Hi everyone! How are you doing Mistyeyes, Jasmine, Danny, and everyone else? I just want you all to know that I am feeling better today! I caught my hubby smoking pot with our neighbor last night, so whatever. I can't make him do something he is not ready to do, I guess. I am tired today and I have to go to school (UUUUHG!!) but I am fine. I'm getting excited about the holidays. It's nice to feel something besides anger and sadness. Just wanted to say thanks to everyone. I love you all!!!!! Love Jessica
Morning Jess,
I am so glad that you are doing fine today. I hope that everyone is this morning. Sorry you caught the hubby getting high again. One thing I know, I guess you do too is that unless they are ready to stop you are fighting a losing battle. Hopefully he will be ready sooner rather that later. It must be hard for you trying to get clean with him still smoking, but don't forget that you are your first priority. Take care of you and fight to stay clean.
Tina
I am so glad that you are doing fine today. I hope that everyone is this morning. Sorry you caught the hubby getting high again. One thing I know, I guess you do too is that unless they are ready to stop you are fighting a losing battle. Hopefully he will be ready sooner rather that later. It must be hard for you trying to get clean with him still smoking, but don't forget that you are your first priority. Take care of you and fight to stay clean.
Tina
hello, i just got your post thanks for thinking of me, sorry to hear about your hubby smoking, that must be sooo annoying!. please remember RECOVERY! ok i am here 4-u if you ever need someone to talk to, just remember that! well u take care and hope to hear from ya soon!! jasmine..
Girl, I could never get sober with someone using anything at this point. I am honestly just not there yet.
Just focus on your own recovery, and feel proud of yourself!
Just focus on your own recovery, and feel proud of yourself!
Littlebeach, it is HARD! Believe me, I have to keep my head in the right place.
Jasmine and Mistyeyes, thanks! People like you are gonna help me through this thing. I never thought it would be this hard this far in (1 1/2 months!). Some days are good, some days all I think about are pills! I wonder if my head will ever be free of this addiction!?
Jasmine and Mistyeyes, thanks! People like you are gonna help me through this thing. I never thought it would be this hard this far in (1 1/2 months!). Some days are good, some days all I think about are pills! I wonder if my head will ever be free of this addiction!?
Hey Jess,
How are you this morning? You hanging in? Just wanted to drop a line to see if you are ok. Keep up all the good work and take care of you!
Tina
How are you this morning? You hanging in? Just wanted to drop a line to see if you are ok. Keep up all the good work and take care of you!
Tina
Hey Tina, i am ok this morning. Can't seem to wake up. My mind has been SOOO foggy the past few days! I don't know why. I can't seem to concentrate in school or while I'm driving; I almost got in a wreck on my way to school yesterday! Anyway, I've been reading these posts about all of these people overdosing and it is breaking my heart! I haven't posted to anyone because I don't know what to say. Death is so final and unfair, especially when it is someone young. I am SO afraid that one day my children will get caught up in this mess. My parents talked to me about the dangers of drugs all the time and look where I've ended up....recovering addict!! It's so scarry. Love ya' and thanks for writing. How are you doing this morning? Gotta go get my little angels up and get them ready for school. Love jessica
Oh the littleones.......I have one out the door already the other is just getting up to get ready. The baby is up now seems my son just had to go and bug her because he couldn't sleep. Just wondering could the foggy head feeling be stress? Everything that you are going through with your husband....... just a thought. The posts have been heartwrenching on every board! I have the same worry as you and we talk alot about the dangers of drugs here. All mine except the baby know exactly what is going on with daddy. I am hoping he serves as an example of what not to do. I pray for them everyday..........
You stay strong.......
Hugs.....
Tina
You stay strong.......
Hugs.....
Tina
Tina, I think that it is great that you guys are up front about your husband. That will stick with them when they come across a situation that involves drigs later on. How old are your children? And you have 3? I'm sure my foggy head has a lot to do with stress. Not just my hubby, but recovering, kids, other family, finances, Christmas, birthdays (my children's b-days are Dec. 16 and Jan 2)....all of it! But I'll get through ok. How's your husband doing? Stay strong!
Just want to say GOOD MORNING TO ALL
LOL, thanks for reminding me why I feel so insane this morning.....I can relate to all your stress. I have 4 kids......one in college, highschool, middleschool and diapers. The hubby is doing good, he has his good and bad days. Some are really bad but at least he is hanging in. He posts under the name bad attitude if you want find out about him....
Well off to clean something! I'll be in and out if you need anything.
Tina.
BTW Good morning Mollyjean, hope you are well today.
Well off to clean something! I'll be in and out if you need anything.
Tina.
BTW Good morning Mollyjean, hope you are well today.
Molly, how are you doing this morning? I hope well. Stay strong and God bless!
Im doing OK I still want to take more than I have but THANK GOD my boyfriend brings the bottle to work with him.I know thats so childish but if they are here I'll overdo it even though I don't want to.So my game plan for today is to go into my 12yr olds room and mess around,organize her necklacese(that could take a lifetime)I will also clean her hermit crab(herbie)cage out but I'm sure I'll be back and forth between that and comming here You guys have no idea how glad I am to #1 find this site and #2getting up the nerve to talk.Take care I'll be around
Molly, great idea to keep busy. Better idea to let your hubby take your pills to work! I'm sorry to say that if I had pills in the house, it would be VERY hard not to take them! I'm glad that you found this site, also. Support in any form is lifesaving. You hang in there and think positive thoughts! Love, jessica
Thank You I'm very very lucky to have the people in my life and to have as much love as I have.Now I'm off to hang with HERBBIE the hermit crab I hope you have a wounderful day and I'm sure I'll be around.....Mollyjean
molly
Ive never had a hermit crab... are they hard to care for.... I know this is a little off topic..lol... but my 6 year old.. sort of asked about one a few months back.. and it is christmas time and her birthday is coming up...
btw... it is not childish about the fact that your boyfriend has to take the bottle with him to work... it is good thinking and it just shows you are aware of the powerfulness of this disease... your doing a good job.... pat your self on the back instead of the other...
God Bless...
Teresa
Ive never had a hermit crab... are they hard to care for.... I know this is a little off topic..lol... but my 6 year old.. sort of asked about one a few months back.. and it is christmas time and her birthday is coming up...
btw... it is not childish about the fact that your boyfriend has to take the bottle with him to work... it is good thinking and it just shows you are aware of the powerfulness of this disease... your doing a good job.... pat your self on the back instead of the other...
God Bless...
Teresa
I am jumping in on this one because I have unintentionally killed many. The most important thing is to never ever expose them to anything chemical. I found this out to late. Watch what you spray near them! Move them out of the room you are cleaning until the air clears. There is a great place in Florida I got info from years ago. Try searching on the net.......sure you will find them.
Hey guys, I had a hermit crab when I was a litle girl and I took it to school for show and tell and it died! I was tramatized!! LOL Anyway, my little girl has a teddy bear hamster. He is very sweet and easy to care for. My son wants a crab for his b-day and I have no idea how to care for it or where to get one. They don't sell them at the pet shops around here.
molly, is the bottle you are talking about tramadol? I am confused.
As far as the kids go, I am so scared for my kids. My son already shows major signs of addictive behavior. Now, I wish that I could tell you that I know this, and have been the perfect example of what not to do. But my son saw me get clean. He was so proud of me. you could see it in his eyes. But then I relapsed, and OH MY GOD....I don't even want to recall the look in his eyes when he saw me drink again...
He comes home today, and he thinks that I am still drinking. I told him that I haven't drank in 3 months, but he still doesn't believe me. He will see when he comes.
The apple doesn't fall too far from the tree, they say. Hopefully that I can show him the right way by recovering, but he saw a drunk mom with no power of beers, and I am so ashamed for that.
Sugarbear, way to go on the 1 and a half months. That is major. Just don't give in, no matter what. Personally, there are days the monkey is hanging around waiting to jump on, and if I was with someone in active addiction, it would grab hold...kinda like hermie...lol....
Okay, enough coffe for me now. Hang in there sugar, I am so proud of you. Just remember the feeling you have now, and compare that to the withdrawls..don't ever forget the pain. And a friend told me the further you get away from your last drink, pill, crack pipe, etc, the easier it gets. The obsession will go away, it just takes work and time. Mine came back yesterday, after the drs, but today I am so greatful I didn't use.
kerry
As far as the kids go, I am so scared for my kids. My son already shows major signs of addictive behavior. Now, I wish that I could tell you that I know this, and have been the perfect example of what not to do. But my son saw me get clean. He was so proud of me. you could see it in his eyes. But then I relapsed, and OH MY GOD....I don't even want to recall the look in his eyes when he saw me drink again...
He comes home today, and he thinks that I am still drinking. I told him that I haven't drank in 3 months, but he still doesn't believe me. He will see when he comes.
The apple doesn't fall too far from the tree, they say. Hopefully that I can show him the right way by recovering, but he saw a drunk mom with no power of beers, and I am so ashamed for that.
Sugarbear, way to go on the 1 and a half months. That is major. Just don't give in, no matter what. Personally, there are days the monkey is hanging around waiting to jump on, and if I was with someone in active addiction, it would grab hold...kinda like hermie...lol....
Okay, enough coffe for me now. Hang in there sugar, I am so proud of you. Just remember the feeling you have now, and compare that to the withdrawls..don't ever forget the pain. And a friend told me the further you get away from your last drink, pill, crack pipe, etc, the easier it gets. The obsession will go away, it just takes work and time. Mine came back yesterday, after the drs, but today I am so greatful I didn't use.
kerry
Kerry, thank you, thank you, thank you! There are days I feel like I can't take it anymore, but then I just fight a little harder. And I DO think of the w/d pain, and that keeps me straight. How long have you been in recovery, now? People like you inspire me and ensure me that recovery is possible and I am so grateful for that. I don't EVER want to be in that dark, lonely place of abusing pills again. I just hope my spirit is stronger than my disease. Love, jess
