nice!
it was a cold, rainy, gray, windy winter's day here in louisiana.
i think i read something recently about you laying down alcohol???? is that right?
s.
Yep!. You read right. I can't tell you how much healthier I feel, in all ways.
Wendy
Wendy
SUPERB!
Congratulations Wendy! I thought I read that and I can tell you it made me smile and feel so glad to be a part of this community!
Congratulations Wendy! I thought I read that and I can tell you it made me smile and feel so glad to be a part of this community!
Thankyou, DITTO
Wendy
Wendy
llh:sounds to me like you are going thru what is normal to go thru when you are withdrawing.
i hate what your feeling right now, it is AWFUL! the darkness, insomnia, crampy legs, depression the FATIGUE! omg!!! please Lord let me NEVER EVER have to go thru that again, i am hoping this will keep me clean for life when i think about those early weeks of detoxing. fortunately this time i was spared all that by taking suboxone. i havent had a vicodin since july 10th 06!!!
i have panic anxiety disorder so i do know a little about benzo's. i never got addicted to them thank God for what i have heard here is that the withdrawal from them is h*ll!!]
to taper off a benzo my doctor recommended that i eliminate one pill a week,next week take away 2 and so on...
then you do every other day, then it gets down to cutting them in half until they are gonel
i was helped tremendously by taking a anti depressant paxil. i still take them cuz if i dont i nose dive into the worst depression ever!
Thanks Jewlsander,
I am taking prozac for depression and I don't really know what it would be like with out it. I am glad to know about the taper thing. That sounds like a good plan. I have really needed my sleep through this and I finally had to tell myself that I will figure out the best way to taper down just in case my body has become used to them and Hope for the best. I hope it will be easier because I haven't taken them for to long and I am only taking a small dose at bedtime. but I wll reduce it slowly. that is what I am hearing. How long has it been for you? I think I am finally ridding myself of all the toxins and now its like you said I just have to get used to how I feel. Day 24 One day at a time. L
I am taking prozac for depression and I don't really know what it would be like with out it. I am glad to know about the taper thing. That sounds like a good plan. I have really needed my sleep through this and I finally had to tell myself that I will figure out the best way to taper down just in case my body has become used to them and Hope for the best. I hope it will be easier because I haven't taken them for to long and I am only taking a small dose at bedtime. but I wll reduce it slowly. that is what I am hearing. How long has it been for you? I think I am finally ridding myself of all the toxins and now its like you said I just have to get used to how I feel. Day 24 One day at a time. L
L,
How is your day going?
-Gentlepeace
How is your day going?
-Gentlepeace
I am really up and down. I think I am much better and then I realize my body still isn't right. My stomach was better yesterday then it is today : ( I keep thinking the worst is over and then all the sudden I feel anxious or my legs turn to cement and it takes all my effort just to walk 2 feet. i am sure I am gettng close to the end. I guess god is making sure I dont forget what this was like. Still no cravings at all, Right now I feel like you don't have to hit me in the head twice, lesson learned. I am to old for this. I suppose the cravings will come when I feel much better. I am ready for them though.... I plan to do some sort of endorphin releasing exercise and ride it out. They say it takes about 27 days to learn or change a habit. I want to have something all ready in my mind so I know what to do. How do you feel today?
L, it sounds like you are right on track. You are doing great.......The exercise will help with the restlessness, anxiety and depression. I found after I exercised that for at least an hour after that,I felt somewhat normal.
I hear you when you say you are too old for this. Are you journaling your thoughts and feelings during this time so you can look back and remember? It can be a good tool to use when the cravings start.
I feel pretty good today. Got 6-7 hours of sleep, don't feel that impending doom feeling(anxiety), appetite has returned, exercising, praying, going to work and meetings,etc. I feel 100% better! I still have the ups and downs at times, but I am able to weather the downs better.
-Gentlepeace
I just threw up, yuck. The only good thing is I feel better now.
Gentlepeace....I am so glad to hear that you feel good, both for you and cause it gives me hope. How many days has it been for you? I know you are about a week ahead of me. I am on day 24. You did say that your stomach was still bothering you last week right? I held of throwing up all morning and I should have just let it out because I felt much better after. I am still not clear headed but I can definitly tell it is getting better.
H,
I am so glad to hear you are better!. I am at 32 days. Things seem much better for me. I still get anxious at times. The periods of depression have lessened and as I said in my earlier email, sleep has finally returned! What a gift!
I truly enjoy going to meetings because of the support I receive. I also try to look back at what I had written when I was detoxing. It helps to remember this.
Please remember to take potassium riched foods since you are still vomiting. Gatorade, OJ, banannas, etc will be good sources for you to take. They will also help with the muscle spasms and rsstlessness.
I will say a prayer for you tonight.
-Gentlepeace
I am so glad to hear you are better!. I am at 32 days. Things seem much better for me. I still get anxious at times. The periods of depression have lessened and as I said in my earlier email, sleep has finally returned! What a gift!
I truly enjoy going to meetings because of the support I receive. I also try to look back at what I had written when I was detoxing. It helps to remember this.
Please remember to take potassium riched foods since you are still vomiting. Gatorade, OJ, banannas, etc will be good sources for you to take. They will also help with the muscle spasms and rsstlessness.
I will say a prayer for you tonight.
-Gentlepeace
I got some bananas : ) Do you feel like your personality is back? I can't wait for that. I can't wait to feel in control again. I know I wont feel great every day but I just want my sense of joy back. I actually cut my 16 yr. olds ham sandwich in a heart shape today with a cookie cutter and he texted me when he opened his lunch. That made me smile. First time in 3 weeks I wasn't faking it. I hope my stomach is better soon, can't wait for that either. When did yours feel better?
L,
I am glad your are eating banannas. I wish I had a heart shaped sandwich *smile* That is so sweet and a gift of sobriety. I am sure many others will follow.
I had to think a bit when you asked if I got my personality back.............In some ways I feel like I really don't know who I am without using some substance.......... What I mean by this is that I anestesized for a pretty good amount of my adult life in one way or another so this is a new path for me. As I have learned recently, getting sober is the easy part, staying sober is a life long process which includes a new way of looking and dealing with things. I hope to learn healty coping skills.
I feel better and more human though. I finally feel like I have joined the human race again. Did you ever feel when watching people do activities, "why and HOW can they be so happy? I used to wish I could be like them and now I am.
Praying is so important also. So many times I have prayed, "God, help my unbelief and help me to be willing because I do not feel like doing anything"
Regarding the nausea/vomiting, OC withdrawals will cause this as I am sure you know. These were not my DOC. I took percs, so I don't know how long it will last. You might want to call your doctor if it continues. Do you feel you are better? If you see a change in the nausea/vomiting from week 1 to now, then you probably are fine. Again I will say, check w/ your doctor if it continues.
-Gentlepeace
I am glad your are eating banannas. I wish I had a heart shaped sandwich *smile* That is so sweet and a gift of sobriety. I am sure many others will follow.
I had to think a bit when you asked if I got my personality back.............In some ways I feel like I really don't know who I am without using some substance.......... What I mean by this is that I anestesized for a pretty good amount of my adult life in one way or another so this is a new path for me. As I have learned recently, getting sober is the easy part, staying sober is a life long process which includes a new way of looking and dealing with things. I hope to learn healty coping skills.
I feel better and more human though. I finally feel like I have joined the human race again. Did you ever feel when watching people do activities, "why and HOW can they be so happy? I used to wish I could be like them and now I am.
Praying is so important also. So many times I have prayed, "God, help my unbelief and help me to be willing because I do not feel like doing anything"
Regarding the nausea/vomiting, OC withdrawals will cause this as I am sure you know. These were not my DOC. I took percs, so I don't know how long it will last. You might want to call your doctor if it continues. Do you feel you are better? If you see a change in the nausea/vomiting from week 1 to now, then you probably are fine. Again I will say, check w/ your doctor if it continues.
-Gentlepeace
i didn't know there was a difference in oxys and percs. i thought it was the same drug without the tylenol.
LLH,
Were you on Oxycontin or Oxycondone?
Were you on Oxycontin or Oxycondone?
Oxycodone I guess, not the time release.
Hey I went to work today and thought I felt pretty good and all of the sudden my legs started to feel so heavy and It was hard to walk. I felt like I was zapped of all energy. Did that happen to you for a while. I was suprised because I felt almost normal when I got up today. That is a weird feeling. I have a few hours to go still. Do you remember if that feeling comes and goes for a while?
Hey I went to work today and thought I felt pretty good and all of the sudden my legs started to feel so heavy and It was hard to walk. I felt like I was zapped of all energy. Did that happen to you for a while. I was suprised because I felt almost normal when I got up today. That is a weird feeling. I have a few hours to go still. Do you remember if that feeling comes and goes for a while?
llh, oxy in any form is brutal. Hang in there. I saw lots of people still suffering after weeks in rehab from that stuff.
You never have to feel like this again. This is good motivation to never go back.
You never have to feel like this again. This is good motivation to never go back.
L,
Glad you went to work. It is good to get your mind on something else.
I did have that happen to me many times. I would wake up feeling okay, get to work, and would feel good for a couple hours and then BAM! I felt so tired, my muscles felt sore and weak. I also felt like i wanted to fall asleep....I experience these episodes less and less though. Sometimes it can feel as if you take two steps forward and one step backwards though. Just take today.
-Gentlepeace
Glad you went to work. It is good to get your mind on something else.
I did have that happen to me many times. I would wake up feeling okay, get to work, and would feel good for a couple hours and then BAM! I felt so tired, my muscles felt sore and weak. I also felt like i wanted to fall asleep....I experience these episodes less and less though. Sometimes it can feel as if you take two steps forward and one step backwards though. Just take today.
-Gentlepeace
So it will get better and better. I am so excited. When that happened to you did it usually last the whole rest of the day or did it come and go throughtout? It just stopped me... I couldn't believe how tired I got so suddenly.
