don't have the time to waste, coz I wasted enough years being smacked out of my head. Every second is precious. You can take on board what I say, or you can choose to ignore it, which you probably will, coz like I said before, I don't think you've suffered enough yet.
best wishes
Diff x
