Good morning, or afternoon depending on where you are , I asked this question of you on someone elses post several days ago and dont think I got a responce which Is fine if you dont want to . I really enjoy your post , very inspireing my question is you obviously have a great program and seem very stable I was wondering if its not to personal if you can tell me about your bacground in addiction to what ever extent you can. What was your drug of choice, how much how long? how long have you ben clean ETC. I realize our past drug abuse and what particular thing we used isnt talked about IN the program but I think it would be very helpful to me and others if you could share a little Thanks in advance Ray. Dont worry if its long Ill just print it
i did answer you ray and can understand how one might overlook what i said back to you. i know i miss a lot that goes on this board because it's so busy.
anyhoot - i just copied and pasted below my reply to you. i hope something i say helps.
thanks again for asking about me -
love -
sammy
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say hey, ray! it's not too personal to inquire about me. i just got home from work, brought some delicious delectables for the family to munch, and thought i would log on to see what is going on here with my cyber family.
sammy is a nickname i acquired online - a shortened version of my last name. i've had lots of people over the years online assign me a slew of different monikers..."fuzzy", "missy", "denny", and some not so hot names that i won't go into here, especially when talking with some about denial. :O however, sammy is the name that i'm most often referred to. my first name is denise.
my story spans the better part of 25 years of using/abusing prescription drugs. your drug was my drug - it really didn't matter what it was, if i thought it would take me out of me, i'd use it. heck, i share in my story that i would have abused chicken lips or cherry pits, if i had one inkling that i could get to that state of being comfortably numb. my first introduction to recovery was in 1977 - i did a whole lot of tap dancing around the perimeter of the rooms, bouncing in and out, in and out, only to come to realization that this was my insanity. you do know the definition of insanity, i'm sure; but for those who don't, it's when we do the same things - repeat the same behavior - full well knowing what we are up against - yet this time we think it's going to be different and the turn of events will lead to a positive outcome, instead of a negative.
now i'm sure this way of thinking has proved beneficial to some - let's see - nuclear physicists or scientists who have to keep trying an experiment over and over until they reach the desired outcome - or - a horticulturist who is working on a new hybrid of a rose - are a few things that come to mind. however, for the sake of this forum and the sake of this topic, i'm talking about the insanity of using, because as it turned out, i finally learned that one pill is too many for this addict and one thousand is not enough. it took quite a few 24 hours for me to learn that lesson and the pain finally became too severe to live with that resulted from the consequences of my insanity. i count my blessings that the God of my understanding has bestowed upon me and for leading me to people who could teach me through their love.
my date of sobriety is july 1, 1998. i'll let you do the math because as far as i'm concerned, i've been clean since i opened my eyes at 5:00 a.m., so i'm counting 14 hours and some odd minutes...it helps me stay in the moment when i think in those terms. ;)
my heart thanks you ray, for your interest in me. how about you? care to share a bit of how you are doing with me? you are right, recovery is my number one focus in life and i had to go to any length i could to gain that solid foundation. you see, without recovery, i denied myself life and i believe to deny life is the greatest evil anyone can do.
thanks for letting me share a little of me with you.
namaste'
sammy
anyhoot - i just copied and pasted below my reply to you. i hope something i say helps.
thanks again for asking about me -
love -
sammy
________
say hey, ray! it's not too personal to inquire about me. i just got home from work, brought some delicious delectables for the family to munch, and thought i would log on to see what is going on here with my cyber family.
sammy is a nickname i acquired online - a shortened version of my last name. i've had lots of people over the years online assign me a slew of different monikers..."fuzzy", "missy", "denny", and some not so hot names that i won't go into here, especially when talking with some about denial. :O however, sammy is the name that i'm most often referred to. my first name is denise.
my story spans the better part of 25 years of using/abusing prescription drugs. your drug was my drug - it really didn't matter what it was, if i thought it would take me out of me, i'd use it. heck, i share in my story that i would have abused chicken lips or cherry pits, if i had one inkling that i could get to that state of being comfortably numb. my first introduction to recovery was in 1977 - i did a whole lot of tap dancing around the perimeter of the rooms, bouncing in and out, in and out, only to come to realization that this was my insanity. you do know the definition of insanity, i'm sure; but for those who don't, it's when we do the same things - repeat the same behavior - full well knowing what we are up against - yet this time we think it's going to be different and the turn of events will lead to a positive outcome, instead of a negative.
now i'm sure this way of thinking has proved beneficial to some - let's see - nuclear physicists or scientists who have to keep trying an experiment over and over until they reach the desired outcome - or - a horticulturist who is working on a new hybrid of a rose - are a few things that come to mind. however, for the sake of this forum and the sake of this topic, i'm talking about the insanity of using, because as it turned out, i finally learned that one pill is too many for this addict and one thousand is not enough. it took quite a few 24 hours for me to learn that lesson and the pain finally became too severe to live with that resulted from the consequences of my insanity. i count my blessings that the God of my understanding has bestowed upon me and for leading me to people who could teach me through their love.
my date of sobriety is july 1, 1998. i'll let you do the math because as far as i'm concerned, i've been clean since i opened my eyes at 5:00 a.m., so i'm counting 14 hours and some odd minutes...it helps me stay in the moment when i think in those terms. ;)
my heart thanks you ray, for your interest in me. how about you? care to share a bit of how you are doing with me? you are right, recovery is my number one focus in life and i had to go to any length i could to gain that solid foundation. you see, without recovery, i denied myself life and i believe to deny life is the greatest evil anyone can do.
thanks for letting me share a little of me with you.
namaste'
sammy
