sorry havent posted for awhile reading postes I get so mad about my spelling mt spouse gave me a spelling disc to help me ..anyway im working taking any job i can in cna work trying to bring in moeny myspouse only brings 850 a month .. I feel if I dont work IM nothing for the human race mother work the hardest in my book but the main problem is the pills I was sitting in front of my tree looks so nice and felt if I had a pill I would feel happy .. I feel no joy I think of all you guys how strong you are cowgirl kiwrain sharon all then I think .. way do I feel this way and the impending doom you felt misyeyes I felt that sun and boom my spouse rasied heck with me about all the moeny IV spent on pills .. now no moeny to buy BIG things ..he said your soberity is a blessing but what do I get ... im just feeling bad thinking of a way to make him happy .. Sometimes i think i hate men really do .. id would fall in love with someone like kiwrain becuase of hes ways so hard to please like trying to get him to say your a grat person sorry no bad feeling kiwrian ..hard is easier soft you get hurt I just feel like molly her post remined me of how I felt today love all
Hey Y,
The impending doom is gone.....I really have no idea where it all came from. But someone who is very wise helped me quite by accident to figure some things out. It has been getting better and better for me every day.......read some of the posts by the hubby also read the ones from atoz.....the hubby and I are usually in them too. I am so glad that you are getting back to work alittle, I think it is great for you. Try not to worry about all the bull.......it isn't worth it.
Worry about you and know that if you need anything we will be here for you. You are loved very much by many of us.....I hope that you know that.
Take care.....
Hugs,
Tina
The impending doom is gone.....I really have no idea where it all came from. But someone who is very wise helped me quite by accident to figure some things out. It has been getting better and better for me every day.......read some of the posts by the hubby also read the ones from atoz.....the hubby and I are usually in them too. I am so glad that you are getting back to work alittle, I think it is great for you. Try not to worry about all the bull.......it isn't worth it.
Worry about you and know that if you need anything we will be here for you. You are loved very much by many of us.....I hope that you know that.
Take care.....
Hugs,
Tina
Dear Y (Poopie)-
The feelings (depression) is natural, especially after just getting off of the pills. It seems to take a long time - I dont even know cause I havent been "normal" in a very long time - I dont even hardly remember what normal is???? So dont feel bad - you're not alone. Especially at this time of the year when we are supposed to be so "joyous" and "merry" - well, I have to try to put on a good "front" for my kids sake - after all, it's not their fault that their mom is going through this crap.
I just pray that some day soon I will be able to say that I'm beginning to feel "normal" again!!!! Try to have a Merry Christmas, anyway, Poopie~!!
Love,
Marie
xoxoxox
The feelings (depression) is natural, especially after just getting off of the pills. It seems to take a long time - I dont even know cause I havent been "normal" in a very long time - I dont even hardly remember what normal is???? So dont feel bad - you're not alone. Especially at this time of the year when we are supposed to be so "joyous" and "merry" - well, I have to try to put on a good "front" for my kids sake - after all, it's not their fault that their mom is going through this crap.
I just pray that some day soon I will be able to say that I'm beginning to feel "normal" again!!!! Try to have a Merry Christmas, anyway, Poopie~!!
Love,
Marie
xoxoxox
Yspearing,
I'm so proud of you for hanging in there with your sobriety and for expressing yourself. Don't worry about the spelling. I think you feel that way cuz others have given you a hard time. I'm just proud of you for wanting to have a better life for yourself.
Sometimes it is easier to be hard because you get hurt but you know I'd really rather care. I love to love and fighting takes too much of my energy these days.
I think the holidays give everyone that kind of feeling of impending doom. I'm sorry this is a hard year for you I hope when the lights are out and you are looking at the tree you can feel some joy and be proud of yourself for you are really taking giant steps.
Tis the season when people tend to feel a little lonely and out of place. We try to get along with our family when the rest of the year we may not even see them. It's financially really hard right now. But hang in there and keep talking cuz we are listening.
You know now is the time when your sobriety gets tested and I know you can make it yspearing. Also look in the sky tonite and tomorrow. It's a big shooting star time of year. I will wish upon a shooting star for you and your happiness.
Love,
PM
I'm so proud of you for hanging in there with your sobriety and for expressing yourself. Don't worry about the spelling. I think you feel that way cuz others have given you a hard time. I'm just proud of you for wanting to have a better life for yourself.
Sometimes it is easier to be hard because you get hurt but you know I'd really rather care. I love to love and fighting takes too much of my energy these days.
I think the holidays give everyone that kind of feeling of impending doom. I'm sorry this is a hard year for you I hope when the lights are out and you are looking at the tree you can feel some joy and be proud of yourself for you are really taking giant steps.
Tis the season when people tend to feel a little lonely and out of place. We try to get along with our family when the rest of the year we may not even see them. It's financially really hard right now. But hang in there and keep talking cuz we are listening.
You know now is the time when your sobriety gets tested and I know you can make it yspearing. Also look in the sky tonite and tomorrow. It's a big shooting star time of year. I will wish upon a shooting star for you and your happiness.
Love,
PM
yspearing,
do you have a couselor you talk to at all? just wondered. you have many things on your plate right now and i know you are a little down and out. might help to sort through the depression ya know? just a thought.
love,
PM
do you have a couselor you talk to at all? just wondered. you have many things on your plate right now and i know you are a little down and out. might help to sort through the depression ya know? just a thought.
love,
PM
yes I do and shes great had to get a female consler felt more at ease ... I thank you all for posting .. I got akick out of misteyes post THE RM ON FIRE.. when is my rm going to be on fire ha ha ha ha .... love poopie
Y,
So you liked that we almost burned the house down the other night.....did you blush like atoz did....lol Your house will be burning soon......just tell the hubby that you need him to help start a fire......
Glad to hear that you found another counselor that you feel comfortable with.....last thing I remember hearing about that was that you didn't like the one you had at first.
Sweet dreams....I am heading for bed.....
Tina
So you liked that we almost burned the house down the other night.....did you blush like atoz did....lol Your house will be burning soon......just tell the hubby that you need him to help start a fire......
Glad to hear that you found another counselor that you feel comfortable with.....last thing I remember hearing about that was that you didn't like the one you had at first.
Sweet dreams....I am heading for bed.....
Tina
your heading for BED ok have fun ROLL ROLL IN THE HAY LOVE YOU POOPIE GOOG NITE
